Watching Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae wo Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai. Really, this anime has a very looong title.

Franz, a best bud, introduced me to this manga. He spilled the beans but I got interested so I am trying to watch it now. It has only 12 episodes to my surprise. Anyways, the drama, I can sense it, before the story starts. But I'm happy to know that it has at least a sad ending.

But what's really surprising is Franz. He's into drama. Hahahaha.

Ano Hi Mita Hana no Namae wo Bokutachi wa Mada Shiranai 

Know how God pursues you so much. He loves you ^^

The best thing I ever had. Am gonna miss you dear Pat and beloved Zyn. Bon Voyage. In no time, we'll see each other again. But it's going to be so much different from what it used to be. Love you so.

It's the passion that keeps us going and kaizen!

Because I thought vintage would be great...

 These were the graphic designs that I made for a debut. Well, I thought anything is better off. But to find out that everything's restricted, it's kind'a: ugh, i forgot that i need to consider her wants not mine. And that kind'a sucks all my energy like I have to wake up later 7:30 in the morning for the Mock Job Interview. Then I haven't finalized my OJT industry yet. Sigh. WHAT HAVE I DONE???

You know, I need some brand new ideas right now. WAAA. Haha. This is really something~

Praise God for this day!

Love love :3

Break ups. Juju.

It's the light that keeps gives warmth.

Just this afternoon, I talked to Ate Mera about something that I want to confirm. Well, its not like I don't believe what I've heard but I can't immediately state a judgment. I want to know what really happened and what is currently happening. I want to know what really is the truth. Anyways, both of it are true. Those facts were according to what they said - what they interpreted. So there's no facade in it.

The way she talks, she moves as I observe, she really is a girl of manners. Not to mention that she has an integrity to stand because of her family and for God. But she really is refined, well mannered; someone you can actually define as prim and proper, smart and wise. She's really someone to look up to, well if I have an older sister like her, I will probably have a sister's complex. :))

So yea, we basically talked about what I heard from this guy about them, which actually I couldn't believe. I talked to her late afternoon then I believe, God meant it that way. When Daryll said, "I missed talking and listening into this kind of conversation..." I have to admit that I too, missed that kind of thing.

We've been busy for like our own businesses. Just for our own selves never minding that our Spirit longs to talk about God. Then, here comes this wild conversation with Ate Mera which I really made me feel a squirt of joy inside. It wasn't long but sure it fully substantiate that God longs a conversation with us.

I like talking to wise people.

And I realized that I have been so warped with Daryll.

These things I realized today. If Ate Mera didn't said that she's intimidated with me and Dar, I won't be able to recognize that I prayed something like to be able to roam around with people - to open my mind and realize that it's time that I myself must go and make some new friends which are of reach.

I wanted this.

And I am given the chance.

A year. I still have a year.

Thank You, Lord! I know that in everything you have a purpose. That when we are weak, we are strong in you. Thank You!

I praise Your faithfulness O God! Thank You for meddling. Thank You for pursuing when I think I don't deserve any of your blessings. Thank You because You are there.

Lord, I surrender my life to you. I surrender my being. Make use of me that Your name may be lifted higher. Cleanse and protect my heart. Make my mind, soul and body sober in all I do, to always be wise in all the decisions that will be coming along the way.

I pray for Pat's healing O God, in Jesus' name! Continue protecting her.

I thank You for all the people that I met today, for the fellowship and a brand new day with them on the coming days. I pray that their hearts will always abide in You. Thank You already for the bunch of new friends!

Help me shine Your name to them. I know You are up for something, and I'll be waiting.

Thank You ever so much my Lord. :)

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

John 16:33

I dunno if I should be happy or not? But that feeling that you force yourself to think that like it's that dead serious. Hassle!

Making my 1st out of 4, 4 pages syntheses while watching One Piece.

The truth hurts?

I don't know if I'm affected of what but what our Senior Pastor spoke last Wednesday left me thoughtless.

"The church is very stagnant. I sense that everyone thinks about getting better first before obeying God."

I can't help but think about it.

"Ouch", my friend reacted.

This was just a passed message but it struck me (I guess). It somehow remains in my mind and think about: Is it me? Is it that bad?

I can see the need of the church. Actually, these past few days or it has already reached a week already, I keep on asking: How's this church going to be after all these people's decision? How's everything gonna work? How will God provide the leaders?

Its annoying. Its alarming. It's sad.

I know what to do. I know what to say.

But I don't want to.

TRUTH Hurts.

I might be composed but I'm critical. I think a lot. Most of it, questions. I don't know if it qualifies to be a worry.

But really. Am I looking for someone to look onto?

Honestly?

Yes.

But I myself can't decide because I've got things my own.

Then what our Pastor said was true, isn't it? 

Excusing that I'm putting Him first? 

Boohoo! Who are you fooling?

Reasons!

You know well Rau, you know well.

Why don't you stand up? Why can't you?

You enjoying yourself in the world?

Remember what He told you: Influence them, not them to you.

This is hard.

This is tough.

Thinking everything is as easy as it is? Ah-ah.

I've been far away.

Sad, but true.

I need courage.

I need to stand.

I need to.

I have to.

If it's for Him, then why not, right?

Sigh.

Keep your calm and composure; take it easy, and know your priority.

We've got some hipster chic right here. 22!

Faith without Work is dead.

Are you someone who has great dreams in life? Like me, who is a frustrated designer, have you ever thought about becoming the who 10 years from now?

Finances.

Practicality.

What other excuses are you having in mind?

These are just two reasons why we stop dreaming about becoming someone we want deep inside our hearts.

This is just like falling in love.

Will you let yourself fall, or deprive yourself from this that they call love?

A desire that stirs your soul, just like a universe inside of you. This is how it feels, right?

I am in the decision making stage, to whether let myself or not.

And... its hard... to decide... specially when you are taking considerations... but one thing is constant... that is...

I HAVE A GOD.

Maybe, you'll just tell me that this is out of range but I tell you. Out of the things that pressures you and makes you give up from that dream, God is always, always there to back you up. That when it seems like giving up, telling your self: There's really no way. He is there to whisper...

I AM FOR YOU.

This might sound not interrelated but when you know that you have someone that is for you, try to reconsider. 

A dream that has been with you for ages. The desire that has been breaking your heart hard because of the passion of wanting to do it.

And having someone who is FOR YOU.

Think about it.

Think about that whatever you say and do, that someone is always there to affirm you.

There maybe whereabouts, what-about, but with just one smile, everything becomes still.

Believing the more will bring you to where you want to be. And it requires the more of your actions to realize that you are more that where you ought to be.

BELIEVE AND WORK HARD.

That's how it can lead you into your dream of becoming.

As for me?

I want to inspire lots of youths. I mean, ask me about designing and this is what I'll tell you:

Designing is a sight of colors and passion. That when I think about it, I see the reason for the universe, the constellations, and the eyes. Designing is beyond sketches. It's a message that conveys the aesthetic of love to the world.

Someday, I'll be able to inspire other people just like how His other messengers have inspired me. I don't inspire to be one superstar, rather a light or a salt that can make a difference.

Someday, I will tell the world how my life change because of God.

There's just lots of preparations now but I'll endure. I want to stand this honor that I can give Him.

Thank you, Lord. ♥

Maaaarch. You came.

Because we've got some swagging weidos...

Soushokukei Ism

Discipleship and the Jade Cabbage – SteveMurrell.com

Discipleship and the Jade Cabbage – SteveMurrell.com

Bon Travail JPIA Night 2013!

Sorry for the late post.

Last February 24, 2013, I had my JPIA night with the theme Las Vegas. It was for all level of accountancy and accounting technology students of the university.

Credits to: Pat - for the awesome photos.

Welcome to the FABULOUS JPIA Night.

Mehehe. Because we just wanna have fun.

Because we wanna have a good red carpet experience.

That line is suppose to be for the buffet. :3

Let's take a few shots before a meal.

2 blue, 2 red, 2 gold. Sigh, there should be another pair of red here.

Smiiiile.

My little brother Zyn ant the photobomb Noel. :))

Pretty at red sissy Mera.

We dunno what to do here. Haha.

Meet my adorable partners. ♥

So the night ended without a smile. Yes, blame me for that addictive sadness I had for like days. I know, such a bore, right?

Daryll's wasn't able to attend because she got Dengue.

And I wasn't able to get along with Zyn, Pat and Vergie due to other connections and... they're already graduating this 18th.

Sad face.

Well, I should be happy for them right? They're going to be in the next chapter of their lives: So everything's going to be on the next level.

Yet I can't help but be sad with the thought we'll be apart. I mean, there's no assurance that we could be as close as we can just like in the University campus. They are going to have their own lives - and that I need to accept. They all deserve it for all their hard-works in school. They sure made their parents be proud of them as well as us, their friends.

This is the last JPIA Night they are going to attend as a student. I know its not yet the end but why do I feel this way.

Why am I so emo toniteee? Sheesh.

I don't have a bunch of friends but I have enough. I guess this is alright for me since I don't know how to manage if I've got lotssss. Having a countable you call friends are always the best. And because I spend more of my time with them, they really have a special part in me. A bond that will make me tear even an inch of separation. They are one of my comfort zones.

Goodbye won't be the word. It might be feeling of separation. But it's still the natural yet very special feeling for friendship that will always prevail. 

Like a magic, everything starts when you discover that it lies deep within in you.