An encounter with an existence who made you realize that you can't make yourself like your ex.

Hirukana no Ryuusei.

Kill me noooow. *cry Let me watch the movieee, someone!

A woman who walks with purpose doesn't have to chase people or opportunities. Her light causes people and opportunities pursue her.

Are You With The Man You Should Marry?

Are You With The Man You Should Marry?

I can't believe it. Her deep slumber has met forever. And my heart's floating in the oblivion.

A confession

My friend is taking a long deep slumber. And no one knows when will she wake up again.

When I heard about this few moments ago, I felt everything inside me in a gravitational shock wave. I wasn't able to react. I felt an immediately paralyze when they told me of her current state.

We just visited her a few days ago.

She was still fine, still the bubbly girl we know.

Then all of a sudden...

The doctors might have some mistakes about their results, or

EVERYTHING IS JUST A FLUKE.

I don't know. I can't accept it. I hate it. I didn't know that it's going to be like that when her name crossed my mind a few hours or days ago. 

I should've known.

And here I am, regretting everything...

Why didn't I take the chances to be closer to her when I have it?
Why did I have to slightly open the door when she knocked into my life?
Why am I like this?
Why should this happen?
I can't even shed a tear.
No.
Not because I know that the fight isn't over (because I know she'll come back around still healthy and bubbly as ever).

But because I don't deserve her. She's so kind and warm-hearted.

And all I did was to just half open or more, but not a whole of me, to her.

I know, I'm disgusting.

Expecting for something good to read on my blog?
Dream on. I still don't have the guts to make one when I just feel anxious, stress, and stupid all the time.


This, a confession of a mediocre.