Friday, March 23, 2018

But really He always knew what this process was going to look like; I just had to learn how to trust deeply, with my eyes shut at times when I didn’t understand. (@tayasmith)

“I do love You, You know that I love You. Oh, forgive me because I can’t help my tears. I will go down with You into the wilderness, right away from the promise, if You really wish it. Even if You cannot tell me why it has to be, I will go with You, for You know I do love You, and You have the right to choose for me anything that You please.” 

“ There Much-Afraid built her first altar on the mountains, a little pile of broken rocks, and then, with the Shepherd standing close beside her, she laid down on the altar her trembling, rebelling will.”

“in an instant nothing but a heap of ashes was lying on the altar. That is to say, she thought at first there were only ashes, but the Shepherd told her to look closer, and there among the ashes she saw a little stone of some kind...

“Pick it up and take it with you,” said the Shepherd gently, “as a memorial of this altar which you built, and all that it stands for.”

“Much-Afraid took the stone out of the ashes, scarcely looking at it and feeling that to her life’s end she would never need a reminder of that altar, for how could she ever forget it or the anguish of that first surrender, but she dropped the pebble into a little purse or bag which the Shepherd gave her and put it away carefully “

“As she started down the path He began a song which Much-Afraid had not heard before, and it sounded so sweet and comforting that her pain began to melt away. It was as though the song suggested to her a part at least of the reason for this strange postponement of all her hopes. This is the song He sang:

“THE CLOSED GARDEN
A garden closed art thou, my love,
Where none thy fruits can taste,
A spring shut up, a fountain sealed,
An orchard run to waste.
Awake, north wind! And come, thou south!
Blow on my garden fair,
That all the spices may flow out As perfume on the air"
- Hinds Feet on High Places

Take Courage today - For even better than your best is His good.
Im all in Jesus 😭🙌 



Repost from Taya Smith's Instagram.

Monday, March 19, 2018

Ate Roselle

Ate, I thank God for you.
I thank God for choosing you to be my ate, discipler, mentor, and friend. I thank God because you don’t sugarcoat things; you know I just need Jesus most. Thank you for not always being at my side, whether it’s circumstantial or not. Thank you for not entertaining my overthinking… Thank you for not insisting anything, it made me learn to decide in dependence to God. Thank you for not talking (not literally ha, haha) at times I just needed Your presence. Thank you for always laughing out things.Thank you for smiling even if times were hard and tough. Thank you for you wisdom, know that it is well-hidden. Thank you for opening your life and world to me. You were the love-person God gave me despite me.Your gentle, soft answer (bisan strong na gud) breaks the strong in me.  You were someone I never thought I could have;one of those very persons I don’t deserve (especially when I think about my shortcomings). And in my obsession to always do the right thing,you always come like God’s grace to me.
This is not goodbye.

Love lots,Rau :)


She's going to be in Thailand after a few more days. She's going to work there and who knows if she's gonna stay there for good. I'm gonna lose a great ate in her, and I'll be sad. She's one of those who knows me inside and out. In her silent stares and laughter, I've seen life.

Knowing her, she'll do well. 
But knowing our God, she'll thrive there.