Why can't I easily accept Your love? Isn't it too much?

Passion of Christ + You Saw Me (Hillsong)

the '99

Scrolling down on facebook, I saw this nostalgic photo. See the Number there? 1999. And today's 2012. I'm really aging. Those stress free childhood times - sitting back and relaxed in front of the television watching these english dubbed animes. oh we we we weeee. 

Hit or miss?

wait. Wait. WAAAIT.

Um, I'm on a mission right now so I'll be taking a leave I guess. Today's 4/40 and I think everything's starting. Slowly, I'm getting worked up with things but... KEEP CALM.

Stop.
Be Quiet.
Make a Connection.

Torn between what again?

Since my family was brought to Lemlunay - a lovely place to stay and I wasn't able to come with them because of something that I have to deal with God, I believe He will bring me to a place where I can definitely see more of His creation - more than Lemlunay's sight.

Thank You in advance O Lord!
Thank You ♥

Currently reading Sprout.

After reading the plot, I have become interested in the story.

Here's: Sprout 

Try reading as I do. :]

How should I say this?

I don't know how to take that thing particularly: Embarrassing or Compliment?

This is bad. Sigh. I got 4/10 on our first quiz in Advance Accounting, and guess what's the most amazing part, our teacher was the one I'm really head over heels - my long time crush.

UWAAAAAAH!

Is this someway of getting his attention? I'm an accounting student, he's an accounting teacher, and I got 4/10 to a lesson which has been repeated for years? This isn't just somethiiiing! I wanted to get his attention the other way around. This is 2nd of my most unappreciative experience - though... It's fun to realize that I got 4, this ain't me!!

Does blogger use ink for posting? I can't use the black. This is unbelievable...

Now, I can use it again. Just what on earth had happened? WHY SHOULD IT TURN OUT THAT WAAAY???

Another thing, Daryll fell from the stairs. I was holding back myself from laughing because that was a serious matter (I think). We were discussing the 2nd part of our quiz, then going down from the second floor, she fell half a way! Good thing that was only 2 steps above the ground. She screamed "all her heart" - as she described it; I turned around to find her on the floor, I was asking myself: What the had happened? Why is she on the floor? Ah! She fell. We went on the infirmary after wards. 

Praise God that nothing serious happened.

A text message from her came in and told me that she kind'a have a bruise or scrape oh her knees.

Back to the topic. 

I WILL DEFINITELY PAY BAAAACK! 
That quiz, it won't define me!
Such an embarrassing thing to happen - to think that I did it myself.

I haven't looked at his face much today, rather, on the paper he fixed which I only got 4.
Move on, I NEED TO MOVE OOON.

  

Extravagant Challenge!

Currently watching Skip Beat! live action. This was video and produced by Taiwanese cast with Super Juniors collaboration. The first I heard this anime turned into live action, they had the original casts of Jerry Yan and Ariel Lin. But after sometime, having announced the final casting, it was revealed to have it differently.

As I'm watching episode 1, I told myself: Almost the same, even the exaggeration of Kyoko. :]

School's at 1:30 and its quarter to 11.

The sky's dark and I doubt that it wouldn't have a chance to rain.

I ate bacon and bread for breakfast, as well as for lunch.

I'm torn between 2 lovers: family vs. school and church for tomorrow.

But I can't serve 2 masters, right?

Anyways, today's really gloomy. I tried to download Bokura's Zenpen but I failed. I'll have it next time then!! 

Jaa mata ne.

A future that won't lose with the past.

 
Just finished watching Bokura Ga Ita Zenpen 2 and I must admit: NOTHING BEATS HAPPY ENDING!
Well the first part of the movie was very dramatic (or I was just moved by it intensely since I was wanting it badly) and has the feeling: it's nice to be young and fall in-love. By the second part, I was totally amazed by how Nanami managed to get hold of her feelings for Yano up to the end (that was 7 years)! Yano had a terrible life, really. From the haunt of her dead girlfriend who is unfaithful, if I were to describe her (even if she chooses Yano at the end, it was too late though), a paranoid mother who committed suicide, up to taking care of Yamamoto and her mother to reach redemption; satisfying the guilt he has for the ones he had lost. After all, he was someone who lacked love, who never understood love since every person around him wanted love - as he gave it, he never reached out to have it back, to understand what is it to be really loved. But destiny really didn't gave him up, it prepared Nanami as to be the best to suit him. 

Yano lacked love and Nanami was the type who freely gives off love. 

Some quotes from the movie made me remember some experiences in the past; i resented those but after facing it, I realized it wasn't that bad at all. Those things helped me to stand a ground. Those things made me realize that everything has truly its reasons whether things have changed, as for the best or worse. Lastly, I don't want to resent over broken love anymore, nor confuse myself as to what had happened. After all...

It. was. love.

Yes. Even though it didn't have a happy ending, what's good about it is that, that wasn't my true love yet. I am glad to cross over that time. I am happy to even meet him at least; made me feel for once what was it to be in love - even for a very short time. It helped me know myself. It helped me realize that there are certain things that are needed to end specially when its not going to forever, but to nowhere.

Young love. That's what I cherished the most. 
Someday, I want to fall freely for someone. Just that Young love, I wanted to blush, giggle, smile at a thought of you, and other things that seems cute. I believe love never gets old; love is something that never ages when it comes to natural response. The next time I love its not going to be because of pressure or a matter of passing by. But its going to be already the overflowing blessing that flowed from my God's anointing and time - and that's going to be special and incomparable!

So for now, I'll just have my nose for today because, I want to have a future that won't lose with the past. 

You, stunning and dazzling creature!

Trying things out.

K - memory of Red

Namida usagi seifuku no kataomoi

Nisekoi komi naoshi 

 

This is so heartbreaking,

I stopped downloading the Part 2.

TT_TT (super tears formula, got this from a brother)
The story makes my heart fluttery as well as breaking. 

#Bokura Ga Ita 2 streaming

Gah~ Bokura Ga Ita 1 live action on stream.

So, if you wanna watch the Part 1 online:

http://www.dramacrazy.net/japanese-movie/bokura-ga-ita-zenpen-watch/255791

My heart's breaaaking..

I'm downloading the 2nd part as well, so here's where I got the infos:

http://forums.mangafox.me/threads/417490-Bokura-Ga-Ita-Live-Action-Part-1-Download-Links-With-English-Subs 

I've been waiting for these movies for a looong time. And now, the ultimate drama is here!

After watching the anime version of this, I read and finished its manga.

So cold yet lovely movie.

:]

It always seems darkest just before the dawn arrives.

“I’ve come too far to give up now. My due season is coming. I will reap my harvest.”

spiritualinspiration.tumblr.com 

What you reap, what you sow.

Please. Don't show that smile any further. Keep that away. I beg you, pleaaase.

:">

And remind you every minute of the future isn't written, not yet.

Jason Mraz - Everything is sound

Coco Rocha & Agyness Deyn

Because I wasn't paying attention, I missed what I should have received.

But He rained down His grace once again. He delivered His message along with Haggai 1 & 2, the Best Future and Preparation.

Purpose. Passion. Praise.

Oh c'mon~

All my fears went away. It was as if, those deceptions proved themselves a lie.

I've been into lots of frustrations before following what He really wanted. Because of rebellion, continuous disobedience, I hardly distinguished His will with mine; so everything along the road, ready on flight, were all held back. I became self-conscious leaving myself with criticisms and made my sight become dysfunctional.

Everyone seems to be against me.

Everything doesn't flow the way I wanted it to be.

I was in a total loss.

I don't know where's the escape. 

I don't know where to run to. 

I don't know but I'm imprisoned,

To somewhere I know I don't belong.

But God didn't left me struggling alone.

I was untouchable.

I was depicted with lots of colors;

I wasn't only black or white.

Yet He prepared me without hesitation.

I became His hurdle but He continued anyway.

I questioned. 

I didn't understood. 

I didn't want it. 

I was pressured.

But He called me to trust, that was the time I jumped without looking the past.

Trying Him won't work if there's holding back,

So I went on today, letting go what I think is still not okay;

He insists anyway to leave it all in His care as if I did nothing in the first place.

Whatever I come up to decide

He is there to back up.

There's nothing to worry

Specially if that BIGGIE is your ally.

I obeyed Him before I knew it.

See how amazing He and I fit?

He's more than a Mafia Boss

More than the prince or anyone would sought.

He is the King The Almighty

Whom I want to render with a song to sing.

But I'll keep silent the next time I worship Him,

for I am nothing, I have nothing, and all I have is Him.

Life is unfair.

But You and I can declare.

He left us with the Spirit,

With Jesus' footsteps, 

we can definitely make it.

 

Lord, can I like someone before this year ends?

I believe that's a YES for the Father.

After all, it's all up to me; But I can't let myself. 
No I still can't.

So I guess I'll keep it a secret to everyone.
That I want to fall for someone.
That I'm falling for someone. 

Lord, let me fall for you more. 

Let me be so into You~ 

Let me give You my full attention. 

Let me give You all my devotion.

This Yuletide season, let me express my gratitude.

With words unspoken, listen with Your ears wide open.

I long to be with You, 

I long to restore everything together with You.

I want to do everything together with You again;

Don't want forever to be forgotten, all in vain.

It's been a long time since my heart raced like this.

It's been ages since I allowed myself to smile in a test.

It was Your lips that healed my mess.

It was Your fingertips that sealed all my disease.

Allow me to be on my knees,

In awe, Thy hands I kiss.

Your whisper tingles my ear.

You nibble every promise for fears.

My tears, You wiped it away.

You ransomed me all in one pay.

I mirror how despicable I am with Your eyes,

But Your look gives me the peace of the skies.

Your love for me is incomparable.

You arms are ever comfortable.

It is where I always land

Whenever I get lost, nowhere to be found.

My Lord, the Lover of my soul,

How can You handle the likes of me?

Despite the oddness I see,

Why do You look at me differently?

You are perfection;

Beyond all description.

 

The Calvary of love;

The Blood of forgiveness;

The Cross of favor.

I love You, Jesus, 

Our true hope and savior.

I'll be missing making buns in my hair,

since I got straight last Wednesday.

Before I let you go, I want to say: Thaaank you.

Justin Bieber - Mistletoe

Just wanna get next to you~

Two o'clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is I gotta get next to you (yeah I gotta get next to you)

Sitting here turning the minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
Cause you don't know that I gotta get next to you 

Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby, call me crazy, but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, maybe I, just gotta get next to you

Asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was outta your league
What a fool, I gotta get next to you

It's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
Cause I wish, yeah I wish, you knew what you mean to me
Baby, let's get together and end this mystery

Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby, call me crazy, but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, maybe I, just gotta get next to you

Whatcha gotta say, whatcha gotta do
How do you get the one you want
To wanna get next to you

Whatcha gotta say, whatcha gotta do
How do you get the one you want
To wanna get next to you

Whatcha gotta say, whatcha gotta do
How do you get the one you want
To wanna get next to you

Whatcha gotta say, whatcha gotta do
How do you get the one you want
To wanna get next to you, to wanna get next to you


Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby, call me crazy, but I think you feel it too (maybe I)
So baby, call me crazy, but I know you feel it too
Maybe I, maybe I, just gotta get next to you
I gotta get next to you

The Future

Watching the Reborn awhile ago in their Future Arc, I thought: 


10 years from now eh? What if I was able to know what my future becomes? 

Learning that I died that time. (Just like Tsuna did)

Learning who is the one I ended with. (Just like Ryohei did)

Learning that I lost someone. (Just like Yamamoto did)

What if...

It's quite scary.
Very scary... After all.
Knowing these facts are definitely hard to swallow.
Coming into that age in the middle of the conflict; good grief.

But things are assured after all.
Having witnessed what I did all these years, I am too much satisfied.
I have learned to embrace the best.
I have become stronger. 

Who would've thought the No-good Tsuna could do great things as that?
What kind of resolve have he discovered himself?
Why was he able to have that kind of drive?




BOOM! 

Reality has come banging my life again.
I am in the present.
I can not see my future.
I can not run away anymore with what my eyes actually see.

I need to make the difference, my life needs.

Katekyo Hitman Reborn, confirmed to end.

Katekyo Hitman Reborn, confirmed to end.

This quite makes me saaad. I still can't get over with Vongola X, the Guardians, the Arcobalenos, Varia, Chiavarone and Vongola Famiglia. :x

I can't believe thiiis. 

Man's pride?

Makes me laugh and looove. :))

First is, men doesn't want women to change - so they keep their secrets themselves.
Second is, man's pride - saying girls are meant to be protected and that men are to stake their lives on their pride or they wouldn't consider themselves as a man.

Katekyo Hitman Reborn 165 

Hallway thrill.

The hallway.

Students coming to and fro.

You coming outside a classroom.

Me, learning to grasp the reality that I am seeing you in front of me.

Hello there! Well its not like we know each other, this person I acknowledge, definitely not. But I liked him for such a long, long time. I only witnessed his student life for 2 years in highschool since he's 2 years older than me, then everything went black.

After several years of wondering how he is, I heard great news about him. He was an outstanding student in his school, so he graduated with the highest honors in college. Then after how many months, he have become a board passer even in short span of time - specially at a very young age.

Yesterday, I went head over heels.

Today, I was a deer in the headlights.

He was my teacher.
He is my teacher.
He is EVERYONE'S teacher.

I confuse myself for this simple matter. Everyone's into him and I don't like that. Well its not like he's a property or a thing that should be possessed. I should have known, I should have kept it as a secret. *Deep sigh.

Sometime ago, I can't afford looking at him in the eyes. I've got malice, so I really can't. He was wearing a teacher's uniform already and he was so, so adorable. Kyaaa~ The thrill I always felt back in highschool.

I can't like him in front of others, I get spoiled, it makes me feel tired and boring - some kind of a dead feeling. I don't want to be like the other girls I see who are oh so drop dead for him. My attitude was odd yesterday, suuuper odd. I didn't like myself back there, I was disgusted the way I acted. Sigh.

I WON'T DO IT AGAAAIN!!
So embarrassing. Why should I do that? Why on earth did I do that?

After all, I don't know him. 
I don't know him at all.
I don't know all the facts about him.
We don't know each other.

But there is one thing that really makes me smile inside, I like him.
I thought, he is the kind of guy I wanted to be with.
Smart and soft-spoken. 
Tall. 
Dashing eyes. 
Dazzling smile.

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Rawr!!

Stop the nonsense!

I don't want any of these!

No, not yeeet.

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I want to forget all those embarrassing acts! Indeed, taking an action without thinking is foolishness! Sigh. WHY SHOULD ALL THESE BE HAPPENING? Even though I am (quite) happy but why do I feel so embarrassed? I can't any longer, right? I can not like him anymore. RAWR. 

I don't want anyone to share with my happiness. So, I guess, I need to keep it all myself.
Yosh! No more of this.


No more.

 

My long time crush has become my Advance Accounting Teacher!

Kekeke. Who would've thought that I can have a special time with him? Though not as my special someone but a teacher to one of my major subject this semester. Just as I wanted to see him badly, prayed a bit for it, then viola! Thank you Looord! 

I'm not in love, I am just surprised and happy. I never thought he would become a teacher, "Teaching is my passion", just as he stated. Well, I bet to get fully ready for my opponents. HAHA. You know I've got this I-want-this-just-mine attitude right? Haha. Am I crazy for wanting to savor this kind of happiness alone? Hahaha. I got exhausted after getting excited to know that he can be our teacher. I watched him enter the class and 

BOOM!

It is him. It is really, really him. 

He was the high school guy who portrayed as the scientist who sold his soul to a demon for fame; 
He was the person who played the guitar during the simple battle of the bands of my freshman and sophomore years; 
He was the one who would always go on top on the stage to get academic award; 
He was the person whom I called out on his graduation to have some picture with;
And he was one of the factor why I considered accountancy to be my course.

I really looked up to this guy.
I really admire him to the extent that I really, really wanted to see him on his expertise.

I remember it correctly, I whispered a prayer wishing to see him. And, and, and...

I know he's got a girlfriend already. Well its not like I'm going to go underhand, do some dirty tricks, be so determined to get to know him; also, it's not like he can pay attention to me because if it were so, he should have already gained lots of girls in the school 'ya know. 

NO, NO, NO, NO WAY.

I was just, really, really happy to see him. I admire him for too long. I mean, I want to cherish this feeling alone. I know I did something very odd back then but he doesn't deserve it, he really doesn't deserve it. He's a good son, an excellent student, and I believe a good lover.

Oh well, I'm so glad that I can look at him, listen to his voice, see him smile (I guess), see him angry (?), and hopefully know him more. This is no secret anymore. 

He's someone to be proud of and not worth keeping to.
Suggoku Urashii Yo. :")

Classes starts tomorrow.

When shall they meet forever?

This is heartbreaking. :<
RanxShinichi

I'm getting excited for the next season!

Let's get ready for Katekyo Hitman Reborn's next seasooon!! The comeback to 10 years of the futureee - rescue on missiooon :3

To go that far,

meanie.

Let's make memories, shall we?

Pumpkin.

Double Honor.
I missed their voices.
It's pumpkin's birthday!
Who would've thought we're college students?
Sooner or later, it's friend's birthday!
I hope Suiren will start talking a lot.
It was never my dream to be a model, i quite of envied the long legs, lovely eyes, pretty dresses, the catwalk, the spot light, the runway, smooth skin though - The One

Sore throat.

Urayamashii na~

Hibari Kyouya.
Lemme hear that Urayamashii na~
Rawr! So hooot but I like the 10 years younger though.
 

Amazing Grace.

I don't know what.

November it is. The sky is clear in the sky, with the moon and stars as its dazzling accessories.