The calling that God placed on your life is so large that you need Him in order to fulfill it. So seek Him everyday, and He'll direct you there.

"God will show you your vision, but never tell you how you're gonna get there. And the reason why, is because your vision is a glimpse of your end. Between the end and where you are is called the plan. The plan is the process that takes you to your destination. God will tell you your end, like he showed Joseph, he showed  Joseph the throne. He's sitting on the throne, ruling, feeding his brothers. That's the end. God showed you your end. He showed each one of you your end. Everybody got a dream. But he never fails to tell you the plan. Why? Because if he ever told you the plan, you would tell him, " Forget the destination." Because the plan is to prepare you for the destination. So He takes you to all these different things to develop you.  If Joseph knew that he has to go through a pit and prison to get to the throne, he'd tell God, "Forget the throne." So your plan is secret to God. Right now where you are maybe not where you want to be but it's part of the plan."

Feeling complicated and unsure about everything.

Lord, change my heart. Align it with Yours.

If temptation starts to creep in, stand up, get some distance, breathe, and think of this statement from Arej: "If it will ruin Jeff's reputation, I will not do it."

Disclaimer: Her statement is the context of marriage. But I think it's a powerful statement that could help me express the right kind of love for Earl in our dating season. Believing and declaring for victory over temptation. That the Lord will not just satisfy but overflow to the brims our longings and testify that purity - emotional, physical, and mental, is possible in the name of Jesus. God grant us the power to say no to sin, this is our celebration to the freedom that you have given to us. God. Strengthen our inner man, God, with Your Spirit abiding in us. God I believe that nothing is impossible to you. Lord, in our relationship, be honored. Lord, I am believing that we will conquer. You have provided ways for us to escape temptation, and we bless You, God, for ever protecting us, for loving us dearly. God, what I'm believing and fighting for in prayer is this is not worth justifying so to please myself or Earl. Lord, I wanna honor you. Lord, I believe in Your Word, in Your the salvation that you bring to your saints... Your mercies are new every morning, great is Thy faithfulness! 

"to confidently trust Him whether you feel Him not"

Lord, grant me the grace to fight. You give power to the weak, and strength to the powerless. For those who trust in You will find new strength - to soar high on wings like eagles, to run and not grow weary, and to walk and not faint. That as You direct my footsteps with Yours, make my heart beat with Yours, keep me steadfast. In my weakness, Your glory appears.

I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded about the humility that brought me to my knees and pray and plead for life. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded how God has held and carried me altogether and all through out. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded of the depth of that forgiveness I never imagined I could draw from me. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded of how God has loved me, forgave me, and never gave up on me. That day, was my second encounter with Jesus; life changing. That day told me how fragile hearts could be. That day made feel how wretched I am. That day I threw everything who I was because there's nothing left but mess. But that was also the very day, Jesus saved me. Again. Those days, I kept on breaking and running away but He kept pursuing. He kept me, healed and restored me. Again and again. And I realized this love, I hope to be brave it in life. There are days I get so afraid and wish to stop. But His love keeps me still. His love quiets me. Pain is real, but so is He. The shame and guilt are deep, but His love deeper.

everyday I love you

"I am madly inlove with you."

Wa juy lain, Ikaw ra gyud.
Ikaw ray nakahibaw nako
Katong mga adlaw nga
sa hilak nalang gyud 
nako masulti Nimo
Katong mga adlaw nga
kita kaayo nimo akong kasakit
nga bisan ako nawad-an
nagpag-asa sa akong kaugalingon
Katong mga adlaw nga
ginapili nako akong sarili
na murag walay Ikaw

Pero Ikaw 
Wala gyud ka nihawa
Bisan ako nay nagapasakit
sa akong sarili
Bisan gahi kaayo kog uwo
Bisan lain kaykog batasan
Bisan wala tika ginapili
Grabe ra gyud ka Kamaayo sa tanan
Grabe ra kayko Nimo ka palangga

Maong deserve gyud nimo
Tanan akong best
Tanan nagapalipay nako
Tanan ginapalangga nako
Tanan ginapangandoy nako
Tanan ginakasaligan nako
Kay Ikaw ra gyud
Way lain, Ikaw ra

"Do you trust Me?"

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26)

Breathe. Quiet yourself. Think. Slow down. Smile. Be grateful.

"the God in you will be speaking to the God in him"

Sige lang Lord. Whatever was, is and shall be lost, I find in Christ. 😭🌼💕

You are my greatest joy
Jesus, everything I've lost
I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say

You are worth it all

"LORD, keep me. Preserve me and heal me for the person You have for me."

I never asked for anything much... But this prayer... I don't even know if there's somebody out there for me... But Lord, please hear my prayer. Strengthen me everyday to stand on the ground you have for me. Help me toil my garden, my heart, my life. I don't want anything unless it comes from You. I know it'll break me at times because my prayers are usually selfish. So Lord, my prayer, the very cry of my heart, is for You to keep me and hold me, always. Make me strong in the Spirit that I may delight in walking with you. Even in the waiting, even in the discipline, even in the pruning... You are good and you know what's best. 😭🏳️🌼

I'm scared 

No friends

Nothing to do

I'm nothing

But with a new perspective, new heart

I'm the King's daughter

I'm strengthened for His new ways

I'm empowered to learn and be wiser

Honestly, I want to shed tears 

For failing Him, again

For my unreasonable reasons

For some fear of uncertainty

But there's confidence that I can not understand

If all my hopes die

If all I desire won't come by

If in my lifetime there's much unanswered prayers

I know that

God remains sovereign

God remains good

God remains good at being God

I just thank God for the Spirit

A friend that helps

A well that refreshes

The slow down that gives rest

The reminder and seal of God

That He is for us

That we are His children

That His promises shall come to pass

It's amazing that this season

Can bring you to a point

Of throwing everything you have

Everything that you hold so dear

Just to have all of Him

That newness

That change

That chance

I'm giving it another shot

I fail a lot but He doesn't

Adventure starts here, now

By faith

By grace

By love

I am forgiven

I am set free

I am redeemed

He cherishes and celebrates me

He fully knows yet deeply loves me

He has given me joy that can never be taken away

The greatest form of love is sacrifice.

Nope. I won't insist. I don't insist. You decide.

I've come so far, I can't go back to where I used to be.

God created man to reflect Him, not to rival Him.

Let go,
let God
Remember,

God is good
Good is good at me
God is good at being God

He is sovereign
He is in control
He is faithful

He saves
He provides
He satisfies

He is everlasting
He is steadfast
He is unchanging

He is all that
man is not
Because HE IS

the Great I AM
a good Father
a good friend

for you
for me
not against 

Jesus looks at you
Jesus feels you
Jesus knows it all

Grace in His words
Mercy in His eyes
Love in His hands

He pursues you
He found you
He keeps you

So stop chasing
Stop striving
Stop 

Rest in His, "Tetelestai"
No more, no less
It is finished

Curiosity killed the cat.