He who observes the wind will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap. - Ecclesiastes 11:4

"If you always wait for perfect conditions, you'll never get anything done."

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less. —Marie Curie

day twenty

Lord Jesus,
Thank you for today
Thank you for the quality time
that I had with the fam
Thank you for the productive hours
at the office
And thank you for the people
that I got to encounter today

Lord, I pray that you bless
our office
you guide our leaders to
wise decision making
so to better our service
for the community
I pray that you protect
everyone against corrupt
hearts and minds,
breaking our relationship
with one another, 
with the management, 
and the community
Protect the personal interest
for every body and may
every thing that is happening
to us make us trust you better

Lord, I pray for Aya, Clarisse,
Gee Ann, Gina and Vanjie
that they will bloom and grow
forever in the banner of 
Your love
I pray that You will give them
confidence to Your given authority
I pray that they will be filled
with Your love 
I pray that as they seek You they
will find themselves soaked
in Your goodness
I pray that they become good
followers of Christ Jesus
I pray that You grant them
the desires of the hearts

Lord, I thank You for
the life of Jannylo
Thank you because beautiful
things really happen in its time
Thank you because you have
preserved her and kept her
Thank you because she is
a fresh and budding growth
I pray that you will help us
the right foundations for her
I pray that she will become
10 times better in loving
and serving and enjoying You
Thank you for the opportunity
of walking alongside with
such beautiful stories you
have created will all that You are

Lord thank you so much
for being so good to me
Sometimes, I still get afraid
and make mistakes yet
You are patient with me
I will get better Lord

I pray for Earl, Jun and Von
That you be with them
O God in each and every step
I pray that You grace them
with an adventure of a lifetime
wirh You
I pray that in their current season
they will mature in stature 
and integrity and faith and leading
I pray that You continue
to call them to arise and follow You
For You alone is worthy and holy

Thank you for the trainees
and coaches and volunteers
that You have provided since
the last years, Lord
Indeed You are faithful!
You greatly Provide for
Your will to be done
I pray that we be found good
stewards with what You have
entrusted to us
And I pray that You help us,
strengthen us ans guide us,
as we pave the way You lead,
for the next generations

God, I also pray for the
other countries who are
under the pawn of the enemy
I pray for healing and comfort 
for those who are sick
I pray for protection for
those who need shelter
I pray for hope to arise
I pray for faith on Jesus
be steadied and strengthen 
Lord, You are close to the
broken hearted
You are with them
You are with them

Thank you Jesus
Thank you kaayo jud 😭

In Jesus' name, Amen

There's no way around it, but through it.

Sige lang. Lavaarn laaang. Happy pa din tayooo. NYAHAHAHAHUHUHAHAHA.

When the memory lane comes again, remember grace. When the past comes and asks you of change, remember grace. And when those things you've surrendered to God come at you again, 1) do not doubt the time you surrendered it to God, 2) there's nothing wrong about you but it's just a part of the healing process, and 3) honor the peace brought by God, to stop you from overthinking. (Roselle Catague, 01.27.2020)

Don't overthink. Stop thinking about him. He doesn't think about you. This is his boundaries. This is ypur way of protecting and helping him. Respect your peace. Respect your rest. Respect your health. Love yourself the way God loves you, the way you know to love others. Distance helps. No communication is a big favor. No interaction has its way of healing. This way, you let things happen to its rightful place. No manipulation. No force. No immature awakening. Purely God's will, way and timing. So let this be my surrender, I leave it to Your hands now. There might be times na pabalik-balik ko ani, but please bear with me, please be patient with me, please keep up with me. I'm still unstable and helpless with this overwhelming emotions, but I trust You, God. That at the end of it all, Your name will be glorified. And I will be happy.

What is the goal of your life? 

To obey You even if doesn't makes sense, even if I don't have the capability of doing it, even if I dont know what to do... But it is where God's grace appears, when we let go of the things so dear to you...

Hanep lang. When Kuya Jay said this, tagos bruh. Feeling ko nawala puso't kaluluwa ko. And narealize ko rin naman na, sabagay, tama na yung lumaban ka ng mag-isa, nagmahal ka ng mag-isa, nagpatawad ka ng mag-isa. And sa pag-iisa mo, anjan si Lord tama? Ngayon naman, let God. Kahit masakit, ulit. Kahit ang hirap, ulit. Kahit nakakatakot, ulit. Remember, new things happen in the Presence of God? So let all be fresh and new, beloved. He is beckoning His easy yoke and light burden.

Grace. 
Slow Down. 
Breathe. 
Trust. 
Rest. 

hahahahaha i somehow see a glimpse of our future.

day nineteen

Hi Lord

Thank you for today
I was really a mess
It was a total struggle
But thank you
for that night walk
with Rachel
I missed it
My breathers

Thank you for yesterday's
opportunity to play
table tennis
and badminton
I was reaaally happy
to play and get sweaty
with the people i love

Lord, I thank you
for Nanay
for her uncondional
love and service
She will always
remind me of that
love that never gives up
love that is patient
love that is veeeery kind
love that always hopes
for the best

Thank you God for
Your forgiveness
despite my hungry soul
my unfaithfulness
You still came
and spoke to the stars
your comfort and joy

Lord, it's kind'a hard
to move again
I overthink a lot
and it paralyzes me
God, I pray that you
grant me grace
to move forward, 
with direction, 
and be mindful
in my decisions. 
Help me, God to trust
my family,
my leaders
and the people
around me. 
Help me to delight
as I wait on You, God.
I pray for rest for my soul
I pray for Your peace
that transcends all 
understanding, even my
overthinking, to be
upon me. 
I pray for Your grace
to abound. 
God, I choose to obey you. 
It breaks me so deep, 
but I know You will save me.
Holy Spirit, help me. 

Thank you, Jesus
because I am victorious
against these struggles. 
be it's to be like You
than to be like them
because You are
worth it all
because I can rejoice
without asking anything
in return, and just
be blessed
and be happy...very happy
because you have declared
"It is finished."

Thank you, Jesus. 
All this I pray in Jesus' name,
Amen.

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Lord... 

a love that has peace

I've watched Haikyuu for so many times but it never fails to crack me up in laughter and tears 😭

Vanilla Twilight

In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through

i watch as lovers pass me by Walking stories, who's and how's and why's Musing lazily on love Pondering you

I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

It's my caution not the cold there's no other hand that i would rather hold the climate changes, I'm singing for the strangers about you

don't keep time, slow the pace Honey, hold on if you canthe bets are getting surer now that you're my man

I'll be waiting for you baby I'll be holding back the darkest night Love is waiting 'til we're ready, 'til it's right Love is waiting

I could right a million songs about the way you say my name I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start, neither should I rush my way into your heart

- Love is Waiting, Brooke Fraser

This song, I could remember Ate Roselle telling me, "Kini gyud laging Love is Waiting ni Brooke noh..." Hahaha. And then she would just laugh at me with my stories. Ahhh... Miss her. I think I'll cry if she comes home...

I've been thinking, whether I'm in a cycle... in a cycle of 
repeating the same mistakes, 
doing bad decisions,
learning acceptance,
or simply learning

But one thing I'm sure though, he's not a mistake in my life. Hehe.

I mean, he definitely made me realize a lot of things. It was (and still) tough to be with him, because I feel like I have to consider everything when he's there around. But that's what's amazing (I guess, haha) because I can see myself making conscious decisions to be healthy... to protect him (hopefully) and protect the people around me... And no, I'm far perfect, to say that I can actually do these things consistently, faithfully, and always in good faith... hahahaha, I tell you, sometimes (or most of the times hahahaha) my naivety gets in the way. In other words, I get too irrational or emotional, to the point of leaving the consequences be. See how selfish? Hahaha. And now, that's what I wanna address. A quote from Ate Melai, walang Lordship kapag di kayang isurrender yung weakness. Lordship matters. It reaaally matters. I can give you lot of reasons as to whys and how-comes as to choosing this. But it won't matter if I can't follow through it right? Hahaha. Anyway, point is, I wanna make things right. 

I wanna love God right. 

I want to love him right (well, if God permits 😅).

That's why, probably I want to learn; there's willingness to go through season. 
Because I still believe love is beautiful when it's done right.
You get to grow.
You get to bless others.
You get to honor God (which is all that matters).
This is God's will for us. It's good, pleasing and perfect.
That we get to live the best He has prepared for us, 
through trusting
His way
His will
His timing.

I don't know what's up for this story, but I'll leave it here. Let's leave it to God. He's the Master Storyteller after all. And He's just amazing, because He leaves the best parts of life to be discovered. 😊

So one step at a time.
Breathe.
Don't rush.
Grace for every race.
Life is good.
And it always gets better.

day eighteen

Thank you Jesus
for the day

Thank you for healing Cara
Thank you for bringing her home safe
Thank you for my family,
my home, that though we're
far perfect, but you've always
made sure I have a place
to run to, my shelter,
my refuge, my fortress

Thank you God
for Junjun's leadership
I pray that you hear
his prayers
I pray that you keep
his health 
I pray that you reintroduce him
to Your grace
Your love

Thank you God
for the life of Jeff
Thank you for his leadership
Thank you for his humor,
so contagious to brighten the room
I pray that you will
continue to increase
his stature
as a man after God's own heart
as a husband
as a child of God
I pray that You
provide for him and Arej
financially and physically
Thank you for being
a good, good Father to them

Thank you God
for the prayer team,
I pray that you will
continue to grow
our desire and delight
for prayer
may we see it in
always
in a new
fresh
and bright
light
I pray that You give us
confidence to be
persistent, just like
a child to pray
to ask and receive
to seek and find
to knock and have open doors
Thank You, God
for leaning close
Thank you, God

Thank you for
the Youth Service
and the rest of the volunteers
I pray that you bless
the hands and minds involved
I pray that you bless
the equipment and the location
I pray that you keep
everyone in Your Spirit
Unite us in Your purpose
to help others get to know You
better, deeper and happier
Thank you God for the harvest
Thank you God for trusting us

Thank you Lord
for the trust 
for Your kindness
for providing us the best
always

In Jesus' name,
Amen

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One more day, one more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again, I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still for one more day with you

hays. kung bal-an mo lang ano ko man kagusto nga magpalapit simo, kaptan ka, kag magtabid man simo permi. pero indi pwede. basi abi indi man gali para sakon. hahaha. nahadlok ako, hambalan taka. indi ko ya gusto nga sa ulihi, may magsisi kag maghibi bala haw. madamo pa nga nami sa imo, sa akon, sa aton matabo. indi ko kahambal patapos, pero ang akon nga pangadi lang gid ya nga tani masadya ka gid sa adlaw adlaw mo. isa ka gid sa akong pasalamatan bala kay Lord, amo na mabatyagan kag maintsindehan mo tani ngaa indi ko kapasagad gid sa imo. gusto ko. gusto ko gid. pero karon, akon paminsar para ya simo kaugalingon... kag sa tanan... nga masadya... kag ma okay gid. amo gid siguro taka ka palangga ba, nga gusto ko malipay ka gid pirmi biskan wala ko ... hays. kanami bala maghibi, pero daw ginahambalan ko ni Lord nga indi ni paghibian na... haha, basta ah, madamo gid nga salamat simo.

day seventeen

Thank you Jesus
for every morning
for every afternoon
for every night
for every person
i get to talk to
i get to interact with
and get to know

Thank you God
for the small group
You have entrusted me
to think I'm not
worthy of it
but you have it anyway
Lord I pray for the ladies
Roch, Clarisse, Gee Ann
Rix, Aya, Hannah, Jo Ann
Shemaiah, Lingling, Ella, 
Rachel, Mayce and Gina
that they will grow
in the desire and delight
of knowing You
I pray that You ready
their eyes, heart
and soul to discover
the strength, the width, 
the depth and height 
of Your love for them
I pray that they will
remain always with
Your Word, 
Your grace, 
Your Presence
I pray that every day
they get to find
reasons to thank You
for Your goodness
Your faithfulness
Your loving kindness
that goes on and on and on
Thank You, Lord, 
Because day by day
they get better and better, 
grace to grace
and glory to glory

I pray for Kris, God.
Heal his mind, heart and soul
I pray that from his hurts
will come from a deep well of love
I pray that you open his heart
for the beautiful things
You have for hin
I pray that you open his eyes
for every grace and glory
You have to him
I pray that he finds You
even if he's in the midst
of doubt, pain and condufusion
I pray that You hold Him tonight
I pray that every morning, 
and every night
You hold him gently
I pray that you bless him
amd keep him all his days

And Lord, thank You
for the gift of rest
thank You for always 
always taking care of me
Thank you for taking care
of the people around me
Thank you for the
pause and breathe
for the slowing down
and leading always
I pray for more days
that I get to yield every
decision to You
I thank You because
the true source of
self-control, sound-mind
security an d satisfaction
comes from You
and You alone
I pray for more
incomparable days
to love and cherish
with You Jesus
thank you for
forgiving, loving, 
accepting and believing 
in me. 

In Jesus' name, Amen ✨🌼✨

day sixteen

Thank you Jesus
for reminding me
of Your steadfast love
that never ceases
that is committed til the end
that is brand new every day
Thank you for reminding me
not to hurry
that love is patient
love is kind
it doesn't envy
it doesn't boast
it is not proud
it is not rude
it is not self-seeking
it keeps no records of wrong
love doesn't delight in evil
but rejoices in the truth
it always hopes
always protects
always trusts
and always perseveres.
Thank you Jesus
for being our great constant
You ALWAYS stay
You NEVER fail
You ALWAYS choose us
You NEVER leave
You ALWAYS reach out, pursue
And You will NEVER forsake us
Thank You Jesus
for bringing us to a place
of safety
of green pasture
of rest
our shelter
our refuge
our fortress
Thank You for such
Grace that took
the toll of sin
taking
our guilt
our shame
our doubts
our fears
our pain
our condemnation
for
forgiveness
healing
faith
hope
Thank you for
teaching us
humility
gratefulness
trust
contentment
purity
and surrender. 

Lord, thank you
for Ate Ciara. 
I pray that you 
bless her Your 
promise Yes and Amen
this year
I know its been 
tough for her
and I pray that 
You indeed show 
Yourself to be her God
in her family
in her work
in her class
even in herself. 
I pray that You move
mightily in her life. 

Thank you for Marj, Lord. 
Thank you for being so faithful
and good to her. 
For calling out Your daughter
for Yourself.
I pray that she will continue
to confide in Your grace
in Your love
in Your promises
in Your goodnes
in Your leading
as a Father who satifies
and gives the best
for her children.

I pray for Rachel,
that You come through
her finances God. 
I pray that You help
her in her anxities
and doubts and fears. 
I pray that You put 
Your hand in her soul. 
I pray that Your precious
blood, O Lord Jesus, 
will protect her. 
I pray that You breakthrough
Break the frontiers that
keeps her from living
the best and fullness
of Your love ans salvation

I pray for Clarisse, 
O God, that You keep her
in Your loving hands. 
I pray that Your love
will overflow upon her
I pray that those that
burdens her will get
to see Your light
be shed
be warmed
be enlightened
I pray that You order
her loves, O God. 
I pray that she learns
to love herself as
You love her

I pray for Paolo, God, 
that He will grow Himself
in Your truth
in Your Presence
in Your Word
I pray for healing to have
its complete work in him
I pray that You always
make him feel that
he is loved
and never forgotten
May this season
mature him
and secure him
in You

I pray for Hazzel, God, 
to amke her relationships
genuine and healthy
I pray that You protect her
and her heart
I pray that You help her
in her transition
and work load
Give her your easy yoke
and light burden
May Your Holy Spirit
stir the joy in her soul
I pray for strength upon her
as she learns away
from her comfort zone

I pray for KC, Lord, 
for healing
and for her desire
of having a partner in life
Lord, I pray that you
unrush her
I pray that You spare
her from bad compromises
I pray that, You
give her a heart open to
Your leading
Let Your wisdom
reign upon her Lord

Thank You for Glierden
I pray for provision
I pray that You grant
the desires of her heart
I pray that You let Your will
be done upon her
I pray that You work her heart
for You and Your promises
and plans for her

Thank You Jesus
because You are in control
You are the God of order
You are good
And we can always rely
on You
Thank You for shaking us
until what remains shall be eternal
Thank you for straightening
our path
Your will be done
In Jesus' name. 

day fifteen

Thank you Jesus
for the gift of life
for the gift of family
and friends

Lord, thank you
for the GSCWD
Thank you for taking
good care of it
Thank you for
making it to be
a channel of blessing
to Your people
I pray that you bless
the employees
the shareholders
and the BOD
I pray that You
protect us from
the evil's schemes
of destorying 
your plans for the District. 
I pray that
You give us
an everyday resolve
to be excellent
be thankful
and be a servant
to one another
To be found faithful
with what You have
entrusted us

Lord, I pray for
the Music Team
I pray that we
would continue
to behold God
in His goodness
in His majesty
I pray that
You give us compassion
to never stop serving
its not about what we can
but what You've done
I pray that You 
give us the desire
to devour Your word
enjoy Your Word
where we ger to know You
and your love for us
Give us a soul fully
yielded - 
by heart
by soul
by strength
Thank You for Your
forgiveness, 
favor, 
joy, 
peace
Holy Spirit. 
Keep our eyes and affection
on You. 

Lord, that you 
for growing Gee Ann
I pray that as she discovers You
she discovers himself too
I pray that as she blooms
her fragrance please You
because its all for You
I pray for rest and healing
deep within her
I pray for Arnessa
that she will never
lose sight of You
in the process 
of her desires
of doing Your will
That she will be confident
that He who calls her
is faithful provide
and sustain her. 
I pray for Chester
Thank You God
for a man like Chester
Thank You because
You have been so
so good and faithful
to his life
May he inspire
and encourage
men and women
to trust God 
no matter what
And God, I pray for
Dencio, 
that You give him
ecouragement
and strength
not to be intimated
by nothing
and no one
Because his confidence
is in you
I pray for Von
that he'd grow deep
intimacy and joy
in knowing You
that His love
for You and Your people
will be so real to Him

Thank you Jesus!!
For the revelations
For the learnings
For the love
I pray that You help us
keep it so close
and buried deep
within us

day fourteen

Thank you Jesus
for today!

Thank you for the light load
and the inspiring people
I met today

I pray for Kuya John
That you continue to
bless the works of his hands
May you bless him
his family
his business
so to bless others
and bless Your name
I pray that, Lord, 
continue to mold him
to be the husband
the father
the master
the protector
the provider
the pastor
that You want him to be

I pray for Julie, Lord.
I pray for favor 
wherever you have
called her to be
I pray that you grant
the desires of her heart
I pray that she will
overflow in gentleness
in calmness
in excellence
in confidence
as you have molded
her to be
thank you for 
such an amazing 
display of beauty
bless her heart
and the people
surrounding her

Thank You for Diwa, God
Thank you for being
so faithful and good to her
Thank you for the favor
and blessing you have
upon her and her family
I pray that You protect 
her faith
her reste
her excellence
her well being
I pray that You
continually
grace her
guide her
strengthen her
and make her happy
under whatever season
she may be in
Thank You for not
not letting go of her

And I thank you for Kim, Lord
At a very young age
You have entrusted her
with greatness
with beauty
with excellence
with joy
I pray that she will
find You always
to be in her midst
I pray that You 
heal her heart
from rejection
I pray that you release
her from the lies of the enemy
She is accepted
She is loved
She is unique
She is beautiful in all ways
I pray that You will
always be her epitome
of her decisions
and joy and maturity
Thank You the influence
May she continually 
shineb efore others

Thank you Jesus
for providing for us
for making us understand 
ourselves better
and for reminding us
to extend the blessing
to the people
at our reach
Thank You for 
healing Cara. 

In Jesus name.
Amen. 

day thirteen

Thank you Jesus for today
Thank you for tonight's rain
Thank you for your faithfulness
to be so so good to me
and the people around me

Thank younfor giving me people
I can be inspired of
getting better, and
loving better

Lord, I thank you for my family
who never fails to start my morning
my home
my shelter
my refuge
my safe fortress
thank you for protecting 
our health
our desires
our present
our future
with Your loving kindness

Thank you for the life
of Charles, Lord
I pray thay you keep
his well being in Your hands
I pray that you will sustain
his joy with Your joy
I pray that You provide 
for the desires of His heart
May your lavish goodness
as His loving Father
open his heart
widely for you. 

Thank you for Clarisse, God. 
Thank you for Your love, 
and grace
that saves and spares. 
Thank you because
this love will empower
her for freedom and healing. 
Thank you, Jesus, 
because it is finished. 
Continue to make Your 
love and forgiveness
be known and be deep
into her soul. 

Thank you for BJ, God. 
For her life that is strong
and beautiful.
You have blessed her
with a good package
of confidence
of discipline
of wisdom
of authority
of beauty
Thank You God because
You will continually
lead her in grace
in love
in the fullness 
of who You are
Bless the works of her being
Bless her radiance
Bless her joy
Bless her
She will not fail. 

And Earl, God, 
Thank you because
You are moving in his midst
Thank you because
you are making him rest
in Your green pasture
Thank you for your discipline
Thank you for leading
Thank you for satisfying
his heart
and
his soul.
Let Your grace abound 
in his life
Let Your joy be His strength.
Let Your presence win him over. 

Lord, I pray that
for the rest of my days
I get to love You
I get to serve You
I get to enjoy You
I get to honor, my King

Thank you, Jesus!