Cut it out! You have always been blessed!

I should really should cut it out - this poverty mindset. If only it's possible to live alone or gouge my eyes out just stop being intimidated from others, of course it is, but like I can! I love myself too much for that. Haha. Anyway, real talk. If only I could stop being so envious about all the good things others have, I might have been the cool kid you know in the block. 

You see, the word last Sunday really challenged me ever since I stepped out of the hall. I am blessed long time ago; I am favored, that I know. "You seem unconvinced," Pastor said after revealing this title. I must admit, that these words I know for a fact, but for someone like me who tingles when things don't seem pleasant, it's an ooookay. No blood rushing for excitement nor adrenalin to look forward to it.

I am contemplating, really, of how to deal with this kind of disease. It's just ironic to realize that, I feel inferior to those people I cherish the most. I mean, I really love them! I am proud of them and ever have I always wanted to be walking beside them. Then I see great things happen to them, I get to congratulate them and suddenly everything feels churning.

Why things like that happen to me?

Just this morning, I received a quote from a daily inspiration message you get from facebook. It said something like "You don't have be in a roller coaster ride in this life, you need to be constant." Then I thought, Life is at constant, unless the One give shall take. Getting into the roller coaster ride of life is upon how you see situations that either goes at hand or out of the way. So we need to be positive. Yep! Positive.  As if.

It's really hard for me you know but I want to break out from this that tangles me for so years already. I have seen the consequences of this action, but WHY CAN'T I JUST GET RID OF IT.

Sigh.

I don't wanna be called a green-eyed monster.

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We are rich in Christ Jesus, so there is nothing to be intimidated, get pitied, or agitated about the tomorrow. Isn't the birds more important than you? Didn't He say, He has plans for us to prosper,  and not to harm us, to give us hope and a future?  

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:19) NIV

We have always been blessed.
 Ephesians 1:3 says,

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ.

Has blessed is in the perfect tense, which means even from the ancient ages up to this millennia, God had never had a time to bless up. Grace! Okay, you might be thinking that this might be out of context since what is stated are spiritual blessings, not blessings, which could actually fit in the scenario that we are actually abundant in this world needless to say. But, have you forgotten who we are? We are the people of God, spiritual men of God. Spiritual blessings, by all means, are those that we, His children, need for life.

We have to renew, refresh and restart our poverty mindset. We are rich in Christ! Our portion in this matter is that we have to believe in His word! Have you ever seen a believer abandoned? Even those who are persecuted, still praise God until death because He never left them! He filled them with His presence, so much more compared to what they are experiencing. They speak about God. They believe His word. And so shall we.

If anything, self-fulfilling prophecies shall all be positive. And to see all the good things our Father has done:

• Use what you have
• Be grateful for what you have
• Don't be jealous for what others have

The crown of thorns Jesus wore on the cross signifies the breaking of all human weak and ill mentalities. He wore it because He knows how evil mind can be. Praise God. So whatever it is that you might be waiting for, you are asking for, claim it! The victory is won in His name! It is a blessing to know that we are given this confidence in Christ Jesus.


Spiritual Blessings

Let us get into further Ephesians 1:3's spiritual blessings. So these are some and top of God's spiritual blessings to us:

• Chosen for Salvation (John 15:16, Ephesians 1:4)
• Adopted as His child (John 1:12, Psalms 37:25)
• We are forgiven (Psalms 103:12, Micah 7:19, John 10:10)

Know that GOD IS the source of all blessings
 
If our biological fathers do anything just to give us everything, doesn't this more apply to our Heavenly Father? The King of Kings? The Lord of Lords? In His hands, blessings are blessings! It never hides into other clothing or add up anything that could ruin the meaning of it. Proverbs 10:22 "The blessing of the Lord makes rich, and he adds no sorrow with it." When God blessed you a work, it is blessing! When it turned out to be out of your comfort zone, your work is still God's blessing! In due time if you are proven worth it, He shall promote! Obey and prioritize, turn tables and know that blessings are along the way.

So whatever it is that has or to come our way, let us remember that in each and every step of the way God is before us. He is with us. 

All things work together for good!  That is the truth. And we ought to own it.

"We're going to move forward again."

Moving forward.
Again.

But it was a moving forward without a period nor comma lest any punctuation mark with again.
You see the difference?

Something to ponder tonight.

A relentless kind moving forward. People who speaks like these are those who went through a lot, I believe. Saying these words as if it's always okay to move forward again. Gee. That's a lot of tough life, don't you think?

I want to...

"I want to save lives."

After watching the news about this UP prodigy, graduating 1.004, I asked myself: What's next for her? Then she said those lines. It's as if, it's the first time I have understood every word she spoke.

To save lives.

To save lives.

To save lives.

Those words really rang into my being. From those words, I thought, she was able to find what she really wanted to do.

She wanted to save lives.

And there I felt it. A soothing brush in my soul, lifting the weighs of  jailed years in my heart. I felt it. Really. Right in my chest. Why didn't I recognize the very voice that has been inside me saying, "I want to help." I long forgotten about that feeling because I thought it wasn't going to help me when I grow up and work. 

Practicality. That's who I cultivated in this world. Fearing I won't be able to survive if I only think about helping, I need to earn. Thinking what others said, helping others won't get you anywhere to become rich, I gave up on it. I mustered courage to face the reality as so they say, but the more I come closer to it, the more I realize I'd like to be someone who could be of great help. Be it the one who closes the curtain when the show ends, or those who are at the backstage preparing the front liners. I would gladly offer a hand.


During college, almost everything was restricted. Because the only thing that must be is that I should graduate on time. I don't know if my parents were not okay with me having extra-curricular activities but they were... protective. It's hard to move without any moral support you know. So yeah. I underwent great ordeals with them regarding my fondness of doing extra-curricular activities, but God knows how I never regretted participating any of those.  And I wish I could've done more.

Then I thought of words that might go along with it.
'I want to build', 
'I want to create',
'I want to inspire', 
'I want to be just like...' 
And countless of hopeful words.

And I would like to say, this is not just some kind of American Dream as they say but a path  you can surely build up in the good future. The drive of continuing. The purpose of your existence. There must be a lot of things these thoughts might offer you so do not shun it away. If people say there is nothing you can benefit from desiring it, do not lose heart. Because I tell you, there's no one that has a heart like you do.

Friends, time will come when you realize want you want to do. If it comes in a very specific manner, congratulations!  all the courage in the universe and never give up, you shall find your way up there in no time. And if you are the same as me whose been and still picking up the pieces in the great puzzle, pursue it. The moment you had that puzzle get to solve, it's gonna be worth it.

I never intended this post to be this long but I thought I wanted to remember this and maybe share a thought for some readers out there. It's because times like these are answered prayers. And I genuinely honor it. The fact that I cannot deny in my soul that I want to help, someday I shall be in the nation, in the nations. I don't know what lies ahead but I have something to hold on. That in everything that I experience, it's one step towards this goal in my heart: to be of great help. 

And satisfaction has dawned in me.

God has set you apart. Do not feel outcast if you have desire the world may never understand. God placed that in your heart because you are the best, the fit person for it. Cherish it. Nurture it. Someday, you will meet people who will guide you, whom you will have the same desire to make a better future in this world.

It's becoming clearer. What I've been praying, that is.

The keyword is: BELIEVE

This morning, while traveling going to work, the minister said over the radio,

Kapag may pananampalataya ka, mangarap ka!

With so much conviction and encouragement in his voice, he shared his experience of hoping to go to US with whatever his plans there. Believing that country won't just be plain map before his eyes. It happened.

"Never give up. The keyword is believe." 2 Corinthians 1:20 says," For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us."NIV

• Be specific. In your prayer be specific of what you desire. This way, God sees how serious, genuine or desperate are we for us, over the time we are asking for it.
• Know in your heart, mind and soul that He is faithful. Doubt everything in this world but God's word. The world may pass but His word shall remain - that's how grounded His word for us!
• After all, God's business is answering our prayers . How amazing is that? Do you have anymore to say? Haha.

So... you're someone who's been waiting for like forever? And it made you frustrated and disappointed, draining all hopes the universe had given you? And what do you do? You blame others, you blame yourself. You think you're cursed and will never get a promotion, be struck being a no one. Then you compare yourself to others, you think you're inferior and you think you don't deserve any of these. Then you blame others, you blame yourself... repeat chorus.

A tiring odd ugly dull life.

But you can never solve your problem by blaming others, only by praying... Remember that your enemy is not your brother or sister (including circumstances, whatever) , it is the devil. Do not fight wrong battles, love.

Our God is limitless!
Our Gos is miraculous!
The keyword is believe. You have to.

Dreaming about what you love, for me, is the most beautiful thing in this world. No, wait.  In the entire universe! It's like you are to become a supernova that will significantly contribute in the interstellar mediums and help in the formation of new stars! Others will not understand how our language, hope, works for us, but Jesus got our backs! He left the Holy Spirit, the testimonies of hundreds of believers in the bible as our guide and strength. The world may lie but The Word is the truth.

Now, imagine living our dreams. How much of a beauty shall it be?

Tiwala lang. 

Darating din tayo jan. 

Praise the Lord for the future He has stored for us! And mind, that's not some future you think for yourself. It's the kind of future that no one can ever stop and steal away from the One who planned it all.