so shallow and obnoxious

waaai. there's a lot of things to do. i kept on cramming even i have a lot of time in my hands. sigh. im sick of myself you know? its not like im getting emo - don't give me that, 'cuz im not. anyways, as what im saying, im getting tired of myself being so introvert and block-head. im tired of reminding myself to do this and not to do that yet i can't simply follow. i dont understand myself. i cant control it. its really getting hard because once i get slipped off of my way, maybe i wont bear it much and get man (but not totally).