When do we say we deserve better?

One beauty queen said in an Banking Ad, "I just woke up one day and realized I deserve better."


So what's next after this question? Do we likely move or should we stay still otherwise?

I don't know myself either, how to measure but I know, I just know, that I really deserve better.

I was raised up in the thought process of equivalent exchange (just lemme use this word, hehe). You work, you get what you want. That's how my life has been. I measure everything that I deserve with how I work. 

I realized this thought like a hundred times in my life. But what do I do?

We can do whatever we want. If I want to move for the better, because that's what I think is best, I can. There's nothing wrong about it actually. You can always get what you want. But there are these times that even if you want to step out where you are, you can't get out of it - and you know that there's something that holds you back. 

Either fear or His word.

Fear is cheap. It drains all of your energy. It robs you what you really have, what you should have for the meantime. You think you should have this and that and all these things that you deserve but you just end up nothing - exhausted mind, body and soul. You can't realize what's for today is enough because you have already set your mind off for tomorrow.

So were getting into the clearer root of this fear, aren't we? Fear for tomorrow. Yes, everyone in this world has a hold of this. From time to time it pops and then we get crazy thinking about it over and over again. And we gain nothing from thinking the most of it when reality slaps us that for now, we can not do anything. Just yet.

His word. Sometimes it ticks me off that His word is making me stay where I am. That moment when you just realize you deserve better but deep in you speaks, "Be contented. Being faithful in small things is a preparation for the better things to come."

It's a challenge for me everyday that I should have this mentality over and over. Everyday, you choose to think this way because you know it is what He wants you to. It contradicts every being of me actually. Every nerve of me erupts. Every tiny universe in me becomes a black hole.

Do I deserve more?
Of course.
God doesn't withhold anything good from His children. And this good has to be in line with His will. And what is His will anyway? Something beautiful, that even ashes could be become star dust.

Do I deserve more?
Yes.
But not now.
He is preparing me.
I know this because He keeps me still.
I know this because it's Him that I am longing for.
I know this because it's written in His love letter.

Do I deserve more?
After all He has done for me, No.
I don't deserve all that I have now.
My life. My entire existence.
But because He gave it all.
His grace extended up to the limits.

I have always asked about Your love.
I didn't understand it.
That's why I don't want it.
I remember how it hurts every time I am reminded of it.
It hurts so much, no, it overwhelms me so much.
How could you love me? What part in me do you love?
As much as I don't want to think about it, it comes rushing so fresh in me.

When my discipler told me about this certain line in the lastest movie in the hobbit, which is familiar with everyone,

 
Tauriel: "If this is love, why does it hurts so much?"
Thranduil: "Because it was real..."

How could it be love when it hurts so much? How can that be real?
You wouldn't know if you never loved like Him. If I think about it, maybe He's the only one who felt it that way. 

That genuine love that hurts when He saw His beloved died.

So instead of seeing us dying everyday of our lives, Jesus came and said "Let me take their place." And so the Father gave His only begotten Son die for us to live.

Now tell me, do you deserve what you say you deserve?



 
 

Born out of Love

What could it be when everything is born out of love. Will like get better? Any better? Or will life be easier? than ever?

Love is something I myself can't define. But it's a lovely word. It's a sweet sound. It makes the heart beat go clubbing inside when it's genuine. And a very beautiful gesture.

At times love makes tears fall. I don't know why it's still called love when it still make you cry - giving you heart breaks like letting go - but that's love folks. Love that's making it's way to a newer and truer love.

When the things you do are those that you love, doesn't make it any harder to work? Hmmm. That makes sense. And that talks to me now, anyway. Choosing above everything we feel everyday. Love. Then viola!


Choosing love doesn't give us the assurance of making our lives get better and easier. It's easy to say 'that is love' when sometimes is really it isn't. We think that it's love then we work out on it, then there it blossoms love, then it gives you a heart break. Because in the first place it wasn't love after all. Maybe it was empathy in disguise, maybe it's an over-reacting understanding over, or whatnot in this world. But what's great about this is that, we may started it with something we thought is love it still ends to us to be love. Great isn't it?

Whether you like it or not, whether you admit it or not, whether you acknowledge it or not, love will always be right there. 

Before November Ends

There's something I want to say but it feels like the time's not right. There are certain things that I want to do but I don't know how.

Everything's not enough today. My words. My thoughts. My actions. I'm sobering too much and it's making my life obese... dying.

If there's something I want to get busy, it's what I'd love to do. Doing it like it would remind me that this ain't be happening without Him.

God, will that time come?

I'm stuck in the moment. Truth be told I am dissatisfied. I want to be with people who have dreams, goals to move further in greater heights, to be with people who has mind like me, to be with a group that would make me not just want more but do more.

Tch. I'm in the office and I want to cry. 

I'm raw O God. I know You are having a heart surgery to me right now. Because despite all these things, I am still wanting Your ways, I still live in Your word, and I choose to wait.

Fear that maybe there's nothing for me out there really. Frustrated why can't I just live the life I want. Am I that really ungrateful? Do I really have to go through a lot? 

My heart cries.

But when I think of Your majesty - how You created everything without waste. You have tamed me.

O God, You satisfy me. You are everything that I need. It is Your love that I want. It is Your word that I thirst. It is Your heart that I seek. It is in Your Kingdom that I want to be. You have chosen me as I am, and I am grateful to respond when You have called me. 

I don't know if it's for me. I hurt. But You know what's best for me 'ayt? God I entrust You my life. I know Your ways are good and righteous. I know You think higher and deeper. I just give it all to You.

I know I will have to go a lot, I have to learn a lot, I have to do a lot. You hold me life. Make haste and hold if if I get weary doing, seeing and speaking goodness and righteousness. Fulfill Your word that to those You have called, after all the little suffering, you will make us strong, firm and steadfast.

To the future me, wait for me.

 

Don't give up

I am envious of those people who are not just firm with what they have decided for their lives, and made their dreams into reality.

Last night, I was reading a blog from an author I admire. He's young. He's witty. He's got talent. He was able to achieve his goal around the age of 23 and I'm like,



How?



The author said "Be SMART in achieving your goals."
My sister answered "Ah, maybe because he's rich and all."
My mentor told me "Because he worked out his time frame."


And I'm like, "God, why should I consider a lot of things when all I have to do is to decide what I want to do?"


And tonight, my soul cries out. My admiration for this person made me realize about something I tried to hide for some time. I know it's not yet time because I still have things to learn, I still have things that I am most concerned about, because I still have things to be patient. I know I still have to know what really is my passion that I could be able to inspire others.

I want to speak in front of the youths and testify how great God as my dream has come into reality.

I want to cry because I know it's something I want to do but I also understand that it's not yet the right. It's painful you know? It's so, so heartbreaking. You realize everyday that you are in the process but can't somehow see how could it all add up when it's all at your expense. Everyday you choose, that is, you force yourself to be happy despite all, to be faithful 'til the end, to keep holding on - because you know that He's the only thing You've got.

Ever since the day I realize that I have to let go of this dream in order to move on, I refocused myself on what is at hand. And I am thankful because I was able to see the things, to appreciate what He has offered me. And now that this dream has been open again, I wonder if there is a book that could explain to me how to handle this. I wonder if there is someone out there that could understand how I feel and tell me if I have a chance for this dream or not.

For some reasons, there are answers in my heart that makes me say "I give it all to You. I trust that You know what's best for me." You see, even if I want my conditions here, I can't say it. It's as if, all I want in my life is to internalize that "His plans are better than mine. He's to give prosperity, hope and future. He is the answer to all of this."

This frustration of mine comes from "the things I regret I didn't do" and the "what if's". Yes, these are all worldly pursuits to my dream of becoming. Sigh. Being impatient, eh? Yeppp. Because it's not according to what I actually pictured in my mind. I have reasons why I didn't have to pursue it and I wonder if it's legit. They I am living in an idealistic world but what is the difference of living what you believe in the reality they are seeing?

If...


I wonder if I'll have my time, too. God, you said I will have my portion didn't you? I will wait for it. And see to it that if that time comes, I'll make the most of every bit.

I entrust my life to You.

Believe me, I'm not a good girl. I just want to do the right thing. :)

Everyday seems a countdown when there's something that I want. Time slips fast yet sometimes fakes itself as tomorrow.

Diamond no ace is definitely awesooome~ Coach, don't you leave my babies.

This is a kill! Miyuki can't be injuuuuured. Nooo~ Hahaha. This is funny. Though the english translations stopped around chapter 237, everything was on fire. Then here comes chapter 367, and feels like THEY HAVE BECOME BETTER, whoaaa, a glimpse of futuuuuure. With almost a hundred chapters lapse, I wonder what dramas and struggles have they overcoooome. Diamond no ace is really fantastic; baseball is definitely loooove! And don't forget, Miyuki is ♥ HAHAHAHA.

Kudos Yanagi! You are definitely the one! HAHAHA.

The Lion King

Rafiki: Look down there.
[Slowly Simba walks to the edge of the watering hole and peers inside. His reflection stares back at him]
Adult Simba: That's not my father. That's just my reflection.
Rafiki: No. Look harder.
[Rafiki touches the water which causes waves that change Simba's reflection into Mufasa]
Rafiki: You see? He lives in you.
Mufasa's Ghost: [From above] Simba.
Adult Simba: Father?
Mufasa's Ghost: [He appears in the sky as a group of stars] Simba, you have forgotten me.
Adult Simba: No. How could I?
Mufasa's Ghost: You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me. Look inside yourself Simba. You are more than what you have become. You must take your place in the Circle of life.
Adult Simba: How can I go back? I'm not who I used to be.
Mufasa's Ghost: [Now fully formed in the sky] Remember who you are. You are my son and the one true king. Remember who you are.
Adult Simba: [Mufasa's ghost begins to disappear] No! Please! Don't leave me!
Mufasa's Ghost: Remember.
Adult Simba: Father!
Mufasa's Ghost: Remember.
Adult Simba: Don't leave me.
Mufasa's Ghost: Remember. 

And so, the movie goes on. Bonjour my friend! It's been so long again. Haha. Well I got kind of busy not because of work but because of stress going on in me. Psychological - so basically, spiritual and emotional dilemma. Anyways, I need to move on - I MUST. I can't imagine myself slumping for more days. I really can't. It would definitely be annoying and... annoying. HAHA. I've been encouraging myself for couple of weeks now since the day I resigned from my previous job. Well it's not like it really matters (like yeah, there's just a lot of it and I'm making it harder and complicated) but I wanted to think my actions over. I'm not afraid to have land no job because I know it's not His promise. I don't know, but I'm just confident with this fact. I'm not actually awesome of some kind of great to be attracting jobs but I believe that He wants something beautiful for my life. Going back to the topic. Yes, I had been battling emotional stress because I know no one would really understand what I went through in my previous job. I mean, it's not like it's one kind of a hell, but I think I'm not really that strong enough. A lot of party (well you know what I mean) were organized in my brain it wasn't just every weekend! I would like to entertain it once in a while but it was like my day won't end unless those thoughts won't torture me. It wasn't like I'm really harassed, but for my first job experience? "It seems like a joke," quoted from my aunt.

Actually, I'm queuing right now because I want answers of why those things must happen. I am waiting for His answers that might comfort me but all I could think is, it was MY DECISION. Whether He wants me to stay and press on, it was MY DECISION to leave. I couldn't stand it anymore. Because I have forgotten. And ran away. There's no other reason am I right? But one thing: Romans 8:28. No matter what my decisions be, I don't know if it's the right thing to do or not yet but, I would not like to regret it. Yes. It's a start of making my own decisions whether be it in good times or bad ones. Of course, I didn't do it impulsively. I had my own process to assess. Really, this blogging helps a lot. It makes me realize this right away (sometimes, sometimes not).

LIVE THE MOMENT.
DO WHAT YOU MUST DO - NO REGRETS.
When you live this kind of principle, you get to stand yourself on the mound and pitch. Whether you get a strike or not, it depends when it already reach the batter's plate. Right or wrong decisions has their time.

You know I want to rant my lungs out but it would not be healthy. I don't want to remember things like that again and again. I want to stop it. Because I am moving on. 
Because I must take my place in the circle of life. 
Because I am more than what I have become. 
Because I am His daughter and a true queen.

I am not a victim so I should not act like it or even think like it. 
I am noble. 
I am great. 
I am lovely. 
I am saved.

His Holy One made me. 
Thy eminence is making me.

An encounter with an existence who made you realize that you can't make yourself like your ex.

Hirukana no Ryuusei.

Kill me noooow. *cry Let me watch the movieee, someone!

A woman who walks with purpose doesn't have to chase people or opportunities. Her light causes people and opportunities pursue her.

Are You With The Man You Should Marry?

Are You With The Man You Should Marry?

I can't believe it. Her deep slumber has met forever. And my heart's floating in the oblivion.

A confession

My friend is taking a long deep slumber. And no one knows when will she wake up again.

When I heard about this few moments ago, I felt everything inside me in a gravitational shock wave. I wasn't able to react. I felt an immediately paralyze when they told me of her current state.

We just visited her a few days ago.

She was still fine, still the bubbly girl we know.

Then all of a sudden...

The doctors might have some mistakes about their results, or

EVERYTHING IS JUST A FLUKE.

I don't know. I can't accept it. I hate it. I didn't know that it's going to be like that when her name crossed my mind a few hours or days ago. 

I should've known.

And here I am, regretting everything...

Why didn't I take the chances to be closer to her when I have it?
Why did I have to slightly open the door when she knocked into my life?
Why am I like this?
Why should this happen?
I can't even shed a tear.
No.
Not because I know that the fight isn't over (because I know she'll come back around still healthy and bubbly as ever).

But because I don't deserve her. She's so kind and warm-hearted.

And all I did was to just half open or more, but not a whole of me, to her.

I know, I'm disgusting.

Expecting for something good to read on my blog?
Dream on. I still don't have the guts to make one when I just feel anxious, stress, and stupid all the time.


This, a confession of a mediocre.

We are the kids your mother warned you about :)

Yea. We're not yet complete in that photo, tho. 

I also want someone who tells me they're proud of me, you know. :/

I know I'll cry for you. Much better kung ngayon na. :)

I'll post some of the last photos I took before I graduated, soon. I'll still be editing some of it as you know. Haha. I always want it my way; do it my way.

Summer kicks, Golden streaks

Late post. Late update.

Heyaaa. I've become one of the world's unemployed citizen since March 22, 2014. How does it feel? Mmmm. Honestly, I felt fine. I mean, I felt it was just another celebration to wear make up and dress up and walk with chin up. I don't know. It was rather dramatic after the event tho. I had a fight with my parents right after grad, so who wouldn't be a wreck on a supposed great day? Heck with their annoying presence that time. During the graduation, my toes were aching because my shoes-size were short for a .5, to bad for me right? I didn't have much pictures with friends because I only have few, and I was already having a bad mood after knowing that our course was removed in the University. Really. It's discriminating and disappointing. Anyways, too much reminiscing those nerve wrecking times. So yeah, I got home after some plastic smile. And because I was at war, I just locked myself the entire night at my room. I didn't have someone to speak because I was really irritated.

The next morning, I was awaken by the usual ritual. Nanay's usual voice clock. They're busy preparing for the double celebration that day. My grad and the house blessing. And because I was not in the mood, I didn't want to see them. Such a rebel? Nah, just pure stubborn. I didn't invite any friends, nor those I planned to come since I felt everything came from a shot-gun decision. Well, it's not like that really. They told me about it earlier yet continually fight over the expenses. See? Who would've want to have a celebration if you see that root coming out from the soil wildly. Really, it pisses me off. I wanna tell them: GIVE ME A BREAK. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. But of course, I can't do that. My tongue's quite the goody-shoes here and like I would like to starve myself with desserts!

Then came this month. April. This Sunday, I'll be taking the CS PROF EXAM so hopefully I'd be able to get through it. And by the next weekends, I'll be having reviews for my licensing exam. I want to pass it like CRAZY. I want this to be part of my self-worth. Yes, because I want to tell the world that I AM NOT JUST YOUR ORDINARY GIRL. I can't be that. Because I am not that, darling. I'll take it seriously. Specially after hearing my aunt's opinion about my unheard field, such a failure. I want to backfire, but something in my mind tells me: IT'S NOT THAT, YOU ARE MORE THAN THAT.

Like do I have any other choice but to look forward and press on to that? I mean, I can not look down to myself any longer, right? Ordinary? Please. I am selfish. And I do not like it crowding in. I will stand out, you'll see. This? Is just a stepping stone into the becoming me of the future. Yes. I'll make my way. We'll make our way to the top, they'll see. I can't settle for less right now, because I'm still at dawn of a brand new journey.

P.S. Hoping for the best, always

Nangangamoy Toga na, Nangangamoy Aral ka na ba?

It's times like these when I feel paranoid what's going to happen tomorrow. Anyways, I've been living todays like asking tomorrow to be good to me. I'm really afraid, to be honest. I mean, I've been living my life, this life, because of my parents support. And just a while ago, while I was counting days in my head, I asked myself: What if my life tomorrows won't be as great as it would be? I'm afraid. Like for real. To step in outside my comfort zone, and see the world itself. Of course, My dreams are just waiting in wings you know and I understand that there's a plenty of waiting to happen. And it won't come to pass without receiving my diploma right? Sigh. Life's really hard. Guess I really need to work my ass off, I wonder how I could meet that desire one day. Hehe. Anyways, I've been thinking too much about the future lately. Late nights, random thoughts about the future is ranting in my head. Even in the morning, I can't stop daydreaming about it. I know, I know, there's nothing wrong about it right? But what if those thoughts make you weary; draining all your energy, worry has its own way of torturing me. It's a bad habit of mine. I thought I've already thrown it away, but look who's knocking and making me all hypothetical about the future. Such a futuristic person eh? Haha. Anyways, I know that these are just lies from the enemy 'ya know? Sometimes, I find myself smiling at the thought: God really has great plans for me, why so? Because the enemy won't work this hard, beating out the most of me, if he don't see God working me on a threshold. Quite the idea, baby! Haha. That's something I really look forward. I'll be patient. I'll work best. I'll make everything a reason to thank Him day by day. I'll always pave a way in making my prayer life get stronger than ever. I wanna hear Him frequently. It's the safest in His leading after all, don't you agree?

You know why what we think doesn't come into reality?

I realized it just sometime now while having the dishes. Funny how I am thinking about it right? Well I can't just get over with my devotion this morning. It's found in the last verse of Galatians 3.

So yeah. Have you ever experience of daydreaming of something to become reality? Or fun imagining exciting things because of the drive that you have racing through your veins? And to find out that you have just miss it big time! Like after sometime, you told yourself, "This/That ain't gonna happen anymore" because something about reality ticks off that dream of yours. Then it slips down and viola! Vanishes in thin air.

Hahaha. I know how you feel. I've been there for quite a times and I was really wondering why it keeps on happening. I imagine great things like you guys, I can't just settle for less... I really feel you. Haha. But you know what these experience taught me? It made me realize that God really has great things stored for me, for you. It may not be in the spot where adrenalin comes gushing out of us, but when everything is prepared for us.

You see, I have this dream to. Day by day, I always have a thought about it. And sometimes, I just get excited and forget all the rest! But what's really great about this is that, it doesn't fade away. I kept it dear in my heart yet my hands were open to let God have it. I can stress it out if I want to but the point is you know the future isn't something you can predict specially if you want it good, better best.

So yes, it was hard to let go. But I chose to let it go; if it's for me, then it will be - that is how dreams work in my life. Of course, given there is the effort that you put, the passion and heart, and the opportunities that you allow. So say, what's better: Facing today with the dreams in your heart or Working off your ass 'til you meet it - who knows what the future brings? Effortless or Effort-much?

So yeah. I did a story telling there. But what I am pointing out here is that, DREAM and offer it to God. Because when He becomes the center of it all, it just falls into place. He wants us ready. No one wants to be plunge in the water without prior notice! Haha. Anyways, God is faithful. We are HEIRS OF PROMISES. He who said it is faithful. No doesn't necessarily have to be NOT FOR YOU, rather BETTER THINGS (compared to that) suit you.

Can't you tell?

Can't you tell, I'm being sarcastic with indifferent people around me. I don't like the atmosphere I'm having with them... It threatens my security to myself. 

Another thing, don't mess with me.

COAlove

I never gave a thing about Valentines day... no, not until this year.

'tis my last year as a college student and I as much as I'd like, I wanna spend it like no regrets, please - doing some silly things, you know. But I'm not that silly girl you have particularly in mind - full of liberation? Oh no, I can't. Don't ask why it's an I can't.

University Week has ended just a few hours ago. I spent the whole time accompanying and assisting our President since it's the peak of deliberating everything we're doing to the college chairpersons and the heavenly bodies as we call it.

Well, I couldn't tell it was all success. Sure we had flaws that somewhat disturbed our motto: RELAX. It was during the HIYAS pageant, we committed a wrong move which turned everything inside-out. It was later resolved after waiving it to the Student Council President and the College Chairpersons.

Over all? I wanted more. A feeling that I wanted more pressure, I want to atone (to redeem) what was wrongly done. Because indeed, it was a heartfelt learning I brought from that short-time experience. The people that I met, were truly amazing, I can see their leadership and humbleness, their kindness and joy in working with eachother.

Spending time with bunch of new faces didn't become a factor for us not to unite. And this is how I spent my first ever acknowledge valentine's day. And most importantly, this special day also tells us to thank God for allowing us to have a steadfast heart through out the years.

So here's something I cuddled over for the week. I actually don't have pictures from being a part of COA because I have this feeling that I won't stand having a separation anxiety for a week or so specially that my remaining days as a college buddy are already countable. So enjoy~

I'm not sad or bitter, nor bothered. I just wanna share a thought or two about a convo I had with a friend. You see, I don't feel anything about it like I care much about how it bothers them or what. But the thing is, is that my role in their lives? Was that how I mean to them? I mean, I wanna feel betrayed but thank goodness they're my friends. I wanna get angry but I can't; I can't because I am not. Yet it doesn't mean I'm in union with their thoughts. Maybe becaue I have already set my ground. Or maybe because I don't give a thing about what they feel. I'm not yet at the peak, yet I'm already in a point where I have already noticed it - that there's really something to say about that kind of situation. And one thing that generates in my mind? I hate to say this but really, Mars are sly foxes. Anyways, I don't hate them, I just don't like that part of them.

Sooo frustrating~ Yet, I thank my God

Sorry to drop by frustrated. Anyways, this too shall pass. Ya know, just a little bit of hard face palm will do.

How is it going? Happy new year! It feels like forever when I started blogging again. I'm afraid it was because of my stress living. I've been sleeping early dawn because of reading manga. And yea. I know it's bad yet I just can't get enough. Even though I almost read all the good manga, I still can't get my hands and eyes and brains off the net.

My thoughts are off lately. Spacing and leaving things in mediocrity. I don't like thinking too much anymore; I just read the lines and nothing less. I boast about spending leisure time inadequately which, well, sometimes sounds cool. But inside, I really find it really irritating, annoying. "Why can't I work my ass off that hard?" "Bet, I have been somewhere right now if I hadn't given up."

Regrets? Insecurities? Inabilities?

I'll restate what CS Lewis quoted once, great people started with little things. And I wonder what are my little things.

I feel like everybody's moving forward and I'm still stuck sheering off my ugly self. Forcibly peeling it off. And maybe that's the problem. I think too much of myself, I force it to come in an instant, I compare. There's just so much I want to do but it feels like it's impossible so. Look at me. What can I do? What can a mere someone who doesn't have anything to do the day but help her mum stay at their own small store, clean the house, and go reading manga at night. I can't even study properly because of procrastination.

I know. All eyes on me. My bad. Blame it on me.

"Whether you see faults or strengths, they are all part of who you are. Isn't that why Kaiso-sama gave you a mirror? So that you won't lose yourself... So that you wouldn't take the wrong path?" - Amane, Her Majesty's Dog

Both quotes gave me real baaad reflection here. I wonder how many of these things, of these types will continue to make me feel insufficient until I have enough. I'm tired already. Doing useless stuffs like all of these would help me in my future career. *sigh It's really hard to keep on pressing on when your enemy is your habit. You want to get rid of it but it was there for years, and stimulated by environment, can you measure how tough it'll be?

*cross fingers Anyways, let's hope for the best. We've got a big God who is faithful and just.  The God who is surrounded by the mysteries of the entire universe. Yet revealed Himself in His Son, Jesus. So who knows how all these things turn out for the good? I'm glad I'm certain that He is good, and that nothing in this earth is wasted. He loves us much as He forgives us everyday and continues to make us see the beauty of His creation, the essence of His life and that He is existing.

No matter what, I know this simple truth, He will never leave me nor forsake me. He loves me. He will never give up on me. Because He loves me. No matter how crooked are my ways, how wicked are my thoughts, how I always get lost, He is still there, up in the skies calling out my name. Nothing is impossible for Him. Nothing can separate me from Him. And in my weakness I find my strength in Him.

when making decisions, it's not absolutely right as we expect it to be. it's consequential. there would always be something that would get compromised. but no matter what, it's the guts, the fine resolve that will lead us into the decision we won't regret. all hopes are always for the best. don't keep on waiting before it's too late.