It's not my job to make [you] a man. - Astrid

Spring forth thy new love.

It's not gonna happen again.

You're not gonna let it happen again.

You are doing the right thing,

for you understand it well.

It's going to be long and painful,

but it's gonna be worth it.

It has been like that, always;

beautiful things in its own time.

No, it won't happen again.

You've learned your lesson,

and know you know your worth.

You're not taken for granted,

you are well kept.

Continue to stand your ground.

Someday, someone will show you

how precious you are in their pursuit.

Don't worry, the past is in the past.

It has no power to you anymore.

Neither the taunting fear of the unknown,

it shall sting yet you will still sing.

One day, that new love will appear,

and you will be courageous to face fear,

as if spring has not known the unknown.

But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what he wants. Then the other things will be yours as well. (Matthew 6:33 CEV)

He has set the right time for everything. - Ecclesiastes 3:11, Good News Bible

Is it good? Is it wise? Will it honor God?

Even if it's not going to be okay, you'll be okay. Let it be, for whatever will be, will be. #Shema

Better is open rebuke than hidden love. Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy. (Proverbs 27:5-6)

Find a Friend to Wound You

Faithful Are the Wounds of a Friend

Faithful Friends Will Wound You

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8 NLT)

This has been calling me out for sometime. :)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

There will be days when you don't seem to understand
Days that seems cloudy and don't make sense
There will be days when you don't know how to live
Days that seem you don't know what to believe

August Rush

Over the week, God has been expressing His comfort to me unfailingly.

Monday: Fight the good fight of the faith.
Tuesday: He is sovereign. In whatever season, He is God.
Wednesday: Where sin abounds, grace abounds all the more.
Thursday: Pray fervently. The battle is not of the flesh but in the spirit.
Friday: Everything (everyone) has its own season. All for God's glory.
Saturday: Guilt and Shame. Mercy & Forgivess. 

Counting the cost of forgiving and granting grace requires so much... So much brokenness... So much selflessness... Mercy that is beyond my capacity... And unconditional love I hardly understand...

This season is not like any other season. Right now, I completely feel like a shaft tossed wherever the wind blows. I only know God's voice within and nothing else. My emotions don't matter for some reason; I am led and silenced. At times fear and anxiety creeps in but I am held to do things anyway; I am led and silenced. I understand everything and it breaks my heart to know I can't do anything to fix anything; but I am led and silenced. 

Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.

Lewis Smedes

He's here. Again.

Where sin abounds, grace abounds all the more.

It costs much, it requires so much 
But love will take risk and all that there is
His mercy will sustain the needed grace
For God is still in the business of changing lives

I have seen, tasted and am confident
That what God has accomplished to me
Is not far impossible He can be to others
Hope in God for I shall praise Him