Thursday, April 30, 2020

If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall. 1 Corinthians 10:12 NLT

No temptation [regardless of its source
has overtaken or enticed you that is not common to human experience [nor is any temptation unusual or beyond human resistance]; but God is faithful [to His word--He is compassionate and trustworthy], 
and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability [to resist], 
but along with the temptation He [has in the past and is now and
will [alwaysprovide the way out as well, 
so that you will be able to endure it [without yielding, and will overcome temptation with joy].
1 Corinthians 10:13 AMP

Remember the next generation, please.
Protect them with the way you live today.

Akong pangarap after aning quarantine noh, makita ang tibuok Gensan. Mao ra jowd. Hahahahuhu. 😭😂✨

Let your hope make you glad. Be patient in time of trouble and never stop praying. Romans 12:12 CEV

Tuesday, April 28, 2020

In a hundred lifetimes, I'll choose you; In a hundred worlds, I'll find you.

day forty three

thank you Jesus
that I still got to do the things that I do
that I get work by next week again
that I am protected and provided
that I am led and loved

praying for those people who are having a hard time now
may this crisis be opportune time for their hope in You to rise
may this humbling time bring them into their rejoicing, one day
may this refining make the very best of them You lead them into their destiny

Thank you Jesus because 
You are our Delivere
You are our Redeemer
You are our Salvation
You are our Light
You are our Rock
You are our Song
You are our Fortress
and You will not be shaken. 

You are our reward
You are our greatest portion
You plant us beside the streams
You make us bear fruit in and out of season
You bear us in patience
You lavish to us Your loving kindness
Your grace and mercy gives us miracles every day

I pray that you uphold Your sons and daughters
even in the valley of sahdow of death
they will walk and never fall fos You are with them
I pray that you break through, God in their lives
I pray that you give them the willingness, the power and desire to do your will. 
I pray that you bless them and their hearts. 
I pray that you bring favor in their endeavors.
Thank you Jesus, for You have conquered it all for them. 
Thank you because they will fight a good fight of faith. 
Thank you because we will praise and worship You for the rest of our lives. 

You are good, no matter what.
You have a plan and a future for us. 
Nothing is too hard for You. 
The battle is Yours.
You are incomparable. 
Your joy is invincible. 

We surrender to receive Your will be done in our lives. 
You are faithful. 
You are good. 
You are trustworthy. 
Praise forever to the King of Kings! 🎶 

In Jesus, name.
Amen and amen. 

Monday, April 27, 2020

Come Alive! Awake, Arise! Inhale the light!

day forty two

Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. 
Delight yourself in the Lord, 
and he will give you the desires of your heart 
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He wil bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday. 
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, 
over the man who carries out evil devices.

Psalm 37:3-7


Just play

Interviewer: ... one piece of advice you would give them?
Jason Mraz: I would say play. Just play. Because if you have love in music then you sit down to do it, you will be rewarded with music. You will be rewarded by literally be on your own path, in your path... be swimming in your own success everytime you sit down and play, that was my only bar. And where you set the bar? It's reallt up to you. I just wanna play music... I didn't wanna have any day job And everything that's come after that is been this kind'a crazy bonus that I believe is just a result of me sitting in a spot having a good time. And people wanna watch you have a good time. They will listen to you have a good time. They wanna be inspired to have their own good time... Sometimes you see some of these artist try to, just try to have all at once... It's great when your community support you. But it's also great to go out there and earn it. To go out there and play... Don't skip any step. Don't wish [the journey away]... Just play. 

🌧️

Sunday, April 26, 2020

Thursday, April 23, 2020

day thirty nine

Thank you, Jesus for today.
Thank you for reminding me that theres' nothing to worry.
Thank you for taking my burdens and making me rest. 
Thank you for making me happy.

Lord, I pray for everyone who is having a hard time finding their rhythm in this season. I pray that you give them the beat of Your grace to sing and dance. I pray that you open their eyes to your beauty. Let them marvel in your sunrise, let them be in awe of your sunset. Let your people wonder in the cool of the night. I pray that we get to know Your delight in the laughters we hear from Your creations. I

Lord, continue to provide wisdom, strength and protection for our leaders as they devise ways to address the need of Your nation. I pray that You bless them and keep in good condition always.

We also pray, Father, that You stop the schemes of the enemy to destroy the future of Your people. The enemy is using this time to also double the effort in making Your people sin. Lord, I pray that You destroy what will lead us to harm. For Your plan for us is to proper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future. God, remember your people and deliver us from this death in our souls, worse than any virus or disease.

We continue to trust you in this season, God.
We're waiting on You.
Everything is slowing down and breathing.
Thank You for this opportunity to discover. 
Thank You for this deepening.
Thank You for this refining. 
Thank You for this pruning. 
Thank You for this healing.
Thank You for this restoration. 
Thank You for this growth.
Thank You for this strenthening.
Thank You for this preparation. 
Thank You for this rest.
Thank You for this grace. 
Thank You for this mercy. 
Thank You for this kindness. 

All the glory, honor and praise belongs to You. 
In Jesus' name. Amen.

No, I'm not good. No good. Just learning to see God's grace in everything.

I've been living myself with a mindset, "One day, that person will leave you." It's so strong that it has become my reality. It's not that I don't believe the people to stay, it's just that change is the most inevitable thing in the world. No one stays the same. No one stays. No one will.

But Him.
Until He came. 
And He came to stay.

That's enough for me. 
He has and will always be. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2020

"You will do well to send them on their journey in a manner worthy of God." 3 John 1:6

To all the leaders that has probably thought of all the possible ways to help cultivate the growth of their people,

"You will do well".

I know its kind'a frustrating right now, specially we're in the midst of a pandemic where there's nothing we can do... We'll in the first place, we can't really do nothing for a anybody's growth. We can lead and encourage, but remember we can not impose. They will learn according to the decisions that they will make. They will grow how God intended so... Quite an enlightenment right?

A while ago, I complained about a few people. Not realizing I should've prayed instead. Not long enough my sentiment, I was reminded by God. As I was reading 3 John today, I didn't know how it'll minister to me, but I was expectant. I was particularly stuck with v. 3, "You will do well to send them on their journey in a manner worthy of God." It was an assurance, I told myself, not to worry about the ladies. God knew I'll reach the point of worrying, complaining. It somehow actually led me getting afraid and insecure. But then again, just like all the superheroes, Jesus came to save my day. 

v. 3, in other translations are implorations not to give up on people's journey. So yes, actually, that verse is not just an assurance that we will do well, but also an encouragement to do we while we have not yet reached the point of letting them be. You know, ever since discipleship, I've always distinguished it similar to parenting. And a picture that have always stuck to me about it, was about how tiger cubs are left by their own at the age of three. 

We're not going to be forever be in their side, they will have to go somewhere and lead and live a life... And our hopes here that wherever they may be, the seed we have planted in them will grow into a healthy tree and bear sweet fruits. The soil, it's a good soil. God has cultivated it. The seed, God has provided, let us sow it. And the growth, it will come from the Sun (the Son) and all the seasons.

So beloved leader, dear one, do not give up walking with others. 
God is your greatest portion; His consolation will bring you joy.
He will make your feet like the deer's to make you tread and stand on high places. 

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

"She protected her life, to protect others." 😭😭😭

You're a fire. The refiner. I wanna be consumed.

Clean my hands, purify my heart
I wanna burn for you, only for You
Take my life as a sacrifice
I wanna burn for you, only for You

Monday, April 20, 2020

day thirty eight

Here's a few things that got me thinking today:

It's hard to pray in behalf if you don't deny yourself. 
It's lonely to be alone. 
Our days are numbered.

I don't know what is in God's mind why He isn't lifting this pandemic,
but sure enough He is calling out to His people. 

Lord, I pray that everyone will not let hatred take over. I pray that everyone will get to see every silver lining you offer in this situation. Though some things might not be addressed, I pray that it will not cause a rebellious heart, an unbelieving heart in them. I pray that you keep everyone from this poison in their souls, bringing death to one another.

I pray that every morning, people will experience your pursuit. God, I pray that you answer every seeking heart. I pray that you come and whisper your love to every person who is deperate tonight. I pray that you bring peace and sleep for people who are experiencing anxiety, depression, traumas, and fear. God, have mercy on your people. Come and deliver us from our own demise. Our miseries are leaving us condemned and paralyze. A broken and contrite heart, O God, You do not despise. Listen to our pleas, Father. Help us get over. Sheperd us. Lead us. We turn our hearts to you.

Praying that people will come to know Your will God. For where your will is, we are the safest. Praying for all the people who are in face to face with this invincible enemy, Lord, You are invincible. No one and nothing can thwart your plans for your people. You are our refuge in time of trouble. You are our deliverer when we're losing our battles. You are our restorer, for You are our hope, our strength in the midst of this all. Lord, be our stronghold. Hide us under the shadow of Your wings. 

Father, we are lost without you in this pandemic. Keep our eyes focus on You. Help our unbelief. Anchor our hope to You. 

In Jesus, name. 
Amen. 

Saturday, April 18, 2020

day thirty seven

A friend of sinners,
A friend to me.

😭😭😭

Found. Forever safe.

Shakings.
Stretching. 

Surrender.

Stability.
Safe.

Pursuit.
Incomparable.

I'm desperate for You. I'm lost without You. 😭😭😭

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. Romans 15:13

The God of hope [The (only) Source of hope; the well, the stream of waters] 
Fill
All joy and peace [much, complete, overflowing with uncontainable]
In believing [in trusting] 
The Power of the Holy Spirit [reminds us of the Lord's faithfulness] 
Abound in hope [never depleting but always overflowing]



Where do you anchor you joy, hope and peace?

Friday, April 17, 2020

Lead me to You. Forever, Lord, I will pursue.

I close my eyes to see
My King in majesty
Your grace compels my soul
To love and draw in close

I lift my hands and sing
Surrender everything
In You I know I'm found
My God to You I bow

Through the fire I'll persevere
I won't submit to any fear
Where I go You've been before
All my trust is in You Lord

Now until forever
Jesus I surrender
Show me what I don't know
More of You

I'm desperate for Your presence
Longing to be with You
Lead me to a new place
More of You

Lead me to You
Forever Lord I will pursue
I will pursue

You've won my heart
Jesus You're all that I want
All that I want

All I need is You
All I need in You, Lord
Is You, Lord

Open my eyes
Let me know more of Your love
More of Your love

Here I will wait
Just for a glimpse of You God
I'll wait for You God

I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will never be shaken. Psalms 62:1‭-‬2 NLT

Wait
Quiet
Victory
He alone
Rock
Salvation
Fortress
Never be shaken

Sunsets are proof that even endings are beautiful too.

Monday, April 13, 2020

The Fear of the Lord

MEDITATE: FEAR vs FEAR
Gen 36:6-8

With success comes potential compromise. Compromise leads to an ungodly lifestyle. And ungodly lifestyle distance us from God. 

When we lose our godly morality, we lose character, we lose ascendancy, we lose success.

WARNING: Prov 29:25
Fear of man is a trap. It immobilizes us. It makes live in fear. 

v.9
"I fear God" 
The remedy of fear of man
Essential and vital to success

v.10
Character is the key. And the character comes from acknowledging that there is greater fear than man. 

The fear of the Lord knows that God sees anything and everything. 

When you don't think that God is seeing you in the midst of doing an ungodly thing or sin, it's a dangerous place. Because if you believe that God doesn't see you in a bad place, you won't have faith that He sees you when you're in trouble. 

v.11-19
Sometimes the only way out is to run... even if you are judged wrongly? 

Do you have enough fear of God to willing run away and be wrongly judged... believing staying out from this potential trouble is the only way out?

v.20
Joseph was with the King's prisoners - here is another set up from the Lord

the answer to some of the shakings in our life: God I will do what You want me to do.

Why does God wants to shake our fear of man or fear of situations, making a trap for other greater fears? The fear of the Lord brings:
1) Prov 9:10 - God's Wisdom
2) Ps 25:12 - Prudence and right decisions
3) Is 33:6 - Sure foundation of time; Stability

The stability to stand in the grace of God. The stability to always walk in confidence In God's Throne of Grace. 

The more we understand the tension of shaking the fear of man, makes us learn the stability of the grace of God. And that over what situation, we will be stable as we reach God's destiny for our lives. 

Ecc. 7.18
The grace of God and the fear of God

How can you live a life holding on to both of these truths? 
If I can fear the God who loves me, then there's nothing to fear.

(Source: MEDITATE: FEAR vs FEAR (Joey Bonifacio)

Sunday, April 12, 2020

day thirty six

I woke up with swollen eyes from crying the whole night
Waiting seems to be much longer than before
To the point my hope was buried where you are
So I decided to visit the tomb, where I thought I lost you

It was a red sunrise, and gave a fleeting feeling
The wind was cool and the birds were singing
As I slowly stepped closer to where You are
I was trembling to see that something has changed

The sunrise reminded me of Your loving kindness
The cold breeze woke me to some kind of newness
The birds singing told me to that I too shall sing
Then I found Your place to be clean and quiet

I was perplex to have thought You left again
I was anxious that You never want to see us again
Everything was overwhelming me inside out
Until a Word came to me that You have risen

Upon hearing what my soul needed, 
I was then reassured of His forgiveness
His love came rushing relentlessly at me
Once again, I found my self at His feet

Your resurrection is power and glory
It was a lead for me to sing and dance
Your rhythm and beat draws everyone
Your music that has called everything into

Your resurrection secures me of Your promises
Who You say I am and Your cares for everyone
Your death gave it all away, but Your ressurection
It made everything whole and full once again

You are everywhere, You are alive
I shall hear Your voice again from time to time
My peace has come to be and took its rest
Upon knowing my Savior King has Risen

2 Corinthians 12:7-10 Lectio Divina

"You remember those times again?
It felt like there's no one to help you.
But I was there, right?
Holding you.

Remember when you told Me to hold you because You can not bear it?
I took it all for you.

You hate yourself for your weakness.
You hate yourself for the times you were weak
You think there's no future anymore
You think it's hopeless after all

But here I am telling you,
that even if you lose it all,
I won't let you go.

You will continue, you will thrive
Not because you can and you will
But because I AM.
I AM your anchor.
I AM your source.
I AM your beginning and end.

Saturday, April 11, 2020

day thirty five

Lord, when your death
was confirmed on the cross
I remember my hopelessness
The life that I delighted from afar
was taken away
not just by a mere distance
Where would I be?
What would be after?
Lord, will you come back?

My world was starting to shake
the moment I couldn't grasp
any life from You
The silence was deafening
Is this the end of it all? 

When all is said and done
When guilt and shame I have found 
I will use up every bit of faith that holds me
I'll be on my knees wishing for You to come
"This is all that I am, 
This is all that I can do, 
Lord, my life I offer to you, 
may it be a pleasing sacrifice to you."

I am but a short breath
My life is fleeting
with no direction
nor purpose for anything 
When you came
though everything didn't make sense
I have found life
overflowing and full
with nothing to compare

But now that You've left
There was a great hole in my chest
I knew You were leaving
But I still found myself unprepared
But God, I will continue
to believe in what You said
I will continue to trust
I will continue to my love in the line
Patiently silent and waiting
I will fight for the dark nights
Until You come again
Until I hear You call me out again

Friday, April 10, 2020

day thirty four

Jesus, when I think about Your grace,
I can't help but truly be grateful. 
I am always reminded about how works
doesn't earn it, but You freely give it.
Again and again, guilt creeps in when
I see the world doing wondefully for you
and here I am, feeling disqualified, not enough.
Condemned and guilty, 
I find myself imprisoned and tortured, 
from daily accusations and lies, 
I feel like there's no tomorrow
nor someone to save me from this sorrow.
Everytime I drown in anxities and fear
Everytime I lost and everything is hard to bear
Everytime I died inside slowly
You always come. 
You reached out. 
You saw me.
You wiped away my tears. 
You clothed me clean. 
And even in my own mess, 
repeating mistakes, 
rebellion and infidelity, 
You never left. 
Instead You forgive.
Again and again.
You lifted the burden, 
my shame and my guilt, 
my sin, 
You took it all away.
You fought with me. 
You fought for me. 

Now and forever, 
I pledge my allegiance to You, 
my King.
You will find me at my knees, 
always and always, 
grateful for finding me.
I will never forget such kindness. 
I will never forget Your forgiveness. 
Your lovr has healed me, and
Your Presence is more than enough for me. 

Peace is a promise You keep.

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

day thirty three

Jesus, thank you for a wonderful day.
The sunset was beautiful.
And the moon, too. 

Thank you for coming through in Ate Jenzel's life, Lord.
Such a testimony! It was almost 4 or 5 years, and now
she's just brimming with Your radiance and goodness. 
Lord, I pray that you continue to stir and spur her growth and devotion to You. 
Ipray that she will find a community to enjoy more of You.
I pray thay she gets to discover and enjoy Japan.
I pray that You continue to bless her and the works of her hands. 
She is a woman of excellence, valor and resilience. 
Thank you for keeping her. 
I pray that You prepare her heart, Lord, for Your great plans. 
I pray for her story, her life to be a blessing to everyone around her. 
I pray that You continue to be her fortress and refuge.
Keep her safe always. And may You grant the vey desires of her heart. 

Lord, I pray for Rachel. 
She may be having a hard time with quarantine,
but I knoe You are not hard on her. 
I pray that You give her restful and delightful days. 
I pray that You give her peaceful and beautiful nights.
I pray that You come through her finances and see Your faithfulness.
I pray that You give her eyes that see even the smallest beauty in everything. 
I pray thay You guard her heart against the lies of the enemy about her identity. 
Lord, she is chosen, precious, and royal. And You delight in her. 
She is not forsaken nor desolate. You see her. You look at her. You know her. 
Thank You, Jesus, because You already won her battles. 

I also pray for Gina, God.
Help me to be a good friend to her. 
I might not be able to understand everything within her, 
but I pray that You help me love her the way You want to. 
Give me patience and wisdom how to.
I also pray Lord that You restore her joy. 
Redeem everything that the enemy has stolen and broken in her. 
Lord, she is well-kept. Nothing is missing, nothing is broken, within her. 
I pray, God, that You will her to be a mighty testimony before other. 
I pray that You encourage her everyday and lavish on her Your love and care. 
I pray that all is well between her and her family. 

God, thank You for Maymay. 
I never been so much a sibling to her since growinf up. 
This pandemic season has made me realize she is still that malambing bunso we have. 
It was never lost. And maybe, I was the one who lost track. 
Lord, I pray that please continue to protect her, her body, heart, mind and soul. 
I pray that You speak to her in her studies and even her cellphone time. 
I pray that You bless her studies and that You grant her discernment against distractions and destructions.
Thank You, Jesus for holding her. 

Thank You for Nanay and Tatay. I pray for good health and long life for them. I pray that You grant the desires of their hearts. I pray tahat they will see Your goodness in the land of the living. I pray that they will also confess that Your name, Jesus is Lord. Keep them from all harms and dangers, God. 

Thank You for Gingging, too! She's always the brightest and wittiest. Thank You blessing her and her family. Thank You for Your providence for her. I pray that she will always keep Your faithfulness in her heart. I pray that You continue to make her the woman, the mother that You want her to be. I pray that her family will also get to know You better, Jesus.

And Lord, I also pray for provision to everyone. This pandemic has really pushed everyone in the boarde, even the government. But God, I pray thay You come through. Nothing is impossible when You speak. I pray that You unite all of us to help one another. I pray that You bring favor and strength to those who continually work so that others may live and has something to eat. Bless the Lord, and their homes. Bring salvation to our homes, that we may glorify Your name. Lord, keep them safe always. Keep them under the scorching heart of the sun or the dangers of the night. Send Your angels to be with them. And God, I pray that once again You move Your people by Your wondrous deeds. 

Lord, with these lives, I know nothing is impossible for You. 
Miracles.
Thank You, Jesus. 😭
Amen. ✨ 

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

day thirty two

Thank You for taking what's Yours. 

"After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen." - 1 Peter 3:10 ESV

Have you determined your land to pasture?
Have you shepherd the flock of God? 

“Desire can birth willingness that is powerful. When something is most wanted, it fills us with the resolve to wait like we never would have been willing before.” - DC Wilkerson

Then I was reminded that it's not about the object of our waiting that is the answer, but what the waiting does to us. It's not the object that makes us closer to God, it's the next long vexing detours. It gives leaves us a stamp, like an embossed mark within that we will never forget. 

I'll be fine. You may take your leave. ☺️

day thirty one

Lord, I thank you for every answered prayer
for the yeses that has no in it
and for the wonderful yeses
it may not be as many
but every single bit of it were much

Lord, thank You for continually moving in our midst
Thank You because me might be immobilised but
nothing can stop nor thwart Your plans and purposes
Thank You for making us learn new, fresh and better ways of living
Thank You for making us realize that apart from You we are nothing
Thank You for healing us from the inside-out
Thank You that even as we wait
even as we go through this
even as we see our prayers come or not
we will gain a better perspective
of knowing more of You

God, thank you for Your grace, patience and love
Thank You for sending Jesus to give us Your invitation, "Come to Me."
Lord, as I remember Your grace that
abounds
justifies
invites
sanctifies
enriches
and is enough
I will be forever thankful for I know that Your plans for me, for Your people
is good, for our own good and You never withhold it from us

I pray that we will continue to grow in the knowledge and trust of who You are

Lord, I pray that You provide for the people who is in dire need in this pandemic
Though this is all new to us, but this is nothing new to You
You remain to be in control and faithful
I pray for every lives to come to know Your salvation
That every household will taste and see Your goodness, that the Lord is good
Declaring that after all the tests, we will be refined as gold - pure and luminous.
Thank You that You are aligning everything according to Your will. 
I pray for every disappointed and hurting heart, that You will meet them at their desperation.
May tonight become their turning point, their coming home to You. 

Thank You for my family God, for keeping them safe always and provided. Thank You for choosing them for me. Forever, I will be grateful for Your kindness to me. 
Thank you for the gift of friends. I miss their presence. 
Thank You for the gift of mentors. Their leadership really means a lot. I pray that we continue to spread encouragement and hope. 
I pray that You continue to bless them that Your joy will continuously flow everyday in their lives.
I pray for the set-apart ladies, that they will not be consumed by the world, but still be convinced by Your love.
I pray for the GSCWD, Lord, that You will secure the hearts of the administration to always take a good and beneficial decision. Thank You for the people that You have appointed at authority that we, all the employees, are taken care of. I pray that You continue to bless our office and the people and every effort for the operations to thrive. Thank You, Lord. 

I pray for Earl Justin, God. Let Him soar in Your love. Let Him continually learn how to rest in You. May You continually strengthen his heart and mind as he wonders in Your adventures. Take him higher. Take him deeper. Take him further. I pray that you take away His doubts and fears about himself and Your plans for him. I pray that he get to enjoy loving and following You and Your commands. I pray that you spare him from harming himself or taking the wrong directions. And I pray that You lead him and take him to places where he hasn't been. Thank you, God for taking care of him. I know he's safe with You. I won't ask for much, I know You have the very best for him. Thank You.

I still believe in miracles, God. 😊
All these, I pray in the name of Jesus.
Amen.

Monday, April 6, 2020

i don't wanna sleep.

sasalubungin kita sa dulo ng 'yong galit 🎶

help-kind-of-assessment

What I've been feeling lately:
Insecure from my relationships

What it's been doing to me:
Constant comparison
Overthinking
Irrational
Emotional
Creating a self-fortress security
Withdrawal from possible stressors
Repeating past hurts
Guilt
Shame

What it's trying to teach me:
Salvation comes from the Lord Jesus alone (incomparable to your functional saviors, eh?) 
Selfish ka (you keep on thinking about yourself) 
Shakings are necessary; learning is a must
Self-control (gentleness, creativity, kindness, grace) 

What do you have to do:
Do not let anyone or anything dictate your response
Thoughts obedient to Christ (His truth about who He says you are) 
Praying and Reading the Word strengthens your waiting for healing specially in idle time


You see, I've been trying to fix myself for almost years. Funny I always find myself having these assessments over and over again, and end up getting hard on myself. Why am I doing this anyway? For whom am I fixing myself?  Is there anything that could possible end this insanity? Is there wisdom from what I'm doing? Have you even found the root of it?

If you're like me, who wants to end it, the you know, never ending cycle of insecurities... I think it's gonna be an uphill battle. I remember one kuya, who told me that it's impossible for humans to really overcome their weakness, since temptations are present. Well, I kind'a disagreed with that because I'm all positive that God can really deliver us from our sins... like totally. But you know, I found out that indeed, in God nothing is really impossible. But humans are interestingly impossible too. So where does the problem lies when it comes to sin? Tada! Back to us. I just then learned that human's default is to sin, to disobey God, to be independent from God, to have his way according to his desires. Then left on our own, our once perfect beautiful desires, becomes our misery. Battles against the flesh will continue as long as we're alive. Our battles are most fought spiritually. 

Insecurities. You know, as we learn to name our weakness, we don't pet it. But we destroy it. The enemy usually tries to enjoy seeing us going round and round picking wrong battles because we left the shaking undealt. But know that, once you know the root of what's stealing your joy, your purpose, your being, you got the enemy on the neck.

So now when we've got the enemy on the neck? How do we destroy it? 

By coming at the foot of the cross and leave it there. 

What? That easy? How about the triggers? 

What happened has already happened. We have to be reminded that it has to remain where it should be, in the past. Your current day asks of you of what you must today. Insecurities only happen when we are not secured with the love we are receiving. Yes. If you're looking for a remedy for insecurity, that's the love of Jesus. It secures. Mmm. You know there's this once that I did some foolish things because I was fighting the thought that I cannot be insecure because Jesus secures me. Little did I know, when I reasoned it like that, I was actually really running out, running from His love. To cut the long story short, I ruined a beautiful night for everyone and hurt myself in return. Thinking I would atleast get some justice, I found myself in a total wreck. 

So why I am telling you this? 

Because I know how insecurity stings. I know ugly and worse it makes a person. And it doesn't just ruin you, it ruins everything. BUT our story doesn't end there. There is redemption. When Jesus meets with our worse, He redeems it for His purpose. It may be ugly and dirty before your eyes and others, but the Lord has a purpose for it. As for me, when insecurities strike, it's a call that I'm running out of the my greatest Source, my medicine. Hahaha. I've been reaaally, reaaally sick with insecurities for ages. And just like any patient that has been healed, I can testify how his forgiveness gives peace in the raging battle of hatred within me. He fully knows me, yet still love me deeply; my battle ry since then. It taught me what battles are worth the fight until the end. 

This sickness may continue again and again, and I don't know when will I graduate from it. But as long as God is with me, I know I'll be fine. Some mending, some more breaking. As long as He's with me, I'll be fine. And we'll be forever changed by His glory. 

This testimony is for you.
I'm very far from perfect. 
But every while is worth it. 

His love is effective.
You can never go wrong to always choose Him for every single day.
Healed and forgiven.
You can never go wrong to go home with Him at the end of the day. 

lovely

"to freely love you with all that I am"

"then I was in his eyes as one who finds [brings out] peace"

Sunday, April 5, 2020

day thirty

Your Word and prayer will sustain us God
You are the eternal fountain, our source
for strength, patience, kindness, joy
to overflow

Lord, I thank you for the gift of time
Thank you for slowing us down
Thank you for teaching us
that time is short 
yet is in Your hands

Thank you that we are able
to see life in every different views
I pray that you give us a heart
to continue to love and believe
I pray that you prepare us
for what You have stored for us

Lord, I pray that You continue to heal the world
Heal us from the bitterness that holds us back
Bitterness from the governement
Bitterness from others' success
Bitterness from ourselves
Heal us from the covid that tries to take away of faith
Lord, You are the Only Healer 
Who can make or break
at His Word
You see us. 
You hear us. 
You know us. 

Lord I pray that You keep us secure in the waiting
Idle times come but it doesn't have the best of us
We may become vulnerable and break
But You are our great comfort and cheer
Thank you for upholding us as we go through all this

We bless Your name, Jesus!
Thank You for Your goodness and faithfulness. 
Thank You for giving us chances to get better and better.
Thank You for believing. 
Thank You for not giving up.

Lord, I'm scared and I'm still insecure. 
One day or another, people will leave me
And I know everything still have to continue
I pray that when that comes, it will be painful, 
be there for me and please hold me. 

Still my heart for the rest of the nights
Still my anxious thoughts every day
Jesus, the keeper of peace
Peace is a promise You keep

All this I pray, in Jesus' name.
Amen.

Saturday, April 4, 2020

W A I T . B E P A T I E N T . T R U S T T H E L O R D .

wala na'y masklaro pa ani Lord? hahahaha. dul-it man keeyow.

Thank you, Jesus. 

Friday, April 3, 2020

twenty nine

Thank you, God for your faithfulness every single day
Your goodness has taught us humility
Your mercies that are new every morning
It kept us safe and living

Lord, I pray for those people who are having a hard time in this covid crisis
The financially challenged, the sick emotionally, psychologically, and physically, the imprisoned, the oppressed
Grace them with your favor God
May these people find comfort
May these people find help
In You
Through You
I pray that You wipe the tears in their eyes
I pray that You embrace them tight tonight
I pray that they get to hear how much You love them

I pray for our nation
The government
The church
The people
Lord Jesus, reign over us. 
Enthrone our hearts that we may acknowledge 
That beginning and end is already in Your hands
You are Sovereign, You are good. 
We trust You in the process
Knowing that here, today, is where You want us to be
I pray for wisdom how to make use of the time You have given us to whatever calling you have for us
I pray for strength, that in all that we do, we operate not by emotions but by faith, commitment and consistency
I pray for eyes be open to what You are doing to us inwardly
I pray that as we die to ourselves everyday, we get to see You closer, we get to know You deeper
I pray that by the end of this all, we get to desire more of You
To delight in You, to follow You, overtake us O Lord
You are more than enough, You satisfy our longing souls,
And there's no one, nothing like You
Incomparable
I pray that You continue to lead us to Your truth, in Your direction, for Your purpose

God, I thank You because
whether people believe in You or not
whether people love You or not
whether people 
You still heal us
You still reach out to us
You still forgive us
You still call us
by name
Yours
Your everlasting love
steadfast
relentless
committed
perfect

Thank you, Jesus.