I believe in you.

Hi there,

Whoever you may be. I just want to tell you that there's someone out there who believes in you, praying for you - a family,  a friend, a lover.

Believe in yourself, beloved.

The things you did, do and will do will bring you where you're supposed to be. In His very time, your season will come. Believe that there's something stored for you because you have a purpose to fulfill, not by your might but by His providence. More than willing and able, He has graced you to prosper and have the future you hope for.

I believe in you, beloved.

No, don't give up. Even when your circumstances say you have nothing to believe in. Hope in God, for you shall praise Him! He saved you to experience the fullness of His salvation. He redeemed you to make you taste and see His goodness. You are seen, therefore we shall believe. There is nothing hidden from him, my love. Your fears and tears, he saw it all. He knows it all. 

Nothing is broken, nothing is missing. You are held. You are well-kept. Continue to hold fast to the confession of your faith, for He who promised is faithful. Christ's sacrifice once withholds nothing but His loving kindness and mercy.

Have faith, courageous one.
Know that I am believing alongside you.

Your grace is sufficient for me, for Your power is made perfect in my weakness.

Fighting for what we love sometimes may bring us in tears, in knees. But we've got to try, we've got to persist, we've got to give it all. The call of urgency: sink or swim, now or never. Cause if it's worth it, no amount of words against it shall measure up what you have decided to engage 'til the end. Time? Strength? Provision? Consent? These will not be an issues! We shall not be limited by these things - suppressing us in a small box! For God's grace is abounding; His love relentless! His unchanging character, faithful 'til the end, holds us up amidst all chaos, even within us. This is a win-win situation. We are marching, not towards victory but, from victory. Jesus already won it all! His death paid all the tolls we have go through in this world as we follow Him! His promise, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" will never ever ever ever cease! Will never end! Will never die out! Because this is the truth. That not that we love Him, but because He loved us first. And we know this because even in our darkest, He was there. Fear not. Despise not the tears welling up from our eyes as we fight for love. Because these tears shall empty what's overwhelming in our hearts - fear, rejection, discouragement, pain, persecution. And as we are become emptied from those that is not from God, know that He will restore what the enemy has stolen from you. Remember that the battle is already finished. Won. You don't need to struggle that much. You just have to know, to assure and secure your mind and soul and heart, that this fight is not mine, but of my God. Yes, Amen!

Sometimes, I think that the only way to do the things that I have to is to get away from home. I know they are worried and all, but most of the times my guilt turns to anger from breaking their trust from the past. I don't know. I don't really know. It just sucks inside out. If only. If only. But all of those are in the past and I am in the present. There are still things that I have to do. So while I am within their bounds, I understand that I have to follow some house rules. And that is sparta. *laughs Yet I hope that it won't reach to the point that I have to decided to be 'independent' when I have 'home' around. I respect my family and I honor them. It's a struggle to me to follow their statutes when I have set of what I believe. But I love my God. Yes, and I have to follow it when He said to honor thy father and mother. It breaks my ego when they start to be directive but for the best, I have to and there's no age for it. I trust that as I commit to God what He has called me to do, He will make a way for it.

The keyword is: BELIEVE

This morning, while traveling going to work, the minister said over the radio,

Kapag may pananampalataya ka, mangarap ka!

With so much conviction and encouragement in his voice, he shared his experience of hoping to go to US with whatever his plans there. Believing that country won't just be plain map before his eyes. It happened.

"Never give up. The keyword is believe." 2 Corinthians 1:20 says," For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us."NIV

• Be specific. In your prayer be specific of what you desire. This way, God sees how serious, genuine or desperate are we for us, over the time we are asking for it.
• Know in your heart, mind and soul that He is faithful. Doubt everything in this world but God's word. The world may pass but His word shall remain - that's how grounded His word for us!
• After all, God's business is answering our prayers . How amazing is that? Do you have anymore to say? Haha.

So... you're someone who's been waiting for like forever? And it made you frustrated and disappointed, draining all hopes the universe had given you? And what do you do? You blame others, you blame yourself. You think you're cursed and will never get a promotion, be struck being a no one. Then you compare yourself to others, you think you're inferior and you think you don't deserve any of these. Then you blame others, you blame yourself... repeat chorus.

A tiring odd ugly dull life.

But you can never solve your problem by blaming others, only by praying... Remember that your enemy is not your brother or sister (including circumstances, whatever) , it is the devil. Do not fight wrong battles, love.

Our God is limitless!
Our Gos is miraculous!
The keyword is believe. You have to.

Dreaming about what you love, for me, is the most beautiful thing in this world. No, wait.  In the entire universe! It's like you are to become a supernova that will significantly contribute in the interstellar mediums and help in the formation of new stars! Others will not understand how our language, hope, works for us, but Jesus got our backs! He left the Holy Spirit, the testimonies of hundreds of believers in the bible as our guide and strength. The world may lie but The Word is the truth.

Now, imagine living our dreams. How much of a beauty shall it be?

Tiwala lang. 

Darating din tayo jan. 

Praise the Lord for the future He has stored for us! And mind, that's not some future you think for yourself. It's the kind of future that no one can ever stop and steal away from the One who planned it all.

Believe by Faith

God is faithful. Even if we're not.

We are bound to what's destined for us.

Only God knows what is it - what are those, but for sure, there's a lot of things God wants to accomplish in our lives. It's not only you who wants to go through a lot of beautiful experiences in this life. God wants it more than we desire for our lives.

One question that has brought me into realization to pursue is this:

IF YOU WON'T FAIL, WHAT WILL YOU DO?

Well for this conversation, this question applies to the encouragement "TRUST GOD".

In my current situation, I have just realized that I am surrounded by people who merely has a relationship with God. All my life, ever since I was a born again, I have been with people who only believes in Him, everyone was so passionate in pursuing God. Later did I know that I wasn't able to prepare for the next stage of life that will challenge all that I have stored up as a believer.

Being aware of what's right in the eyes of God, learning what others think about people who doesn't practice what they preach, and figuring out things if you're ready in the timeline of life or not. Things like these pressures me, quite often I become anxious because what people say strangles me. But I thank God the more I feel helpless because His word stands true that, "in my weakness, You are my strength."

Honestly, it's because of His word that I still have the guts to soar higher, never give up and do my best. Knowing you won't fail because Jesus has won the victory, because You trust Him no matter what, because He is good, you will definitely seek for more!

The statement left me a hang over. And maybe it will last. Forever.
I thank God to have made me realize this. I know He's carved it in my soul.
How do I know? Because I won't let it go.

He had been encouraging me for like years to grow more in faith, that is more than believing. It's like, faith is the another word for believing, in the spiritual realms. So yeah. It took me years to fully understand. Indeed, when you hear His word as an answer to your plea, it is indeed irrevocable. Certainly the calling to have faith.

Since yesterday, or should I say even before, He's been telling me to "ask more" and "hold on". I admit that I was putting God in a box. I was living a carnal life. Trying to work out my spiritual life through so much human efforts - which is definitely tiresome wrong. I am guilty for this kind of living. I was always afraid to ask more because I might get disappointed because what if it's not for me or because there's just too much to ask and God might not handle it. In short, my mentality was to never disturb God.

See what kind of mentality I have? It's stiff.

But God's grace! He's really working in my life. He allows things to shake us to see that we need Someone who can't be shaken. He allows things to hurt us to make us feel that we're broken and there's a vacuum that He alone can fill. He allows things to shame us so that we may learn to speak the truth. He allows people to know you because He wants to show Himself through You. 

God has better plans for us. There's just a lot! Faith is all we need. Believing God's word helps us fill the holes created by the world to us.

We might be corrupted in mind, body and spirit.

But through Jesus, we are new. "The old is gone, the new has come."

His death made a way for us to be forgiven and be blessed.

His death redeemed us.
His scars healed us.
His blood cleansed us.
His love saved us.

 

Don't give up

I am envious of those people who are not just firm with what they have decided for their lives, and made their dreams into reality.

Last night, I was reading a blog from an author I admire. He's young. He's witty. He's got talent. He was able to achieve his goal around the age of 23 and I'm like,



How?



The author said "Be SMART in achieving your goals."
My sister answered "Ah, maybe because he's rich and all."
My mentor told me "Because he worked out his time frame."


And I'm like, "God, why should I consider a lot of things when all I have to do is to decide what I want to do?"


And tonight, my soul cries out. My admiration for this person made me realize about something I tried to hide for some time. I know it's not yet time because I still have things to learn, I still have things that I am most concerned about, because I still have things to be patient. I know I still have to know what really is my passion that I could be able to inspire others.

I want to speak in front of the youths and testify how great God as my dream has come into reality.

I want to cry because I know it's something I want to do but I also understand that it's not yet the right. It's painful you know? It's so, so heartbreaking. You realize everyday that you are in the process but can't somehow see how could it all add up when it's all at your expense. Everyday you choose, that is, you force yourself to be happy despite all, to be faithful 'til the end, to keep holding on - because you know that He's the only thing You've got.

Ever since the day I realize that I have to let go of this dream in order to move on, I refocused myself on what is at hand. And I am thankful because I was able to see the things, to appreciate what He has offered me. And now that this dream has been open again, I wonder if there is a book that could explain to me how to handle this. I wonder if there is someone out there that could understand how I feel and tell me if I have a chance for this dream or not.

For some reasons, there are answers in my heart that makes me say "I give it all to You. I trust that You know what's best for me." You see, even if I want my conditions here, I can't say it. It's as if, all I want in my life is to internalize that "His plans are better than mine. He's to give prosperity, hope and future. He is the answer to all of this."

This frustration of mine comes from "the things I regret I didn't do" and the "what if's". Yes, these are all worldly pursuits to my dream of becoming. Sigh. Being impatient, eh? Yeppp. Because it's not according to what I actually pictured in my mind. I have reasons why I didn't have to pursue it and I wonder if it's legit. They I am living in an idealistic world but what is the difference of living what you believe in the reality they are seeing?

If...


I wonder if I'll have my time, too. God, you said I will have my portion didn't you? I will wait for it. And see to it that if that time comes, I'll make the most of every bit.

I entrust my life to You.

You know why what we think doesn't come into reality?

I realized it just sometime now while having the dishes. Funny how I am thinking about it right? Well I can't just get over with my devotion this morning. It's found in the last verse of Galatians 3.

So yeah. Have you ever experience of daydreaming of something to become reality? Or fun imagining exciting things because of the drive that you have racing through your veins? And to find out that you have just miss it big time! Like after sometime, you told yourself, "This/That ain't gonna happen anymore" because something about reality ticks off that dream of yours. Then it slips down and viola! Vanishes in thin air.

Hahaha. I know how you feel. I've been there for quite a times and I was really wondering why it keeps on happening. I imagine great things like you guys, I can't just settle for less... I really feel you. Haha. But you know what these experience taught me? It made me realize that God really has great things stored for me, for you. It may not be in the spot where adrenalin comes gushing out of us, but when everything is prepared for us.

You see, I have this dream to. Day by day, I always have a thought about it. And sometimes, I just get excited and forget all the rest! But what's really great about this is that, it doesn't fade away. I kept it dear in my heart yet my hands were open to let God have it. I can stress it out if I want to but the point is you know the future isn't something you can predict specially if you want it good, better best.

So yes, it was hard to let go. But I chose to let it go; if it's for me, then it will be - that is how dreams work in my life. Of course, given there is the effort that you put, the passion and heart, and the opportunities that you allow. So say, what's better: Facing today with the dreams in your heart or Working off your ass 'til you meet it - who knows what the future brings? Effortless or Effort-much?

So yeah. I did a story telling there. But what I am pointing out here is that, DREAM and offer it to God. Because when He becomes the center of it all, it just falls into place. He wants us ready. No one wants to be plunge in the water without prior notice! Haha. Anyways, God is faithful. We are HEIRS OF PROMISES. He who said it is faithful. No doesn't necessarily have to be NOT FOR YOU, rather BETTER THINGS (compared to that) suit you.

Sooo frustrating~ Yet, I thank my God

Sorry to drop by frustrated. Anyways, this too shall pass. Ya know, just a little bit of hard face palm will do.

How is it going? Happy new year! It feels like forever when I started blogging again. I'm afraid it was because of my stress living. I've been sleeping early dawn because of reading manga. And yea. I know it's bad yet I just can't get enough. Even though I almost read all the good manga, I still can't get my hands and eyes and brains off the net.

My thoughts are off lately. Spacing and leaving things in mediocrity. I don't like thinking too much anymore; I just read the lines and nothing less. I boast about spending leisure time inadequately which, well, sometimes sounds cool. But inside, I really find it really irritating, annoying. "Why can't I work my ass off that hard?" "Bet, I have been somewhere right now if I hadn't given up."

Regrets? Insecurities? Inabilities?

I'll restate what CS Lewis quoted once, great people started with little things. And I wonder what are my little things.

I feel like everybody's moving forward and I'm still stuck sheering off my ugly self. Forcibly peeling it off. And maybe that's the problem. I think too much of myself, I force it to come in an instant, I compare. There's just so much I want to do but it feels like it's impossible so. Look at me. What can I do? What can a mere someone who doesn't have anything to do the day but help her mum stay at their own small store, clean the house, and go reading manga at night. I can't even study properly because of procrastination.

I know. All eyes on me. My bad. Blame it on me.

"Whether you see faults or strengths, they are all part of who you are. Isn't that why Kaiso-sama gave you a mirror? So that you won't lose yourself... So that you wouldn't take the wrong path?" - Amane, Her Majesty's Dog

Both quotes gave me real baaad reflection here. I wonder how many of these things, of these types will continue to make me feel insufficient until I have enough. I'm tired already. Doing useless stuffs like all of these would help me in my future career. *sigh It's really hard to keep on pressing on when your enemy is your habit. You want to get rid of it but it was there for years, and stimulated by environment, can you measure how tough it'll be?

*cross fingers Anyways, let's hope for the best. We've got a big God who is faithful and just.  The God who is surrounded by the mysteries of the entire universe. Yet revealed Himself in His Son, Jesus. So who knows how all these things turn out for the good? I'm glad I'm certain that He is good, and that nothing in this earth is wasted. He loves us much as He forgives us everyday and continues to make us see the beauty of His creation, the essence of His life and that He is existing.

No matter what, I know this simple truth, He will never leave me nor forsake me. He loves me. He will never give up on me. Because He loves me. No matter how crooked are my ways, how wicked are my thoughts, how I always get lost, He is still there, up in the skies calling out my name. Nothing is impossible for Him. Nothing can separate me from Him. And in my weakness I find my strength in Him.