"to confidently trust Him whether you feel Him not"

PTSD nights

Everyone is not as strong as you. 

For people who are unfamiliar with depression, anxiety attacks and PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), I don't know how to convey it to you. But please be considerate of your actions. Be kind to everyone you meet. You don't know what they are going through, inside and alone.

Repetitive scenarios keep on haunting. Not that it is wanted or welcomed, but was just triggered then once again fears, failures, pain paralyze. And this is not to count against the offender; no, no more condemnation and guilt. but you see, thoughtless actions led to a deep and long-term healing process.

This is a personal battle for the one experiencing those negative thought pattern. As much as the people have moved on, how much more the other party wants to also. You see, taking ourselves out of the picture is not easy peasy... and recall something about what happened. But with constant security of healing and redemption, I know the battle is already won. 

And Yes, this is how hard the mind battle is. Every. Single. Time. 

So I hope that this address brings awareness to everyone (who needs it). 

Please understand. 

Please be patient. 

Please process with them.

Day One

Lord, thank you for these people who have surrounded me. To remind me that you desire for us to enjoy this season, just because. 

Thank you for the life of Rachel. 

God, even if daghan kaayo mi sayop,

and gahi mi kaayo ug ulo, 

grabe lang Kaykag grasya. 

Forgiveness. Provision. Love. 

Thank you kaayo.

I pray for breakthrough in her finances,

na makabayad na sha sa iyang mga debts

and that your redemption story in this area

of her life will be strong and true. 

I pray for her desire to have a husband,

God, may you grant the desires of her heart. 

May Your will be done. May she enjoy

this season of waiting on You, God,

more than anything else. 

God, I pray for Earl. Continue to bring out

the best in him. Let him grow in Your strength

and grace. May you overflow Your might

arresting his heart with Your strength. 

Give him courage; take him by the hand

as he ventures to conquer territories and fear.

God, I believe that You can and will do and accomplish

so much and great things in His life.

Continue to shine Your light to Your son. 

Continue to make him choose You, always.

God, I pray for Gee Ann. 

I thank You for her life!! Thank you for leading her.

Thank you because You are opening her heart

in the grandness of Your grace. Thank You

because You have blessed our relationship. 

God, I know dili man jud all the time na maging 

smooth lang permi, and days like these,

with their lives, will remind me that You are for us. 

I pray that You continually secure her with

that she is fully known and yet deeply loved.

God, thank you Tinay.

Indeed, she is someone na lami kaayo alagaan. 

Thank you for securing our relationship

na bisag daghan na kaayog insecurities and

misunderstandings, still we can count on one another. 

I pray that you bless your obedience. 

I pray that you answer her her prayer for her family. 

I know You are making her become the woman

You have best in mind. Direct her to paths, 

open her heart and mind to Your ways. 

Thank you for such a beautiful soul, Jesus. 

God, I pray for Val. 

Thank you for the healing. Thank you for overtaking

his soul. Thank you because You are mindful of him. 

Thank you because You have never left him. 

May Your faithfulness continually remind 

him of his desire to love, obey You. 

May his life indeed be a powerful message 

for everyone to be encouraged. 

Thank you for saving his faith since the

beginning, in the middle and upto the end. 

God, I pray for Janced.

Thank you because young as he is, 

he never intimidated with reality.

As you have open the world to him, 

the possibility to everything, 

may you also open his heart

to be humble and love. 

May you remind him always 

of what you've done, 

that's not about what we can offer, 

but what You've already declared

finished on the cross. 

Lord, I pray for BJ. 

I pray that you give her rest. 

Rest from every insecurity

from every lie

from every weight that

grabs her confidence to You. 

Lord, You are in the midst of her, 

she will rise again on a better version. 

Let Your glory speak in her life. 

You have provided every spiritual 

blessing she needs and will need. 

Heal her from the very depths of her soul, 

and make Your love stronger than ever in her. 

Lord, I pray that you help me

be the best for them.

I know I will not be always around for them, 

so help me to always surrender. 

Help me God to keep my heart right to You. 

You and You alone, God. 

Thank you, Jesus! 🌼✨