Taki x Airi ♥

Here is Max lovely. The plot is reaaally wonderful! The creation of the protagonists were really lovely. A guy who is always with you - who looked at you as a friend and as someone he really cherish, and that he who waited for the right time and afterward decided that they are for forever - NOTHING BEATS IT.  

So here's from the last chapter.
*I do not own these materials.

A very romantic proposal. The assurance they have for each other are definitely for eternity ♥

Cousin Madness!

Pride and Prejudice 2005 (Movie Review)

These are some of clips from the movie and some excerpts from the movie Pride and Prejudice, A very wholesome movie lead by Kiera Knightly and Matthew Macfadyen. Such a wonderful story. Full of "aaaaw ♥". For such a long time, I have already met the very famous Mr. Darcy~

Really, what amazed me most in this movie is that there were no kissing scene. It was purely wholesome, I tell you. It made me respected the guys who are so in-love and kind during that period. Mrs. Bennett, the mother, was really annoying - always putting her nose into her daughters lives. But I understand the hard work she's doing since she just wanted to make her daughters live a wonderful live. To think, their ways back then was cheap because they do not intend their daughters to work, to learn, but just stay at home be a refined woman and later find a man who she can be with for the rest of her life. And Bennett family is very blessed to have a father who understands the way of freely loving.

The movie shows the sisterhood of Jane and Elizabeth. It was really admiring. Even though they are in a certain age where nowadays we should get our lives seriously, they were different. So much different that I can sense the joy and the bond they have in each other. The family was very close - intimate. They were having an average life yet what makes it extravagant is the affection they have for each other; the support they obtain for a family member's happiness.

Definitely, being obedient to parents gives the best reward you could ever imagine!
I love how everyone speaks in this movie. So English. So lovely. So gentlemanly and lady-like. The curtsy, the ribbons, the handkerchief and the hats. I never imagined it can be that seriously that useful in finding a partner in life.

Medieval period. Awww. The dress. ♥_♥
I wanna watch the Atonement, the Young Victoria, the Other Boleyn Girl Ana Karenina and Les Miserables.

*Old English: I wish to have my leave here. I shall soon be on my comfort bed and begone in silence for hours under this beautiful cold night. I wish to see you again after tonight; So well then, I bid thee g'night, my friend!

Interesting!

This is currently streaming on my pc. My friends' have been telling me to watch it because the plot. Keira Knightly is the leading lady in this movie - as well as the Atonement and the upcoming Anna Karenina. I think she suits best characters at Medieval era. Mi~ I looove the setting! Even though its quite known for the women discrimination at that time, still, I can't help looking at the picture of how lovely is that time in the Land of the ancient royal and romantic cities ♥

Overwhelming Love and Grace.

I know what it is right? I know what are You telling me to do right? It's just that I do not have enough courage to do it; I do not have that courage to leave the things I must leave for You; that I do not have the confidence to do what You have called for me to do. What am I, O God? I have nothing; not even qualified.

NEW THINGS. BRAND NEW. NEW.

What else? Don't you think it's good to become a new title? How about topic? :))

Oh well. How am I suppose to face them tomorrow. I'm getting 20. I think I am not yet ready. Yea. I still don't want to step another level without making out the best of the past. But how many times do I have to remind myself that PAST is PAST. There's nothing to be done already. That I always ask questions, the SAME QUESTIONS as before, knowing the answer. Sigh. This is quite irritating and annoying. Ugh.

You know. After all the things I am thinking. I just need a total self-control do what He wants me to do. I know I can do it, it was my decision to have more in the first place. I should know go some area and do the party mode. It's annoying. I myself is annoyed to it.

God wants me to be serious at what I'm doing - Devotion, Prayer and Fasting. That's the point here. Then it's because of some: I need to be SO prim and proper. I need to be someone who really doesn't fall to His HIGH standards. I need to leave EVERYTHING that will make my devotion to Him falter.

So how about that kind of thinking? Familiar? Well, that's what's running my mind for sometime. Yet after all these things, I am glad to say that I gained the CONFIDENCE I must have - to have myself near to Him, to present the me who is all soaked up to dis-trustfulness, pessimistic, stone-hearted, weak, coward, gossiper, liar, thief, ill-natured, homosexual, pity-partier, mean, hot-tempered, manga-reader, schizophrenic, assumer, paranoid, competing, resentful, perfectionist, ungrateful, sensitive, envious, mediocre -  the WORSE SINNER OF ALL.

Yet who would've thought that everyday of my life, since that day I came to know the phrase "overwhelming love", I was so much into it that I become aware of His great Love and Grace? It was a heavy feeling. It was healing me. My flesh and spirit is in battle, every night, I feel it. Every day has been a great battle. And every day has a new impression to me.

How can I return all these full-of-mercy favor You have freely given to me? I just want to kneel down before You and cry with all I am, cry all the awe I everyday experience. Will You wait patiently? It might get to long. But O Lord do not  leave me. I am still afraid. You are my strength. You are what's left in me. Conform me O Lord. Help me. I always fail You. I don't want to be always like this, like nothing has happened, like there's nothing I need to do.

O God, pick me up. Holy Spirit take control of me. I don't want to be all this selfish - everything for myself. I also want to become that someone who can pray and do good to others truthfully and sincerely. A person that is so much attached to You, sooo devoted to You.

Lord, I know in Your name, in Jesus name, I am already restored, refreshed, reconciled back to You. Praise God! Hallelujah! Thank You for making me new. Thank You for always pouring out everything that I do not deserve. How can I fail to see Your goodness O Lord? Open my eyes, open my heart, open my mind. Break everything that is hard. Open my hands. Make me surrender and give everything to You. Listen to my heart O God and make it speak. Make me someone living for You, in Your word through Jesus with the Holy Spirit.

THANK YOU LORD. I WILL ALWAYS TRY MY BEST. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THINGS TO REMEMBER, TO DO, TO BE ENCOURAGED, TO GET MY HOPES HIGH. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A REASON TO  LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH. THANK YOU FOR GUIDING AND BEING WITH ME. THANK YOU FOR TAKING GOOD CARE OF ME. 

AND MOST OF ALL, THANK YOU FOR LOVING AND FORGIVING ME; ACCEPTING ME OF WHO I WAS, WHO I AM AND WHO I WILL BE. THANK YOU! 

 

Loved by God, Loving Others: Good Hearts with Good Ears

Loved by God, Loving Others: Good Hearts with Good Ears: "Much of Christian "evangelism" uses guilt and fear, it brings people into a state of apprehension through intimidation and fear. The belief...

Yay!

Just finished doing some stuffs concerning our feasibility study. After this week, examination is coming up. A month-long semester break.

Just read this manga since yesterday, all of these are on-going and it's fun reading them (i guess). :D 

Kimi ga uso o tsuita

Hana Kishi

Suki Kirai Suki

Heroine Shikkaku

Sad Love Story

Crash!

Comedy!

Gokuraku Seishun Hockey Club sure knows how to make me laugh! x)) TRY IT! Another highly recommended manga. ;]

Chidori x Sawara

Just read this cute manga Nemunoki No Geshukusou and its really :"> It's only oneshot yet the graphics are good. I also read the other novel made by the same author, Yumeka Sumomo, Fuyu No Hana. She really has good taste in making stories in connection with the way she draws. Hmn~

Trust (2010 movie review)

This movie is very awesome! I happened to get interested watching this because of a friends suggestion, and since we thought that the lead actress in this movie was the same person as Juli Baker, I was eager to find time and watch it.

Stunning. The story hooked me up. It left me hanging. It left me the Father's love for his daughter and the made me lost in space together with his daughter. Truly, this story wonderful! Not only it promotes reality but informs everyone to be aware of such happenings around us. That we too, children should be careful to our decisions and actions. That having a good family is enough to remember the goodness our parents are leaving us to face reality. Just like what the Father said in the movie, all he wanted to was to make her daughter confident despite what had happened when she nearly drowned (I think) in their pool when her daughter was still a kid.

I just realized that no matter how well-oriented someone might be - as to our perspective, there would really be something that is lacking. We, as children and as future parents should always understand that despite the happy disposition we have, one indifference can mean a lot - can really change a lot. That is why, we should always keep updated and aware with what is happening around us.

Yea. I need to do that.

Another thing is the role of the psychiatrist there. If you would notice, all she did was 97% listen to Annie. Her approach was really kind, that she rebuked Annie's way of thinking about the guy in a nice way. And at some point, Annie herself went to the psychiatrist herself after finding out what the guy has been doing around. Like Annie herself showed how she felt stupid all the time listening to what the guy had said and realizes her fault in the situation.

I just realize how bad stronghold is, how it can make a fool out of you and blind you. Sigh~

The Father's role shows how much he cared for his eldest daughter. To think he could not accept that it wasn't a rape, he blamed everything to the guy. He became all paranoid that all he did was to find the pervert rather than keep an eye for her daughter, comfort her and make her feel safe again. Of course, I know that the Father was only being protective to her daughter after what had happened, but I just realized that whenever he tries to talk to his daughter about the matter, he brings up how he wanted the guy be arrested. And because of this, her daughter keeps away from him.

Then lastly, what makes me raging all this time is the fact that at the end of the movie, the culprit was said to have a family and the physics professor of his brother! GNAWRL! I was really hating iiiit! - which proves that this story, this movie is absolutely great!

I encourage you to watch and be inspired. :] 
Hav'a nice evenin' fella.

Any?

I wanna have some SV PRO +9 ADOBE PS and do some movie editing, some photo transitions >_< just to keep some memory alive. Ugh, I i just felt a craving for a new laptop with great memory so that I can install amazing software to use.

Can someone give me amazing gadgets to use there? 

Just sayin'. :] 

Before I sleep,

Kimi no Tonari de Seishunchuu - another manga to try on. 

I don't know if I already mentioned this, but Orange Marmalade is a good manga. I found it over a website recommended by a friend and found other webtoons that are quite interesting. Most of the stories are I think Korean-made. The way they present the manhwa is amazing. Colored, cute plot, so korean. Try viewing the manhwas here. 

So, I'm off for today. G'night! ^^ 

love love love

Coooool version

Your name is matchless!

Silence.

I'm at my peak right now. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. I know I do not eat properly. I know the things I am doing is not good. I know the that I should be doing this and that yet I do not do it. It pains me in the head. I go frustrated.  

I don't want to live a life of familiarity, mandatory, obligatory.  I just want to live as it is. Thinking nothing but to live. Considering nothing but to live a life I know. I don't want any constraints in what I do or say, on what I need to do or say. I just want to live.

Freedom. For so long, I am wandering for this word. I thought I have found it but I can't just act on it. Yes. I have found it. But I am always afraid to do wrong. I might get scolded. I might be punished. I might cry. I might not be forgiven. Life might get hard. Everything may seem far away. I don't want that kind existence.

"Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 

Lord, help me. I do not understand. I know that there are things that I need to understand. That there are certain things that I need to take care while its still in front of me. Lord, I do not know how to take care of this. My eyes are looking at others. My ears are entertaining envy. My spirit is weak. I am afraid. O God, humble me down. You know what's my heart. I want to be sincere, pure and true in all the things I do, say and think. Lord, I am struggling. Help me, I know I am not perfect, I know you would always be merciful and graceful to me. Help me my God. My mind's full of I do not know. I want to lift you up. Let me focus on You. On Your greatness. In Your molding. In Your ways. Let me be filled with Your Spirit and enjoy this privilege of living You have given to me. I want to cherish it. I want to be a witness of Your great power. I want to know how to take good care of the least, the small things You have convicted in me. God, make me trust You. Make me look at You more. You are my healing. You are what I really need. You are the reason why I am here. Look at me. Listen to me, my Lord. I do not want to wander any longer. I do not want to get lost. Lord, make me live the best out of your gifts and talent. Lord, I do not know where to start. I do not know when, what, how. There are a lot of things that I want to change the me before You come. I want to present myself as someone full of passion and devotion in Your Word, in Your decrees. Help me O God.

 

Loved by God, Loving Others: Reality Because of Christ: Flesh and Spirit

Loved by God, Loving Others: Reality Because of Christ: Flesh and Spirit: "Sin has no power over you because you are not under law but under grace." (Romans 6:14) If you are struggling with sin you are either under...

Flipped - 2010 (Movie review)

Sorry naman sa late na panonood. You know, I'm not really a movie fanatic; I'd rather read than watch. Anyways, I just bumped in into this movie when I went over my friend's house for a birthday celebration. Well, before everything started, I found the group jaw-dropped with this movie. While the others were busy preparing for the party, the other side of the house were busy concentrating with this romantic-comedy teen movie. Based from a novel by Wendelin Van Draanen, I FLIPPED FOR THE MOVIE: FLIPPED. 

Blessed, I was able to watch 90% of it (i think). While watching it, everyone was like SSSH, KEEP QUITE! We were really drawn into the story. We can't let a single moment to slip by!

Juli Baker. Bryce Loski. 70's. Ugh~ Good boys. Good girls. Really, it makes me wonder how good could it be if kids nowadays can keep it just like the old times. Corny? But I find it romantic. Silly traditional way of confession. Oh em! So cute. What makes this movie so enticing is the he-she perspective of both protagonists. These perspectives shows assumptions and misunderstanding by both sides. I like Juli's intact with her family, strong character and smart decisions. And Bryce's acknowledgment of how he really feels about Juli - remarkable! He made me weak in the knees.

Juli: HIS DAZZLING EYES.

Bryce: I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER.

The laboratory scene.

Bryce was caught off guard! HAHAHA.

Bryce Loski: There was a... bee in her hair.  

Dana Tressler: There's no bee.

The dinner scene.

This was another cute part. As Bryce already acknowledges his feelings for Juli, everything went flipped! Poor Bryce, he doesn't what to wear just to look good in front of Juli. What's worse was she, ignoring him and couldn't do anything but to stare back at her. :>> 

The bidding for the basketboys scene. 

This scene made me giggle at Bryce's frustrations about Juli being present in the event and the bid she'll have. :">

The (how should I word it) date (?) in the cafeteria (canteen) scene.

Who would've thought that Bryce could be desperate as that?

MY JULI. How's that? :> 

THERE'S JUST A LOT TO SEE IN THIS MOVIEEE.

Young people could notice how these individuals protected their being. Yes, they have allowed this new type of feelings to be a part of their lives, yet they never tried to take it for granted nor disregarded respect. Love this movie! The characters were good, reaaally good. :>

Note: I asked a male friend about how true are this young man's perspective, I was really awe to know that they really have these kind of thoughts running inside their heads when they fall in love. Boys do really fall in love do they? Oh me, so mean of me. :))

Feels like a dream

O now, I feel like what happened a while ago was a dream. Yea. It was hurting and all but its better. I know its my fault for having such stink beside me. I was trying my best to keep it but, it didn't work at all. Haha. Well, the truth doesn't feel good all the time. Sometimes, it would make you feel knock out for a while but its bearable. ^^ It's for your own sake, so there's no helping I guess. It's not like it's a rejection you know? What they are trying to impose here is what is happening to you.

Lord, comfort me. I am hurting. Help me face them tomorrow. It might be painful but You are my strength. Restore the broken bond I have created. Forgive me for being passive my Lord. Thank You Lord for hearing me my Lord! 

 

September, it is.

Hey there, it's September~

Well. just finished reading this month's chapter for Stardust Wink and Orange Marmalade. I lots of it (I think) this week and I wasn't able to publish it here because I was taking it as stress-relief thing.

Our feasibility study's done with defense and now we're done with revisions. Praise God! I just need to focus more on study FIN 312 and FIN MAN. FIN 111 is not much that hard - it's because of GOd's help though :">

Our PC's monitor is so bright that it hurts my eyes. Sigh.

Of course, lots of things just as this month has started. Everything was all in a blink. The numerous earthquakes that had happened, Kaye's explanation of "falling in love" in, Father God's rebuke, awkward moments, "I don't like this" moments, dull moments and .. there's just so many to name.

I'm turning 20.

I AM.

Sigh. I'm getting older and I still act like a child. Haha. Anyways, I wonder what's of this age.

20. I am getting 20 years old a few days from now.

Excited?

Maybe.

O, good times. I just miss the old times. The old times that can never be brought back. The times that I believe the present can equal and the future can surpass. I just need to keep my hopes right?

Today's just so humid. I can't take it, I stink. I feel sticky. @_@

I wonder what's going to be. After this year, and the years to come, what will it be?

Everything.

Before that, Intramural this year is already this Monday. I'm participating the editorial event just like last year. I pray to win this event. I know, I can. ^^

Lord, will I enjoy this years' gathering? I hope to see and play with them just like before. I know that there's always more to come. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE.

I just need an expectant heart.

Randomly, I just feel that I am that bad. REALLY, REALLY BAD AND HATEFUL PERSON. I don't do good, like others do. I don't know. It's like, I'm no good? Haha. How's that?

I am annoying right?

I don't speak much. I like to be alone. I don't want to be rebuked. 

I DON'T WANT TO KNOW WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME IN THE PAST UPTO THIS PRESENT.

I am afraid. Others might have think I already have showed the me to them, but is it?

I am afraid to face the me that they know. I feel like I'm going be rejected. I feel like I might get them disappointed with what I am doing, what I have done. I'm afraid that I might even disappoint myself for not reaching their standard.

I easily cry, I mope when things don't go my way. I get angry when it's annoying, I get frustrated when everything gets in my nerves.

Selfish? Coward? Unkind?

I know I am not perfect but this makes me remember how I am very much forgiven, understood, loved and washed by grace and mercy by the Father.

I'm not your average girl.