Nangangamoy Toga na, Nangangamoy Aral ka na ba?

It's times like these when I feel paranoid what's going to happen tomorrow. Anyways, I've been living todays like asking tomorrow to be good to me. I'm really afraid, to be honest. I mean, I've been living my life, this life, because of my parents support. And just a while ago, while I was counting days in my head, I asked myself: What if my life tomorrows won't be as great as it would be? I'm afraid. Like for real. To step in outside my comfort zone, and see the world itself. Of course, My dreams are just waiting in wings you know and I understand that there's a plenty of waiting to happen. And it won't come to pass without receiving my diploma right? Sigh. Life's really hard. Guess I really need to work my ass off, I wonder how I could meet that desire one day. Hehe. Anyways, I've been thinking too much about the future lately. Late nights, random thoughts about the future is ranting in my head. Even in the morning, I can't stop daydreaming about it. I know, I know, there's nothing wrong about it right? But what if those thoughts make you weary; draining all your energy, worry has its own way of torturing me. It's a bad habit of mine. I thought I've already thrown it away, but look who's knocking and making me all hypothetical about the future. Such a futuristic person eh? Haha. Anyways, I know that these are just lies from the enemy 'ya know? Sometimes, I find myself smiling at the thought: God really has great plans for me, why so? Because the enemy won't work this hard, beating out the most of me, if he don't see God working me on a threshold. Quite the idea, baby! Haha. That's something I really look forward. I'll be patient. I'll work best. I'll make everything a reason to thank Him day by day. I'll always pave a way in making my prayer life get stronger than ever. I wanna hear Him frequently. It's the safest in His leading after all, don't you agree?

You know why what we think doesn't come into reality?

I realized it just sometime now while having the dishes. Funny how I am thinking about it right? Well I can't just get over with my devotion this morning. It's found in the last verse of Galatians 3.

So yeah. Have you ever experience of daydreaming of something to become reality? Or fun imagining exciting things because of the drive that you have racing through your veins? And to find out that you have just miss it big time! Like after sometime, you told yourself, "This/That ain't gonna happen anymore" because something about reality ticks off that dream of yours. Then it slips down and viola! Vanishes in thin air.

Hahaha. I know how you feel. I've been there for quite a times and I was really wondering why it keeps on happening. I imagine great things like you guys, I can't just settle for less... I really feel you. Haha. But you know what these experience taught me? It made me realize that God really has great things stored for me, for you. It may not be in the spot where adrenalin comes gushing out of us, but when everything is prepared for us.

You see, I have this dream to. Day by day, I always have a thought about it. And sometimes, I just get excited and forget all the rest! But what's really great about this is that, it doesn't fade away. I kept it dear in my heart yet my hands were open to let God have it. I can stress it out if I want to but the point is you know the future isn't something you can predict specially if you want it good, better best.

So yes, it was hard to let go. But I chose to let it go; if it's for me, then it will be - that is how dreams work in my life. Of course, given there is the effort that you put, the passion and heart, and the opportunities that you allow. So say, what's better: Facing today with the dreams in your heart or Working off your ass 'til you meet it - who knows what the future brings? Effortless or Effort-much?

So yeah. I did a story telling there. But what I am pointing out here is that, DREAM and offer it to God. Because when He becomes the center of it all, it just falls into place. He wants us ready. No one wants to be plunge in the water without prior notice! Haha. Anyways, God is faithful. We are HEIRS OF PROMISES. He who said it is faithful. No doesn't necessarily have to be NOT FOR YOU, rather BETTER THINGS (compared to that) suit you.