Bad days happen and it won't last; life is still beautiful. God's grace will enable and sustain us to be better, in Christ Jesus. Whether it's sin or in our stupidity, His grace is enough.

Lord, I need a breather. I feel like everything is against me. I feel like grace has no place for someone like me... someone who can never do right things... And it makes me feel so hopeless, making me hard to believe that I have a good future... because I'm not good, I'm not competitive, I'm not excellent, I'm easily distracted and pressured...

Sometimes, our motivation to be on the top is not just to be praised but be seen.

Resentment lets you know when you are not honoring your own needs or boundaries.

Seven things

Earl Justin, I don't know if I'll be able to tell this to you but since then you have been in my prayers... not to ask for you, but to let you experience the best that God will reward you.

Tonight is an answered prayer. I'm scared that you'll leave me. I'm scared that I won't be able to love and serve and cherish you as much I desire. I'm scared that I will just ruin everything God has for you because I am this weak in my conviction to be right with God and you. I don't wanna make you contend with God's nor with the people He surrounds us. I won't intend to replace God's throne in our hearts. And ultimately, I'm scared that with all that's happening, the thought of leaving the One who loved me the most... that would be very unbearable.

So here's seven things I wanna tell you but I'll keep it to God for now. I don't want to pre-empt anything, but let God create. For whatever He creates, He loves. And what He loves, He sustains and keeps until the very end. May the entire process and progress be glorifying to Him who is worthy of it all! 

1) I don't wanna waste God's trust. His goodness and kindness. I don't want to waste the trust of those who loves us too.

2) I hope to make you proud in this decision. 

3) I wanna tell the world that I'm proud of you. A lot of times I wanna do it but I always holdback. And yea, I wanna tell the world of the treasure that I found. 

4) I wanna do a lot of things with you, and celebrate it with everybody. And there's no more hiding or fear because God says so. 

5) I wanna let you experience and indulge God's fullness of life without fear, without considering anything but to enjoy God to the fullest.

6) I wanna let you live without worrying about compromising what you have begun with God. 

7) And I wanna let you go, and be free from me.

And if God permits me to stay in the garden He is growing in you, then I'll be forever thankful. But even not, I will remain forever thankful. And all the more praise Him for letting me see you to be the best version of you.

Forever thankful to God for you Earl Justin. 

HE CHOSE YOU

No matter how far you fell

No matter what you feel

No matter how unworthy, 

dirty, failure, mistake, mess

you think you are

or your life seemed to be

He was never mistaken 

to call out your name

to choose you

You are never mistaken

to hear Him

to see Him stay with you

You are a treasure found

A gift full of worth -

worth telling the world

worth to be proud of

worth for the best

worth it.

That is Who He is -

good, merciful, gracious

able and in control,

Father, keeper, healer

loving, kind, and loving.

Creator. Sustainer. Provider.

Faithful 'til the end.

He created you.

He chose you.

He will father you.

With no doubt,

no matter what -

past, present, future -

He is fully and completely

convinced and confident

that it will always be

you and Him.

God's knows best. His will. His way. His time.

Ipinaglalaban ka ng ipinapaglaban mo.

"you deserve better" - Jeff Ibanez

kahilak man sad tag lata, Lord
He sounded like a father to me. 

😭😭😭

pangarap ko ang ibigin ka 🎶

Rau, the gravity of "wala man gud ko kabalo, wala ko kapansin"... Di lang ikaw affected, madami... Next time, ask for instructions. Always, always, think about how your actions will affect others.

to be woman of conviction

a woman the Lord keeps on making
a woman that keeps on loving
a woman who stands as royalty
a woman whose joy is to serve
a woman full of hope and gratitude

a beloved in the Lord
a daughter of God
a child of the One True King

Handa ka na masaktan?

Will loving be enough?

What do I want to do?

I wish answering, "To love", would be enough.

Hallelujah, Great Defender! So much better in Your way.

Hallelujah, defender of my heart. 

"Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight," Psalm 51:4

"Sin... is a violation against a personal command... that is if I want to keep the will of my Father for my life"
"... The recognition that the heart needs redemption and forgiveness, that leads to worship."

It's not my job to make [you] a man. - Astrid

Spring forth thy new love.

It's not gonna happen again.

You're not gonna let it happen again.

You are doing the right thing,

for you understand it well.

It's going to be long and painful,

but it's gonna be worth it.

It has been like that, always;

beautiful things in its own time.

No, it won't happen again.

You've learned your lesson,

and know you know your worth.

You're not taken for granted,

you are well kept.

Continue to stand your ground.

Someday, someone will show you

how precious you are in their pursuit.

Don't worry, the past is in the past.

It has no power to you anymore.

Neither the taunting fear of the unknown,

it shall sting yet you will still sing.

One day, that new love will appear,

and you will be courageous to face fear,

as if spring has not known the unknown.

But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what he wants. Then the other things will be yours as well. (Matthew 6:33 CEV)

He has set the right time for everything. - Ecclesiastes 3:11, Good News Bible

Is it good? Is it wise? Will it honor God?