it's amazing how every burden was left before i'm home

fear
pain
disappointment
they are
still
creeping in

i don't know
how to face her
i don't know
his words
anymore

and
for the sake
of a 
healthy 2020
my calling
my purpose
my soul
i have 
to
get back
to zero

high hopes
that
what's 
meant to be
will
be

so cheers
to higher
trust andf faith
i surrender
yield
obedience
His will be done

day four

thank you Lord
i slept a good sleep
and woke up early
beautiful morning

the pain
the question
is still there
i want to run away
but i have to continue
i have to move forward
i have to choose

"The same thing 
that built you 
is the same thing 
that kills you"

but i am healing
the pain
the questions
are all in the past
now i'm laying
it down at Your feet
i don't have much
to offer, God
but this heart
rebellious
unfaithful
weak
fully Yours
i'm coming home

forgive me
for letting myself
get involved
again
for breaking
my soul
torn apart
it really kills inside
but i thank you still
because

My redeemer lives

Wala man ko'y katungod noh, so wala koy karapatan mangutana. Pero, ngano?

day three

thank you, Jesus
for reminding me
that anything rush
anything not in You
will only rob 
the joy of today

last night, 
though everything
seemed perfect
i was broke
behind perfect
weather
constellations
moon
bonfire
i felt i didn't belong
i shouldn't be there
it should happen

i wanted to get angry
but i couldn't
i just cried and wants still
but a hush in the kept me
"i think God wants me happy" 

there are certain
things now that
i am discovering
truth, freedom, trust
it's not easy,
but it's very risky
i was scared
but i had too

Jesus, once again
i'm afraid
i want it right
questions
doubts
fears
are present
but with you
i know I'm safe

thank you Jesus
i will and would
want to be with you
thank you for
the renewed
passion
compassion
for the calling
you have for me

this season
i will conquer in victory
i will sing in Hallelujah
i will walk in joy
i will live in the fullness
of your love
i will abide
i will rest
i will remain
i will remember

thank you, Jesus

day two

thank you, Jesus
i know you are deeping
my faith
my trust
in You
thank You
for reminding me
that in the waiting
there's no need
to worry about
tomorrow
but all attention
is in the wonder
of your Presence
today

thank you
because
this is where it'll
start
a heart of Joy
a soul anchored
in You
my deepest why
the reason for all

thank you Jesus

day one

When you're lost who to trust... When you're asking people to help you trust them... God comes, wipes your tears, and tells, "Trust me."

Family Reunions 💕🌼✨

Puhon. 

Joy and Gratitude. #arigathanks2020

Good. 

Wise. 

King. 

Trust.

Faith. 

Light. 

Hope. 

Love. 

Rest. 

Slowly. 

Carefully. 

Surely. 

Grace. 

Abide.

Remain.

Praise. 

Worship.

Celebrate.

Process. 

Breathe.

Glory. 

Remember.

Joy and Gratitude. 
#arigathanks2020

you don't have to feel responsible all the time

God didn't put us to a place of distraction, but of instruction. We are in a beautiful place, meant to be celebrated and enjoyed, all pointing to our wonderful creator. Distractions and temptations only enter the scene when we got convinced that they are better than God.

hays. the never ending "what do you want?"

Good job, Rau. Padayon lang ha. You'll make it eventually. 😊

You being happy. You being celebrated. You being the best version of you. Is an answered prayer. You are a blessing. You are a treasure. Continue to take your rightful place in the circle of life and live like His child.

Quite sad I'm not in the picture, but I'm satisfied. Having emotional spurs, but I can handle it. It's better that I got to know all these and get treated. I'm satisfied for the distance. I'm thankful for the silence. I'm at peace with rest. God was with me, so will He today and the next coming days. I'm gonna make it. And be better. This test of joyful confidence in Him... Bring. It. On.

"Whatever happens will be wonderful."

Yung, narerealize mong how wicked your heart is when he's around. Haha. It's not that because he did something wrong, but I might be rude again. I might be highly strung by emotions and be rash at them. I really should have not come nalang. Haha. Bad for the heart. Stress nanaman. Struggle sa soul again. Damaged emotions again. Kakapagod na. Sorry nemen. Hahaha. Sige lang. Let's finish what have started. Until the end! 😁

My dwelling place, in You I remain.

Immeasurable grace. 

I'd like to make it with you 🎶

hays 💕 

"Whatever happens will be wonderful." - Dallas Willard

Soul Keeping, John Ortberg

I was enchanted to meet you. :")

You are accepted. You belong.

Rau,

One day at a time... 

until it resigns. 

two different hands, open