"Fear not" is the first message of Christmas. - Luke 2:10 "Hope is coming to crush all the hard incoming." - Anne Voskamp.

"Maybe the place we experience God-with-us today is in the very fears we have about our own lives, our own world, our own future. The future that keeps us from believing that anything can be different. The fears that make the silence of the Divine feel like centuries have passed. The fears that we are here all on our own. The fears we will be holding at our upcoming angelic visit.

Today, let our fears be the starting place of divine connection, because if a messenger from heaven were to show up with an announcement of good tidings of great joy, a message that will change everything, historically that proclaimation would begin with the greeting "Be not Afraid" - or, the way it is today, "Merry Christmas"."

- scottthepainter (instagram) 

I don't understand how people can give judgements just like that.

Lord, tayo muna please. I don't want anything, anybody.

"Love, itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away."

If you're not part of the problem, you're not part of the solution.

It's always enough. Never too much. Never lacking. Just enough for today.

Thankful for people who would remind you that you are seen and heard and you matter. I want to justify but what she said was true, something that I also forget... That God's grace comes beyond our understanding. Too simple or too grand for complex mind. But the proper response isn't about what we can do for Him. Rather, it creates in us a thankful heart and grateful humility. And that's how He pursues us always.

I think it's enough. Na bisan di ka acknowledge for sowing or watering, after all the growth comes from God. hehe. basta kay they answered prayers, their becoming is a a gift from God... Indeed, they are treasure worth to tell the world. ✨✨✨

Seasons may change, but the mission remains.

Lord, my life is yours, be glorified - overtake and permeate. May You be greater than I. May You be seen, not I. My life is Yours, not mine. And I trust You and Your heart. For You are my good Creator, my gracious, loving and kind Father and my faithful best Friend.

It's surreal until opposition of great deal.

Your love kissed my fears and insecurities away, thank you.

We are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking

They may not hear Me in your words, but they will see Me in your life.

The end of me, is the beginning of us.

 

Selah.

Pause.

Ponder. 

Praise. 

"Believe in my son"

Today, I woke up unusally early. So early that I get to ask and realize things that I want... I think this is what it's like to be getting old...

I woke up realizing for the 2nd time how hard long distance relationship are. Writing this, I cried a prayer to God... I realized how lonely it is, how hard it's gonna be and will it work for me? I asked myself then if this is something that I want for the future... Will it work out? I thought and prayed for those relationships who are likely of this.

Earl, I wanna tell you that I don't want ldr, but I can't. It's sad. Very sad. I can't help but think about Nanay, and all she went through. Even your Mom. I can't imagine going through ups and downs without you... and the children, I don't want them to grow without you. You see, I understand the current situation, and it really breaks my heart to realize that this is a season we don't know until when, but a season that has God's reason. 

I've had a a perfect redemptive story in mind for my future... for my next generation... and since the day I met you, everything changed. It was everything I never imagined for myself. And life gave me a deeper sense of living, all the more waiting and wanting God to reveal His fingerprints over our story.

There were days when I cried myself to give up on the thought of us. Because it was something hard to imagine, hard to grasp, something beyond of control. But you know, everytime this happens God gives a Word to make me stay. In the past, I tried to battle it. But then, I just realized how important you are to God and to me. 

This time, He said in my heart, "Believe in my son." Obviously, you are not the context because I was reading "The Attributes of God" but I know He was speaking of you. I don't want to sound superficially, mystically, or over spiritually, because I maybe am wrong. But I believe that when we talk to God, He answers. When we seek Him, He meets us in our questions. Not by answering according to our logic, but according to His character. 

So if there's a reason for me to pursue this, it's because I know God will work things out for us. I don't know how but I know He is good, and all that we're going through is sifted through crucibles so that what is ours, is ours and surely will last.

God, I surrender to Your will. If this is the cup that You have for me, let me take it. This story is not new to you. And thinking about it, I survived my important long distance relationships thriving... Tatay, friends and for the best example, The Lord's. That even though You're not physically here with us, but You are in us. You are in every promise You make. You are in everything that consumes us inside out. You are in all of Your creation and You speak everything into creation. So as I think and remember all of these, I will be reminded that it is for Your glory that things happen. It may or may not work, but all creation will speak Your glory.

Thank You for grace and mercy that overflows. Thank You for love and goodness that sustain and hold us closer. And I as go through deep waters, I will not fear for You are with me. The past will no longer hold me back nor the future withhold what's for me, because You are God. You make a way where there is no way, and You make things new. So even in this waiting God, You remain good, powerful and faithful. And with all that I am, may I forever trust, love and serve You.

“To love you as I should, I must worship God as Creator. When I have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. In so far as I learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God and instead of God, I shall be moving towards the state in which I shall not love my earthly dearest t all. When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed but increased.” - CS Lewis

Day Three

Good Morning, Lord! 😊✨🌼

Thank You for Your Spirit, leading me to You. 

Thank You for Your Word that never fails to give hope.

Lord, You reign in justice and righteousness. 

You are our hiding place from the wind, 

our shelter from the strom,

our streams of water in a dry place, 

and our shade of a great rock in a weary land. 

I pray for eyes to be opened, 

for ears to give attention,

for hasty hearts to understand and know, 

and for the stammering tongue to speak distinctly.

Help us become nobles who plans nobly and stands on noble things. 

Lord, as your daughter, 

rise me up and let me hear Your voice.

Prepare me for the things you have called me for. 

May Your Spirit make me a fruitful field. 

May Your righteousness produce peace, quietness and trust forever in Your name.

God, I pray that Your people will abide in Your peaceful habitation, 

secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places.

I pray that You will be gracious to us as we wait for You. 

Be our arm every morning, and our salvation in the time of trouble.

God, be exalted!

You fill us with Your justice and righteousness. 

You are the stability of our times, the abundance of our salvation, wisdom, and knowledge.

The fear of the Lord is indeed our treasure. 

God, keep our eyes behold You in Your beauty, 

make our eyes see a land that You cover, that stretches afar.

Help us see our becoming - an untroubled habitation, an immovabke tent, whose stakes will never be plucked up, nor any of its cords will be broken. 

Lord, Your majesty will be for us a place of broad rivers and streams. 

As we abide in You, as we look to You, there we shall find rest and be refreshed. 

Thank you, Jesus for the freedom and joy. Overtaking, overflowing and it will never be taken away from us. Because You remain to be King, unchallenged in Your throne. 

I bless and and honor Your name, Jesus. 

Amen and amen. 

(A prayer from Isaiah 32 & 33)

Day Two

 Father,

Thank you for today. 

Thank you for waking and rising me up.

Thank you for this fortress, I call home. 

Thank you because you gave me a place I could hide,

a shelter where I can just go for solitude. 

Lately, I have been very unstable emotionally. 

A little while I go happy, then I get sad.

A get excited, then disappointed, then angry, 

then guilty, then sorry, then I wonder what still matters. 

Time and time and again, I wonder if I'm progressing

or I'm just stuck in a cycle thinking I'm wise, but a fool.

Lord, again, I'm an insecure brat, wanting things my way. 

But I know I can't turn back time and fix what seemed wrong,

because I know in Your Sovereign, nothing is out of control, 

nothing isan accident, nothing surpises nor disappoints You. 

Lord, I feel like my heart is bruised from my own doing. 

Lord, keep my from myself, save me from my self. 

I know You alone can save me.

I know You alone can satisfy me. 

I know You alone can heal me.

I know You alone can secure me. 

With Your love and Your love alone.

God, I pray that You continually protect our families from the harm

brought by covid19. I pray that you strengthen the health of every

household so that they can continually do Your will. All the more, 

may we see all Your works specially in this season - Your grace, 

Your mercy, Your providence. May we see You in the eye of every

person that we encounter, and that You fill every circumstamces.

Thank you God because You remain in the throne. 

Forever reign in the throne of our hearts, Lord. 

All this I pray, In Jesus' name.

Amen and Amen.

Oh God please make my mind clear. Please make it clean... Please help me get down under things amd find where You are.

Day One

Father,

This is my first day as someone na 28 years old na! Young adult na po talaga. Lord, thank you sa lahat ng pasensha and grace mo sa life ko. Thank you sa protection sa akin. Thank you sa protection sa mga loved ones ko. Thank you for protecting them from all harms and dangers, from thr schemes of the enemy to kill, steal and destroy Your good plan and futur for them, and even to me when I become a unhealthy and toxic. Lord, thank you for providing for all of our needs, specially in this pandemic. Indeed, to be in the center of Your will is the safest place on Earth.

Lord, for the next days of my year, I pray that You will satisfy my longign soul. My waiting lately has caused me to lose sight of patience, of You. God, I pray that you help me order the loves in me. Help me God to never lose what really matters for you. Keep me humble and affirmed with You, and You alone. Nothing else, Father.

Lord, may Your will be done in my life. May I live a life of praise and worship; a child in awe of Your wonder. May Your Spirit continually bring me deeper into Your delight. Teach me to pray. Open my eyes and heart to Yours. Lord, my life, I live for You. Lead me. Guide me. I am Yours.

Thank you, Jesus, for the gift of life. For family, friends, opportunities to grow in You, the highs and lows, the solemn sunrises, and beautiful sunsets. Lord, may You fill me, my world, with all tha You are. May Your fingerprints be renowned in all of Your creation. I praise You, God. You are Sovereign. You are good, faithful to the every end. 

xxviii

Mahal, you're God's promised future.

I miss you everyday.

sun to sun

The night he told me about those moments, I felt nothing. Like I heard stories like his before, and the redemption in Jesus' name. But now, as his stories just suddenly visit me, it's starting to sink in.

Right now, I feel deeply sad. Not because I'm disappointed, but because I know he was hurting all those times. I wish to could've wiped his tears when it all hurt so much. I wish to coul've held his hand when nothing made sense. I wish to could've sat beside him, at the least.

But in Your goodness and mercy, I know you allowed it to happen. In your loving kindness, I was not there in every moment. BECAUSE YOU WERE THERE, YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE. You wiped his tears when it all hurt so much. You held his hand when nothing made sense. You sat beside him, always. 

Now, I thank You Lord for the story that is yet to be told. I thank You for every life that You are making, sanctifying and refining. You look after us; not for a moment Your eyes turned away from us. You teach us to be courageous in the journey. You teach us where to find satisfying and everlasting joy.

Lord, I may never be the most wise person in this generation. I may never be pefect. I may never be very obedient bucause I always find it hard to. And there's nothing really I can offer you because I'm broken, worse unworthy. But I will rest in Your promise of hope in Jesus... Mynone amd greatest desore to honor and glorify You all the days of my life.

Our lives, O Lord. May it be a pleasing sacrifice to You. 

Lord, remind me of the things I've long forgotten.

To honor and glorify God in every decision and all seasons.

Lord, pwede isang ESV Study Bible sa akong bithdaaay. 😭✨

I miss you.

Kaayo jud. Hahaha.

Diri nalang nako isulti kay di man pwede. Hahaha.

Hi Lord, ok lang? Hahahahahays.

Seven things

Earl Justin, I don't know if I'll be able to tell this to you but since then you have been in my prayers... not to ask for you, but to let you experience the best that God will reward you.

Tonight is an answered prayer. I'm scared that you'll leave me. I'm scared that I won't be able to love and serve and cherish you as much I desire. I'm scared that I will just ruin everything God has for you because I am this weak in my conviction to be right with God and you. I don't wanna make you contend with God's nor with the people He surrounds us. I won't intend to replace God's throne in our hearts. And ultimately, I'm scared that with all that's happening, the thought of leaving the One who loved me the most... that would be very unbearable.

So here's seven things I wanna tell you but I'll keep it to God for now. I don't want to pre-empt anything, but let God create. For whatever He creates, He loves. And what He loves, He sustains and keeps until the very end. May the entire process and progress be glorifying to Him who is worthy of it all! 

1) I don't wanna waste God's trust. His goodness and kindness. I don't want to waste the trust of those who loves us too.

2) I hope to make you proud in this decision. 

3) I wanna tell the world that I'm proud of you. A lot of times I wanna do it but I always holdback. And yea, I wanna tell the world of the treasure that I found. 

4) I wanna do a lot of things with you, and celebrate it with everybody. And there's no more hiding or fear because God says so. 

5) I wanna let you experience and indulge God's fullness of life without fear, without considering anything but to enjoy God to the fullest.

6) I wanna let you live without worrying about compromising what you have begun with God. 

7) And I wanna let you go, and be free from me.

And if God permits me to stay in the garden He is growing in you, then I'll be forever thankful. But even not, I will remain forever thankful. And all the more praise Him for letting me see you to be the best version of you.

Forever thankful to God for you Earl Justin. 

Palangga.

HE CHOSE YOU

No matter how far you fell

No matter what you feel

No matter how unworthy, 

dirty, failure, mistake, mess

you think you are

or your life seemed to be

He was never mistaken 

to call out your name

to choose you

You are never mistaken

to hear Him

to see Him stay with you

You are a treasure found

A gift full of worth -

worth telling the world

worth to be proud of

worth for the best

worth it.

That is Who He is -

good, merciful, gracious

able and in control,

Father, keeper, healer

loving, kind, and loving.

Creator. Sustainer. Provider.

Faithful 'til the end.

He created you.

He chose you.

He will father you.

With no doubt,

no matter what -

past, present, future -

He is fully and completely

convinced and confident

that it will always be

you and Him.

"He will lift the anxious and the weary. Calling home the burdened and the lost. I am proof that You delight in second chances. I am proof of the power in the cross."

But You're not.

I'm scared of my sharp edges,
or my tolerance for everything.
I'm scared that I'm too much to handle,
or I'm still not enough.
I'm scared that I might get hurt,
or I will hurt some.

I'm scared that I'm never really meant for greatness
or I'm just believing but not trusting.
I'm scared that I will not be able to live with the expectations,
or that I'll fail again.
I'm scared of what the future brings,
or for my past to haunt.

I'm scared because He's silent and I think
that He's not happy with me anymore,
that He's disappointed with me, or
that I'm not, never enough.

I'm scared that when I hear His voice again,
He'll tell me He'll leave me,
because I'm not strong enough,
because I'm not smart enough.

I'm scared that I'll never sum up to be the one He expects be to be.
I'm scared that all of my high and low days fed him.
I'm scared that He'll never accept me for all the things that I hate about myself.

I am ungrateful, independent and silent.
I worry and doubt a lot too.
I get angry and impatient.
And I bury hate and unlikely deep.

I'm scared,
but You're not.
You're not intimidated,
but remains committed.
You still look me in the eyes,
You still listen to my cries.
You remain to be patient,
and so kind.
You always open my hand
to hold and let go.
You were never disgusted with my past,
neither threatened of my today's life
nor my future decisions, mistakes and failures.
I'm not quite sure about You,
because I'm never confident about me.
You are perfect in all of Your ways,
and I am not.
I can understand if You would just leave me,
or You won't accept me back to You.
But You are always there, 
waiting for me to come to You.
To come home in Your accepting arms.
And I want, I will remain in this truth, slowly.
Help me to believe,
Help me to trust,
Help me to belong.
You're the only One, I've got.
My portion. My reward.
My goodness. My stillness.
My strength. My quietness.

You alone are enough.

"Steady on, my love. This shall soon pass."

He is your Maker. He is your Lover. He is your Keeper.

 Whatever He creates, He loves. And whatever He loves, He keeps.

Remember that.

"You can believe and yet not trust."

I just realized that the future may be uncertain, but we can still choose what we can be certain of.

I just realized that the future may be uncertain, but we can still choose what we can be certain of.

Though we're to live in an open hand, I don't think it's taking some things away from us. Living in surrender means, we know what's worth it... over time and emotions. I don't wanna fight with time, it's a friend. Nor emotions, they're allies. Both reveals the foundations of every decision we make, which will create a path for our uncertain future. Then we learn what really matters along the course of this journey. It's not going to be, the what ifs or merits anymore. But the good that will last forever...  over the process and along the progress. 

I'm scared.

 Lately, things that scares me about life piled up.

Just yesterday, I talked with an officemate / friend. She shared to me everything about her, and now, her desire to go "fix" her spiritual life. Hearing her story broke my heart. She's married but separated. She has a son and twin daughters, her closest relationships at hand which she's trying to take care. Her relationship with her parents are not that bad I guess, but you can see the brokenness in her. It's not her fault, nor her parents, that she didn't fight for her marriage anymore, that her heart for her children were a bit far, that she's extremely ambitious about having and easy and comfortable life, for even entering extra-marital relations one after another. She was looking for love. Doing everything for love.

Currently, she's into a secret relationship with a single man. I can see how this person has impacted her positively, like this relationship made her want to start anew again. However, I'm quite cautious about the guy. I don't know, but suddenly I just felt so protective about her. I know she's old already. But you see, my deepest prayer is that, these birthing of new things, for wanting to start new, won't be her ground for also wanting to get close to God. Because once again, what if all of those fail again, will she quit making things right? Will she stop her pursuit for God? Will she stop hoping for better days to come? 

My prayer is that God will give her faith in this season, protection for her very vulnerable heart, and guidance in taking the right way. Lord, our out Your mercy upon her. Overtake her with your love. Satisfy her with your grace, day by day. Take her hand and walk with her. Make her realize that You are the only one Who stayed and will stay no matter what. That you are her constant in this world full of changes. Pain will always be there, and God I pray that you help her forgive to release her from what imprisons her soul to experience Your fullness of life. Lord, it's never too late. You will rescue and redeem and restore Your daughter. Help her, God. I know You love her and You will do everything just to have her again. Help her, God.

Then you see, upon hearing her story. I can't help but get scared for my own. I believe she was an active church member, but it really doesn't guarantee our faith in the Lord. It can really be external where circumstances are the only way to reveal the foundation of the things we believe in. She was in my age when her life started to crumble, when she was given her crucible. Realizing this, I can never be proud of the things I've conquered. I was just a weakling before those tough seasons, but it was His grace and mercy that upheld me, made me live upto this very day. Indeed, if it wasn't because of Him, I would've quit life. Quit Christianity. Quit everything. 

But then again, it was because of Him. He stayed. Despite seeing all of it. He chose to stay with me. No matter how I intentionally hurt him or push Him away, wishing for Him to leave, forcing Him to go away, I don't know why He still pursues me. There's nothing He can merit from me... I will just hurt him because of who I am... But there's always this vision of His kind eyes... Very warm and accepting... Something you would never believe that's yours nor you deserve. Yet there it is, looking at you like you're the most beautiful thing He has ever seen.

Tell me, who can get away with those eyes? It tells me that He will never leave no matter. It tells me He will hold me in my darkest night, 'til my fears are far away. He is never scared of my flaws, but promises to take me by the hand every single day. 

Tell me then, who am I not to extend such loving kindness to anybody? To not pledge my full allegiance and obedience to Him and see Him to be my King worthy to be served. 

There's nothing to be scared anymore. Your God. Your Father. Your lover. Will never let go of you. He is committed to you 'til the end. You'll be fine. 

God's knows best. His will. His way. His time.

"to confidently trust Him whether you feel Him not"

PTSD nights

Everyone is not as strong as you. 

For people who are unfamiliar with depression, anxiety attacks and PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), I don't know how to convey it to you. But please be considerate of your actions. Be kind to everyone you meet. You don't know what they are going through, inside and alone.

Repetitive scenarios keep on haunting. Not that it is wanted or welcomed, but was just triggered then once again fears, failures, pain paralyze. And this is not to count against the offender; no, no more condemnation and guilt. but you see, thoughtless actions led to a deep and long-term healing process.

This is a personal battle for the one experiencing those negative thought pattern. As much as the people have moved on, how much more the other party wants to also. You see, taking ourselves out of the picture is not easy peasy... and recall something about what happened. But with constant security of healing and redemption, I know the battle is already won. 

And Yes, this is how hard the mind battle is. Every. Single. Time. 

So I hope that this address brings awareness to everyone (who needs it). 

Please understand. 

Please be patient. 

Please process with them.

Day One

Lord, thank you for these people who have surrounded me. To remind me that you desire for us to enjoy this season, just because. 

Thank you for the life of Rachel. 

God, even if daghan kaayo mi sayop,

and gahi mi kaayo ug ulo, 

grabe lang Kaykag grasya. 

Forgiveness. Provision. Love. 

Thank you kaayo.

I pray for breakthrough in her finances,

na makabayad na sha sa iyang mga debts

and that your redemption story in this area

of her life will be strong and true. 

I pray for her desire to have a husband,

God, may you grant the desires of her heart. 

May Your will be done. May she enjoy

this season of waiting on You, God,

more than anything else. 

God, I pray for Earl. Continue to bring out

the best in him. Let him grow in Your strength

and grace. May you overflow Your might

arresting his heart with Your strength. 

Give him courage; take him by the hand

as he ventures to conquer territories and fear.

God, I believe that You can and will do and accomplish

so much and great things in His life.

Continue to shine Your light to Your son. 

Continue to make him choose You, always.

God, I pray for Gee Ann. 

I thank You for her life!! Thank you for leading her.

Thank you because You are opening her heart

in the grandness of Your grace. Thank You

because You have blessed our relationship. 

God, I know dili man jud all the time na maging 

smooth lang permi, and days like these,

with their lives, will remind me that You are for us. 

I pray that You continually secure her with

that she is fully known and yet deeply loved.

God, thank you Tinay.

Indeed, she is someone na lami kaayo alagaan. 

Thank you for securing our relationship

na bisag daghan na kaayog insecurities and

misunderstandings, still we can count on one another. 

I pray that you bless your obedience. 

I pray that you answer her her prayer for her family. 

I know You are making her become the woman

You have best in mind. Direct her to paths, 

open her heart and mind to Your ways. 

Thank you for such a beautiful soul, Jesus. 

God, I pray for Val. 

Thank you for the healing. Thank you for overtaking

his soul. Thank you because You are mindful of him. 

Thank you because You have never left him. 

May Your faithfulness continually remind 

him of his desire to love, obey You. 

May his life indeed be a powerful message 

for everyone to be encouraged. 

Thank you for saving his faith since the

beginning, in the middle and upto the end. 

God, I pray for Janced.

Thank you because young as he is, 

he never intimidated with reality.

As you have open the world to him, 

the possibility to everything, 

may you also open his heart

to be humble and love. 

May you remind him always 

of what you've done, 

that's not about what we can offer, 

but what You've already declared

finished on the cross. 

Lord, I pray for BJ. 

I pray that you give her rest. 

Rest from every insecurity

from every lie

from every weight that

grabs her confidence to You. 

Lord, You are in the midst of her, 

she will rise again on a better version. 

Let Your glory speak in her life. 

You have provided every spiritual 

blessing she needs and will need. 

Heal her from the very depths of her soul, 

and make Your love stronger than ever in her. 

Lord, I pray that you help me

be the best for them.

I know I will not be always around for them, 

so help me to always surrender. 

Help me God to keep my heart right to You. 

You and You alone, God. 

Thank you, Jesus! 🌼✨

Pray and believe 🎶

Save your eyes

From your tears

When everything's unclear

You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight

of your doubts and fears

Wounded heart

When the light disappears

And when the world's insincere

You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream

I'll scream with you

You'll be safe here

In my arms

through the long cold night

Sleep tight

You'll be safe here

When no one understands

I'll believe

You'll be safe here

Put your heart

In my hand

You'll be safe here

day fifty four

Hi Lord,

Today's another tear-full day. There are things that I still don't understand, things that I don't know, things that I just wanna quit on. But still, thank you for being faithful... for still meeting me even if I turn a blind eye or close my ears from the things that You are showing and telling me.

"Sometimes, you just have to choose yourself and God. Before others. God understands. God will lead you to them, eventually in His time."

Thank you for the comfort. Thank you for hearing me out. Thank you for unearthing all the fears, frustrations and failures that I feel. All at the same time, it numbs and shuts me out. But Lord, you are holding me. Thank you for quieting everything. Thank you for keeping me still. Thank you that all, even my consequences, are leading me closer to you.

I don't bring much this season to you. You see, I'm all broken and shut down. I can't open my mouth. I can't think well. But God, here's my life. Rather than choosing it away, I offer it to you. I know that for how many times, you have heard this from me, and you still take me anyway. And I let go. Let your will be done. Everyday is still kind'a painful for this new normal, but "Whatever happens will be wonderful."

Lord, I'm holding on to Your promises to me, that I will see Your goodness in the land of the living. Help me get through this. I will take this path as you lead and take me by the hand. I will not be afraid. It might be painful for a season but your glory will be revealed through it all. "The Lord gives, the Lord takes away. Blessed be Your name, forever!"

God, help me continue this battle. Help me trust in Your Word. Help me love Your people deeper. Create in me a pure heart and renew a right spirit in me. Help me trust in You and lean not in my own understanding. Help me hold on to you more and more. Lord, give me wisdom that I may know that path you are leading me and how to make decisions. Help me process things, God. Help me think safely in the mind.

Lord, I pray for Tin, Alison, James, Mixon, Edel and Janced.

May their desires be granted. May you give them peace as they patiently wait for You.

Bless the works of their hands and protect them in Your loving kindness.

May Your Spirit empower them to be influencers amongst their crowd, their generation.

Let your steadfast love and goodness and faithfulness steady their confidence in You.

Thank you for their lives, O God.

Continually set them free in Your love.

In Jesus' name.

Lord, I pray for Clarisse.

Meet her in her desperation to keep Your commands God.

Speak and encourage her with Your promises.

Give her a good rest tonight God and satisfy her with Your love.

May she find peace in the midst of the pressing desires and rush from the world.

God, have mercy on us. We cried for help and you healed us.

Inside and out, take over.

We surrender it all to you.

We thank you God, for you are good and faithful.

We continue to hold on to You.

We will wait.

We will wait on You.

And as we do, you shall raise us and make us soar like wings like eagles.

We shall walk and not grow tired.

We shall run and not faint.

And I pray for Earl.

Strengthen him. Hold him. Embrace Him. 

Refresh him everyday.

Make him taste and see your faithfulness and goodness!

The Lord God is in his midst, The Mighty One who saves

You rejoice over him with gladness

You quiet him by His love

And You rejoice over Him with loud singing

Surround him with Your favor

Let Your Spirit make him a warrior

and a king You have chosen for Your own.

Thank you, Lord.

Remain unchallenged in our hearts.

You are still enthroned in our hearts.

In Jesus' mighty name.

Amen.

Amazing grace abounds.

I'll wave goodbye, watching you shine bright. 🎶

The best is yet to come 🎶

In every season

You're grace has been enough

And I'm believing

The best is yet to come

The cross before me

My hope on things above

And in You, Jesus

The best is yet to come

I know breakthrough is coming

By faith I see a miracle

My God made me a promise

And it won't stop now

day fifty three

I'm falling

Falling at my knees

At Your feet

I surrender 🎶 

Lord Jesus, thank you for today.

Thank you for waking me up. 

Thank you for feeding me. 

Thank you for my family. 

Thank you for protecting them.

Thank you for keeping us safe by night. 

May you bless the works of our hands

and the words of our mouth

May you bless our hearts

that we may overflow with kindness

Lord, bless Ging's marriage

Help her and Aldrin keep it with You

Help them in raising Cara

Guide them in their plans for life. 

Bless May's studies. 

I pray that You keep her 

and her future

from all harm

I pray that you bless her

May You make her dreams come true

Lead her into the best of everything in this life. 

Lord, help me be a sister to them. 

And Lord, help me be a daughter to Nanay and Tatay.

Bless them with good health. 

Bless them with for raising us

and keeping us alive

Thank you for outsourcing them to be our parents. 

May you make them the happiest, God.

Believing and declaring for that day, 

when we will praise and worship You

in Spirit and in Truth. 

Lord, I listened to my prophecy last February

and there are still things that I do not understand

I don't know if it's that the reason why I don't wanna listen to it

Or I just can't seem to fathom how it will happen

You see, I only pray for everything to be okay

bet it's the simplest out there, eh? 

But why does it still seem to be so far?

Lord, you know that I'm risking all my faith, my hope, all that I am

for that very one day

And some days, days like these, it just hurts like hell

To continue

To trust

To surrender

To believe

And as slowly as everything is being taken away

I found myself to be alone with You

with You

alone

but not lonely

it discards my pretend strength

it discredits my longing about everything

it desires nothing but You

Then it makes me realize how small my faith could be

for a simple prayer

for that one single day

was it fear that is keeps me wanting for more?

So now, I wait for that

"I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living" 

not just for a day,

but while I'm living

and even if not, 

eternity awaits. 

Where there will be

no more

pain, 

sickness, 

brokenness.

His glory in the heavens

blesses the earth. 

And we share in His glory

by virtue of Christ Jesus,

by as we live

we get the pursuing beauty

of the Lord's

leading, protection and provision. 

From sunrise to sunset,

From midnight to breaking of dawn, 

He lights everyone He calls His own

It covers even the deepest of the seas

and reaches the very corners of the earth

For darkness is still light to Him

His eyes are set for His chosen

No more hiding

No more shame

No more guilt

His voice is the mightiest

His voice gives rest

His voice is the gentlest

His voice is found in stillness

Your Presence is an open door

We want You, Lord, like never before

Your Presence is an open door

So come now, Lord, like never before 🎶 

Lord, you command the angels to stand watch over me.

The irony of fear

Fear will make you think a lot, 
but it will also make you have strong guts. 

Fear will make you paralyze,
but it will not keep the heart from beating to fight. 

Fear will make you feel less, 

but it will also lead you into the stillness. 

Fear will make you surrender, 

but it will not keep you to go further. 

"Fear doesn't shut you down; it wakes you up."
Fear bends. 
Fear also trembles. 
Fear can't control you. 
Fear knows where it belongs, and not in you. 

"Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God." - Psalm. 42:5(b)

day fifty two

Thank you, Jesus for today

Thank you for being

so, so good and kind

to me

to my family

to my loved ones

Your goodness, Lord

it never ceases

Your steadfastlove

has become

Our Cornerstone

Our Rock

Our Fortress

Your goodness

leads us to Your pasture

where streams of water

the river of life is found

where trees bear fruit

in and out of season

where even in the wilderness

in our rest, in the unlikely

You make us grow

You make us flourish

You never stop blessing

You never stop providing

You never stop leading

You never stop protecting

Not for a minute

we are forsaken

You are a Generous Giver

Your mercy overflows

Your grace fills our lives

New and fresh every morning

Jesus, be glorified!

May You open our eyes to see You, God

May Your strong love hold our weakened hearts

Our hands lifted up in surrender

Our knees are found at the foot of the cross

Lord, you will never let us run dry

You renew us as we wait on You

You rise up our dry souls to live

You remain and called us forgiven

You restore the joy of our salvation

You redeem and call us worthy

God, let us sing of Your goodness

let us sing of Your faithfulness

Even in the valley of shadow of death

We will fear no evil, for You are with us

Surely goodness and mercy

shall satisfy us all the days of our lives

And we will dwell in You forever

Your Spirit in dwells with us henceforth

Lord, I pray for Earl. 

Mmm. I know he's not that okay, 

I don't know what pains him right now. 

But I know you know. 

Fight for him, God. 

Give him courage and hope.

Hold his hand. 

Sing over him your joy and love

You're not letting him go. 

As he faces today's reality, 

strengthen his core being. 
May you give him the opportunity
to work or study (whatever it is, wherever it may be, lead him, God) 
to provide for his family
to pay his debts
to work on his dreams
to enjoy himself the fruit of a hardwork

He is a conqueror

He is a mighty worshipper

His beats come from You

May this season serve him

Your very best purpose 

and wonderful pursuit

Make his light shine before others

Lord, I pray for BJ

Overtake her with your love

Overwhelm her with your

wonderful grace

Let her sing within her 

your goodness

your faithfulness

your strength 

that holds us

and keeps us

still and know that You are God

I pray that you heal

whatever is hurting her

I pray that you take her

in the middle of what's confusing her

I pray that you continually

give her wisdom and grace
as she pursues her studies
as she pursues her dreams
as she becomes the woman You want her to be

as she remains in you
as she rests in You

She doesn't need to fear anymore, 

for You have come and spoken, 

All things work together for good, 

to those who love God. 

Lord, I pray for Tinay

I pray that you continually

overflow your joy in her life

May your love continually speak

louder and confidently in her life

I pray that you grant her 

the desires of her heart

I pray that you protect her emotions

I pray that you nourish her wisdom

Radiate more and more

your delight for your children

in her life

Her stillness before You 

will make her trust You better

will make her and her soul be fully satisfied

For in Your Presence, there is fullness of joy

Lord, I pray for Rachel
May You protect her from
all forms of evil that torments
and keeps her faith away from You
Lord, have mercy on Your daughter
Send your angels to fight over her
every day and every night
from her dreams and even as she works
wherever she goes and whoever she's with
Please cover her with Your blood
She is forgiven
She is set free
She is favored
She is chosen
She is blesses he doesn't need to strive anymore
May her life continually bring people to You
Provide for her, O God
May you able her to provide for debts
May she become a blessing as she desires
May she be able to provide for her family
May she become a living testimony
of Your divine Providence
of Your goodness
of Your faithfulness
of Your pursuing love for us

Lord, I pray for Junjun
I pray that you bless the works of his hands
I pray that you continually lead him to Your will
I pray that you continually anoint him to Your calling
I pray that you help him and his company, God
Protect their livelihood and the workers
from the destruction the the enemy is working on
God make your people fruitful in the land where You have led them
God, I pray that you help Junjun in knowing You better
and in making himself better with confidence coming from You
Thank you for answering his prayers
Thank you for taking him deeper
Thank you because his humility will take him further and deeper to You

Lord, I pray for Eugene
May you guide him in his decisions, God
May you send people to lead him to Your will
May you continually Burn his desire to serve You
May He never lost His love and passion for You
I pray that You provide for him and his family 
I pray that You help him with the issues that keep Him
from getting better in working for Your glory
May his life continually be a testimony of
obedience
favor
blessing
and
surrender. 
Keep him always to your good will, God. 

Lord, You are making us grow
You are making us flourish even in this midst of crisis
You are with us
You are for us
You are within us

One day, we will be celebrating your faithfulness and goodness. 
One day, we will be in Your house, fullhouse praising and worshipping You. 
One day, there will be no more tears, pain and brokenness. 
One day our joy will be full. 

Thank you, Jesus. 
Amen and amen. 

day fifty one

Jesus, thank You for today.
Thank you for the gift of friendship.
Thank you for the gift of relationship.
Thank you for the wisdom to start business.

Lord, I thank you for proving our needs in the family. 
I thank you for enabling us to work on the dream you had in our hearts. 
Slowly but surely, you have made it possible.
I pray for favor for every transaction that we will be dealing in the legalities. 
I pray for blessing with every account we will be having.
Lord, from beginning to end, the glory belongs to you. 
I pray for protection for our family; that pride nor riches won't break our faith in You
But this will be an altar, a remembrance how You have provided for us the midst of crisis
And you will continue to be faithful and good until the end of time.
It may be small, but we still thank You because You gave us a beginning. 

And Lord, I pray that this crisis will make the best of Your people.
I pray that you birth awakening in faith, hope, dreams and breakthroughs.
I pray that You come through in every area of our life that our joy may be full. 
I pray that You heal our anxieties; that You help and provide for us in times of need. 
Your works makes us joyful; Your wonders and glory makes us feel pursued.
We are not be worthy of Your unconditional love, but God you continously give it.
Siksik, liglig, umaapaw. There's nothing good you withhold from us.

As you continue to prepare for us for Heaven,
for what is eternal, what will last forever, 
no more pain, sickness or brokenness, 
but where Your steadfast love, goodness and faithfulness
where Your glory will remain.
I pray that You lead us, protect and provide us in this lifetime.
Be our Father 
Be our Shepherd
Be our King
Our joy is found in You. 
May we continually and uncondotionally
serve and love one another as Jesus taught us.
Help us trust You 
Help us wait in You
Help us be expectant in You
Help us be reminded that You are our Source 
and there's nothing else, no one else
Help us be pure in thoughts and actions
Let Your Spirit ignite in us, Lord, that we may delight in Your commands
Help us remain in You, 
Give us a heart with full and deep remembrance 
of Your love, faithfulness and goodness to us

You are great and good
You are God
You can do all things, but fail
You are gracious and merciful
You hear our prayers
You are all knowing
You are our final authority
You are sovereign
You are powerful
You see everything
You are the Lord of all seasons
The God of break throughs

Grant us fear of the Lord 
that we may have wisdom 
that we may follow Your lead
And that we may be able to
preserve a generation who will
love, serve and remain in You
with all their heart, mind and soul

May you send your angels to win fight the battles of Your children, God. 
We claim what You have prepared for us to be accomplished in our lives. 
Dreams, hopes, visions, missions - may You will be done. 

All this I pray, 
in Jesus' name,
Amen and amen.