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NO OTHER LOVE THAN THIS

LOVE REACHING OUT TO US

Whenever I cross this thought, I remember how God sent His Son Jesus to REACH OUT to us. I mean, the preparation God made took a measurable yet significant time from the Old Testament to the New Testament. He was preparing, and just like everything we are celebrating, it is grand and it was that. He was getting ready for this great exchange. He knows the struggle of each and every people for ages just to reach His presence, just to have Him, once again. But love came and stayed. These struggles that brought out all the wickedness of the human heart, all the while as He was silent, I believe He was saying "Hold on just a little more my beloved, I will come to you. I am preparing everything for our grand reunion." And indeed, heaven revealed its splendor. "And the word became flesh, and dwelt among us." He spoke everything into existence. He who is the glory of heaven. He who's love is translated in Jesus.

Jesus exemplified what kind of life God wants us to live. A life knowing that we are children and the Father is good, His will ever pleasing and perfect. Jesus showed that the Father wanted a relationship, where love is the only language. Jesus lived a life rooted in the Father, a powerful, fruitful and alive life. It was never about what we can do, what others will say, what has been. His ways may be contrary to the world, but that's the truth and discipline our souls have been wanting, a love that does not pretend yet so persistent.

During our recent coaching group (CG as we call it), we discussed the book of John. The goal was to finish the book before February starts, however due to circumstances we weren't able to do it, so what our leader did was, upto the recent chapter we were reading, what certain event in the bible speaks to us. I shared about the story of the Centurion who's servant was dying. And to my bad, just as I was looking for the verse for reference, I found out that the account is in the account of Matthew and not in John. (face slap) Going back, 2 girls shared about the Samaritan woman Jesus encountered in a well. They shared how Jesus quenched the longings (thirst) of our hearts just by believing in Him and that how it fills our [hungry] souls when we do (obey) the Father's will. Then another one shared that it reminded her of the time she was still new in faith where read about "Love one another. Just as i have loved you." She shared that she's going having a hard time loving certain people in her life due to circumstances, but then again God reminds her of His love for her. His love that keeps no records of wrong. A love that only God can perfectly perform. You know as they say, an inventor knows the whats and hows of their invention. Someone also shared that she's constantly being reminded by God to rejoice in her circumstance.

All of these revelations came so fresh to me. I mean, amazing love how can it be? I've always been someone who is never convinced that someone could love me just like that. He loves like a relentless hurricane yet comes to you as sweet as a dew. You know what I mean? Where can you find this kind of love? So strong enough to stop your storms yet so calm at the same time that it gives you His peace that transcends all understanding.

A love like this

Where can you find

I went to ask the ocean

Told me to measure its depth

But even its depth is immeasurable

I went to ask the sky

Told me to gauge its height

But neither its height is limitless

I went to meet the east

But I seem to chase after west

I tried to talk with the moon

Told me to count the stars

But counting brings me to infinity

I wander to find this love

I thought it has a name to belong

I though I found it but

Love found me instead

What a glorious moment

To know it has been with me all the time

The answers brought me somewhere I thought I'm lost

But it's where you found me instead

Your love that finds instead of seeks

Your love that gives rather than receives

Your love that forgives and doesn't demand 

Your love that stays, I can never comprehend why

Love speaks who you are

Love is all that you are

You've been with me in ages

And You speak love to me face to face

Randomness be like

People coming in and out
Vehicles going left and right
Leaves dancing in my sight
Stars start to twinkle at south

Time
Moment
Season
Life

Everyone moves in such restriction
When the sun rises begins time
When it's gone bids a farewell
Darkness stills all in the shadows

Peace
Solitude
Quietness
Silence

Squad getting ready for a surprise
Someone who looks for a job
Them who agrees and refuses   
The smell of fries and milk tea

Harmony
Rhythm
Melody
Bass

Slowly, it all gets calm
With a beat, eyes on no one
Steadying the storms
Unfeeling the false pressures

Eyes
Voice
Conversation
Smile

Unfathomable wonders
Discovering treasures
Bursting equations
Gold-dust celebration

And I chose you. Forever I choose you still. ‘Cause I love you, and I promise I always will.

Selfish.

God is good.

Happy New Yeaaar!

Alam mo yung New Year na New Year, NO agad ang answered prayer mo.

Edi Wow.

Ikaw na Lord.

Hahaha. Gurabi tologooo. 

Di ko alam anong mararamdaman ko. Pero seriously, it was a recalling NO until this morning's clear and loud NO.

Wondering what this is about?

...

(after 10 hours)

Sigh.

This is the worse feeling ever.

To be teased to someone you don't know by someone you admire.

Like... can someone shut him uppp? #icri

...

The moment I knew he was coming, I started to doubt whether to come or not. I argued to myself, "Why would I miss this chance because of him? Besides I'm the one who's got an issue with him, so I got to handle this well."

I was kind of ignoring the person the entire ride. I was not interacting well, maybe trying to gain momentum too (since I was not familiar with the driver).

Then it came, that moment. I WANT TO REDEEM MYSELF FROM SUCH DISGRAAACE!

Annoying topics, I can't handle them. It's too much. And I'm sorry I can't be so maldita to intimidate people as I should. It's either I let out a laughter or cry over the matter. I have patience for teasing, BUT HIM TEASING ME TO SOMEONE I EVEN DON'T KNOW AND CARE? Like the heeeeck. Don't you know how everything is hammering inside meee? Can he also get his share for this?

AND YES, HE'S THE NO GOD TOLD ME. And giving me such feels right? Sigh. My fault too. For letting such topics bother me. I should really learn how to choose topics to be affected with.

Now I seriously don't know how to handle situation alike. But everything is civil to us when it comes to ministry. I'd like to know him actually, become really good friends with him because he's amazing. But the more I get closer, the more I hear a voice that asks, "Will you accept him with all these imperfections?"  

I don't know.

I mean, stop. No.

I just want to enjoy more joyrides, travels and tambays as much as this season allows. I want these people to understand that I want to be friends with them genuinely without touching that sensitive topic. I want them to respect that so I can move on and get along with them with all sincerity & purity. I want them to be my good brothers I can confide in. I hope to impart to them. I hope to hear wisdom from them. I hope to accomplish great things together with them. I hope to hear their faith. I hope to hear their struggles. I hope to hear their love and hope in Jesus. I hope to enjoy this season with them without anything distracting me. I hope they get to help me with this.

I know they won't be able to read this but my prayer goes for them. That they become great men that respect and protect women in their thoughts, with their speech and actions. That they will become the men Jesus led and taught how to love.

Rooting for my brothers in Christ! :)