it's amazing how every burden was left before i'm home

fear
pain
disappointment
they are
still
creeping in

i don't know
how to face her
i don't know
his words
anymore

and
for the sake
of a 
healthy 2020
my calling
my purpose
my soul
i have 
to
get back
to zero

high hopes
that
what's 
meant to be
will
be

so cheers
to higher
trust andf faith
i surrender
yield
obedience
His will be done

day four

thank you Lord
i slept a good sleep
and woke up early
beautiful morning

the pain
the question
is still there
i want to run away
but i have to continue
i have to move forward
i have to choose

"The same thing 
that built you 
is the same thing 
that kills you"

but i am healing
the pain
the questions
are all in the past
now i'm laying
it down at Your feet
i don't have much
to offer, God
but this heart
rebellious
unfaithful
weak
fully Yours
i'm coming home

forgive me
for letting myself
get involved
again
for breaking
my soul
torn apart
it really kills inside
but i thank you still
because

My redeemer lives

Wala man ko'y katungod noh, so wala koy karapatan mangutana. Pero, ngano?

day three

thank you, Jesus
for reminding me
that anything rush
anything not in You
will only rob 
the joy of today

last night, 
though everything
seemed perfect
i was broke
behind perfect
weather
constellations
moon
bonfire
i felt i didn't belong
i shouldn't be there
it should happen

i wanted to get angry
but i couldn't
i just cried and wants still
but a hush in the kept me
"i think God wants me happy" 

there are certain
things now that
i am discovering
truth, freedom, trust
it's not easy,
but it's very risky
i was scared
but i had too

Jesus, once again
i'm afraid
i want it right
questions
doubts
fears
are present
but with you
i know I'm safe

thank you Jesus
i will and would
want to be with you
thank you for
the renewed
passion
compassion
for the calling
you have for me

this season
i will conquer in victory
i will sing in Hallelujah
i will walk in joy
i will live in the fullness
of your love
i will abide
i will rest
i will remain
i will remember

thank you, Jesus

day two

thank you, Jesus
i know you are deeping
my faith
my trust
in You
thank You
for reminding me
that in the waiting
there's no need
to worry about
tomorrow
but all attention
is in the wonder
of your Presence
today

thank you
because
this is where it'll
start
a heart of Joy
a soul anchored
in You
my deepest why
the reason for all

thank you Jesus

day one

When you're lost who to trust... When you're asking people to help you trust them... God comes, wipes your tears, and tells, "Trust me."

Family Reunions 💕🌼✨

Puhon. 

Joy and Gratitude. #arigathanks2020

Good. 

Wise. 

King. 

Trust.

Faith. 

Light. 

Hope. 

Love. 

Rest. 

Slowly. 

Carefully. 

Surely. 

Grace. 

Abide.

Remain.

Praise. 

Worship.

Celebrate.

Process. 

Breathe.

Glory. 

Remember.

Joy and Gratitude. 
#arigathanks2020

you don't have to feel responsible all the time

God didn't put us to a place of distraction, but of instruction. We are in a beautiful place, meant to be celebrated and enjoyed, all pointing to our wonderful creator. Distractions and temptations only enter the scene when we got convinced that they are better than God.

hays. the never ending "what do you want?"

Good job, Rau. Padayon lang ha. You'll make it eventually. 😊

You being happy. You being celebrated. You being the best version of you. Is an answered prayer. You are a blessing. You are a treasure. Continue to take your rightful place in the circle of life and live like His child.

Quite sad I'm not in the picture, but I'm satisfied. Having emotional spurs, but I can handle it. It's better that I got to know all these and get treated. I'm satisfied for the distance. I'm thankful for the silence. I'm at peace with rest. God was with me, so will He today and the next coming days. I'm gonna make it. And be better. This test of joyful confidence in Him... Bring. It. On.

"Whatever happens will be wonderful."

Yung, narerealize mong how wicked your heart is when he's around. Haha. It's not that because he did something wrong, but I might be rude again. I might be highly strung by emotions and be rash at them. I really should have not come nalang. Haha. Bad for the heart. Stress nanaman. Struggle sa soul again. Damaged emotions again. Kakapagod na. Sorry nemen. Hahaha. Sige lang. Let's finish what have started. Until the end! 😁

My dwelling place, in You I remain.

Immeasurable grace. 

I'd like to make it with you 🎶

hays 💕 

"Whatever happens will be wonderful." - Dallas Willard

Soul Keeping, John Ortberg

I was enchanted to meet you. :")

You are accepted. You belong.

Rau,

One day at a time... 

until it resigns. 

two different hands, open

always a step closer to goodbyes.

'til the emotions die down...

And everyday I choose you. 

Love grows when it is founded in trust.

one of the best

Doing nothing often leads to the very best of something.

A faith not tested is a faith not trusted.

Spiritual Apathy

So yea, I would like to talk about it shortly. I found some useful resources in the internet regarding the issue: Apathy. 

Spiritual Apathy.

When we are getting overloaded with certain things that used to be our delight, it makes us hurry and hustle (embedded links are provided for the words to make us better understand why we have to end ruthlessly hurry and hustle). These two words are subtle in their crafts in destroying our intimacy the Lord. And basically, this is what the enemy wants, for us to enjoy being busy. To the point of forgetting what really matters... forgetting the heart behind the things that we do... getting cold and withdrawn from everything that used to flame us in the Lord.

I remember, a non-verbatim from the book of CS Lewis, Screwtape Letters, wherein one demon reported to his master demon the status of certain churches. Then there's this one church where he found to be pretty busy, then the master demon just said to leave them be because it's gonna be thie

So here are some symptoms of getting into spiritual apathy:

1) Decline in attendance—When there is a slacking of attendance, there is also a slacking in hunger for the preached Word of God. Obviously, there are times of the year when vacation or other factors play a part. But when a decline becomes the trend rather than an exception, there is cause for spiritual concern on the part of a shepherd. 

2) Lack of concern for souls—When soulwinning and outreach times are attended by fewer and fewer people, there is a spiritual disconnect between what we say we believe (that the Great Commission is our great priority) and how we behave (that soulwinning isn’t a priority).

3) Lack of participation in congregational singing—The Bible commands us to make a joyful noise unto the Lord. When Christians come to church with a heart of praise, the opportunity to sing is welcome. When they come distracted and bored, their singing reflects it. 

4) Indifference to the needs of others—Growing Christians are caring Christians. Scripture commands us to bear one another’s burdens. When we don’t care enough to know what the people around us are going through, we’re slipping into self-focused apathy for sure.

5) No pastoral encouragement—The Bible commands us to know those who labor among us and to remember them for their work’s sake. Just as a maturing teenager or an adult will notice and be grateful for the care and sacrifices of their parent, so growing Christians will give thanks for spiritual shepherds who serve them.

6) Declining concern for missions—When a church becomes inward focused, they are no longer concerned for the fields white unto harvest. They lose their sense of eternal realties and of spiritual responsibility to reach the world with the gospel.

7) Failure to invest in the next generation—When a church fails to see young men and women as their future and fails to invest in their development, apathy is setting in. Frankly, the church may not continue in the next generation.

(ref. https://paulchappell.com/2015/08/17/7-early-symptoms-of-spiritual-apathy/)

And since we are already discovering how the enemy is at work in us, let us now go in the offensive side. When these things are already on the roll, breathe and remember that

1. YOU DON’T HAVE TO FIX IT

If we are going to be God’s comfort agents—being present with others in their pain—we need to come to terms with the mysteries that God chooses not to resolve. Are we willing to stand in faith, engaged in the brokenness that is shredding the world, and proclaim that God is still God, even when life doesn’t change and hurts refuse to heal? Being an ambassador for Christ in the middle of brokenness takes a willingness to sit in the mystery for the long haul with someone whose hurts keep on hurting. It is a willingness to feel the full weight of what can’t be explained away. We are not called to heal or fix and make everything good as new. Only God can do that.

2. YOU DON’T HAVE TO EXPLAIN IT

When people are in pain, it’s tempting to give a little morsel of wisdom and a pep talk and send the suffering on their way. One of the worst platitudes is the notion that “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.” In essence, we are telling people a) their pain isn’t so bad and b) God hands out trouble based on our ability to handle it. We cannot adequately explain the mysteries of suffering with platitudes. Attempting to do so diminishes the very real anguish and calls God’s goodness into question.

3. YOU JUST HAVE TO BE PRESENT

Right where you are, your life intersects with countless people who need someone to come close in the hour of suffering. It could be a lonely neighbor, a homeless man, an angry teen, a stressed-out mom, a doubting saint, a searching soul. People in your midst need someone to be brave enough to sit with them in their sorrow, to share the load by choosing to feel and choosing to trust God’s promises. We cannot stop the suffering in the world, but we can make sure no one suffers alone. God invites us to be his comfort agents, to manifest his presence so people know our God sees us (Genesis 16:13) and is with us (Matthew 1:23) in our suffering.

(ref. https://relevantmagazine.com/god/faith/3-ways-to-break-spiritual-apathy-your-life/)

Now, when things are in the rough. Like it seems so hard to go back. Or like, you are doing what you're supposed to do to be like so dragging and you just don't understand it... REST. REMEMBER that these are just days where our souls are really affected the emotions that overwhelms us because of so much work. So when this happens, continue to REMAIN IN HIS LOVE. ABIDE. God's love is constant. It never diminishes over good or bad days. God is constant. God is faithful. And you are His child. His beloved.

"There is no better cure to spiritual apathy than to make Him the highest priority of our day." - Leslie Ludy

two years ago from today, you gave me the same hurtful look.

no one else can satisfy

Difference and Indifference.

Jesus, be glorified

You're so much better
You're so much kinder
Than anything we think You are
Your love is deeper
Your love is wider
Open our eyes to see You God

loved and forgiven, healed and accepted

Why?

October

People may think I have not moved on from it
Others might question why do I have to move on from it
When in the first place I'm not involved

Ang hirap nang ganito
Yung once again, 
you're trying to convince yourself you're okay
Because you have to be okay
Yung you have to contain everything
Else masisira yung good work

Alam mo yung hindi mo maiwasang
matakot kapag dumarating ulit yung araw
yung mga buwan at yung sakit
It's not about forgiveness if you think about it
Tapos na eh, nakapagpatawad na ako
Pero yung sakit, tinatakot parin ako

The pain will always remind me a lot of this
I think my emotions got scarred, 
trust is still quite damaged, 
always frightening
but I gotta keep going
believing that better days
will bring healing and be right

It stings again.

Tightrope

I'd like to think that
We could be more than this
Yeah, I'd like to think that
We could be more

I think we're gonna make it
There's no need to rush now
I think we're gonna make it
Right on time

Unya unsa'y feeling pagginabuhat nimo na? Lipay sad ka eh? Hahaha.

Tamang breakdown lang, then balik agad.

Ang nadarama sayo'y malinaw. :)

you know what's harder than keeping it to yourself? it's holding it all together as if nothing's broken. making a face, forcing yourself to function, and be strong.

Hurt in private.
Heal in silence.
Shine in public.

The only way to get through pain, is to go through it. 

Courage, dear heart. May you never lose the heart to love. Do not let the world make you hate its brokenness. Broken it may be, it's still beautiful and glorious. They remain to be treasures, precious, worthy, deserving.

Thank you, Jesus. 

To love better and get wiser.

xxvii

How do you think this year's celebration would be?

With all that is happening, how do you think this will turn out?

I, honestly, am looking forward for this year celebration... 
But, well I guess I have to lower a bit my expectations... 

Tonight's kind'a hurtful night. 
It's one of those days you thought everything was just fine, but actually not. 
Another stressful nights. 
Another days to overcome.

I thought
the cost for the call was bearing too much
and it feels like I don't wanna do what I do
I don't want to be someone called leader
I don't want to play bass
I don't want to do anything that will cost brokenness

But that's exactly what Jesus overcame
The more I reasoned out I don't want to
The more I realized I am doing because
Of what He has done for me
I can't just get Jesus out of the picture

"There is a greater story to be told."

And this where my faith lies now...
How God will turn this all out... 
So now all I could muster is to pray and 
continue to follow Jesus 
regardless of the outcome

There might be reminders of our shortcomings
weaknesses, and inacapabilities
But it's also where God becomes the God
He consumes everything like a fire
He consumes

This year, 
I pray for everyone to be strong in faith
I pray for everyone to recieve grace
I pray for everyone to overflow in love
I pray for everyone for good health
I pray for everyone to be full of joy
I pray for better days
I pray for breakthroughs 
I pray for beaty and glory be unveiled
I pray for everyone delight in the Lord
I speak growth
I speak promotion
I speak truth
I speak discipline
I speak fruitfulness
I speak power
I speak trust
I speak obedience
in Jesus' name. 

Ipinaglalaban ka ng ipinapaglaban mo.

"you deserve better" - Jeff Ibanez

kahilak man sad tag lata, Lord
He sounded like a father to me. 

😭😭😭

pangarap ko ang ibigin ka 🎶

Rau, the gravity of "wala man gud ko kabalo, wala ko kapansin"... Di lang ikaw affected, madami... Next time, ask for instructions. Always, always, think about how your actions will affect others.

to be woman of conviction

a woman the Lord keeps on making
a woman that keeps on loving
a woman who stands as royalty
a woman whose joy is to serve
a woman full of hope and gratitude

a beloved in the Lord
a daughter of God
a child of the One True King

Handa ka na masaktan?

Will loving be enough?

What do I want to do?

I wish answering, "To love", would be enough.

Hallelujah, Great Defender! So much better in Your way.

Hallelujah, defender of my heart. 

"Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight," Psalm 51:4

"Sin... is a violation against a personal command... that is if I want to keep the will of my Father for my life"
"... The recognition that the heart needs redemption and forgiveness, that leads to worship."

Lord, grant me the grace to fight. You give power to the weak, and strength to the powerless. For those who trust in You will find new strength - to soar high on wings like eagles, to run and not grow weary, and to walk and not faint. That as You direct my footsteps with Yours, make my heart beat with Yours, keep me steadfast. In my weakness, Your glory appears.

I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded about the humility that brought me to my knees and pray and plead for life. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded how God has held and carried me altogether and all through out. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded of the depth of that forgiveness I never imagined I could draw from me. I will always be reminded of that pain. But at the same time, be reminded of how God has loved me, forgave me, and never gave up on me. That day, was my second encounter with Jesus; life changing. That day told me how fragile hearts could be. That day made feel how wretched I am. That day I threw everything who I was because there's nothing left but mess. But that was also the very day, Jesus saved me. Again. Those days, I kept on breaking and running away but He kept pursuing. He kept me, healed and restored me. Again and again. And I realized this love, I hope to be brave it in life. There are days I get so afraid and wish to stop. But His love keeps me still. His love quiets me. Pain is real, but so is He. The shame and guilt are deep, but His love deeper.

everyday I love you

"I am madly inlove with you."

Wa juy lain, Ikaw ra gyud.
Ikaw ray nakahibaw nako
Katong mga adlaw nga
sa hilak nalang gyud 
nako masulti Nimo
Katong mga adlaw nga
kita kaayo nimo akong kasakit
nga bisan ako nawad-an
nagpag-asa sa akong kaugalingon
Katong mga adlaw nga
ginapili nako akong sarili
na murag walay Ikaw

Pero Ikaw 
Wala gyud ka nihawa
Bisan ako nay nagapasakit
sa akong sarili
Bisan gahi kaayo kog uwo
Bisan lain kaykog batasan
Bisan wala tika ginapili
Grabe ra gyud ka Kamaayo sa tanan
Grabe ra kayko Nimo ka palangga

Maong deserve gyud nimo
Tanan akong best
Tanan nagapalipay nako
Tanan ginapalangga nako
Tanan ginapangandoy nako
Tanan ginakasaligan nako
Kay Ikaw ra gyud
Way lain, Ikaw ra

"Do you trust Me?"

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26)

Breathe. Quiet yourself. Think. Slow down. Smile. Be grateful.

"the God in you will be speaking to the God in him"

Sige lang Lord. Whatever was, is and shall be lost, I find in Christ. 😭🌼💕

You are my greatest joy
Jesus, everything I've lost
I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I'll say

You are worth it all

"LORD, keep me. Preserve me and heal me for the person You have for me."

I never asked for anything much... But this prayer... I don't even know if there's somebody out there for me... But Lord, please hear my prayer. Strengthen me everyday to stand on the ground you have for me. Help me toil my garden, my heart, my life. I don't want anything unless it comes from You. I know it'll break me at times because my prayers are usually selfish. So Lord, my prayer, the very cry of my heart, is for You to keep me and hold me, always. Make me strong in the Spirit that I may delight in walking with you. Even in the waiting, even in the discipline, even in the pruning... You are good and you know what's best. 😭🏳️🌼

I'm scared 

No friends

Nothing to do

I'm nothing

But with a new perspective, new heart

I'm the King's daughter

I'm strengthened for His new ways

I'm empowered to learn and be wiser

Honestly, I want to shed tears 

For failing Him, again

For my unreasonable reasons

For some fear of uncertainty

But there's confidence that I can not understand

If all my hopes die

If all I desire won't come by

If in my lifetime there's much unanswered prayers

I know that

God remains sovereign

God remains good

God remains good at being God

I just thank God for the Spirit

A friend that helps

A well that refreshes

The slow down that gives rest

The reminder and seal of God

That He is for us

That we are His children

That His promises shall come to pass

It's amazing that this season

Can bring you to a point

Of throwing everything you have

Everything that you hold so dear

Just to have all of Him

That newness

That change

That chance

I'm giving it another shot

I fail a lot but He doesn't

Adventure starts here, now

By faith

By grace

By love

I am forgiven

I am set free

I am redeemed

He cherishes and celebrates me

He fully knows yet deeply loves me

He has given me joy that can never be taken away

The greatest form of love is sacrifice.

Nope. I won't insist. I don't insist. You decide.

I've come so far, I can't go back to where I used to be.

Longings bring us 'home'.

Nothing else satisfies than you do.
And forever I will be reminded that it is my heart, 
my obedience, 
my trust that You desire. 
I might commit mistakes, 
I might run away from You, 
I might not be wise, 
I might do all these stuffs for You... 
But these all doesn't make me less as Your daughter. 
You own me. 
You accept me.
You treasure me. 
You cherish me.
You love me. 
No more, no less. 
Not what I can do.
Not what You can do. 
Just between You and me.

Thank You. 
Forever grateful, Jesus.
Thank You. 

Actions speak louder than words.

Sometimes, you don't have to ask.
You just have to let it be. 
And move forward. 

"Don't be a barkada, be an ate."

"Play by own strengths." (Ben Sanglitan)

Strategic sees the big picture. Tactical acts for the now.
"Di ko ganahan anang ginababy. We play by own strengths."
If it doesn't work that way, try the opposite.
Set standards when and what to respond.
"If walking away makes it better for everybody"
"Kung may negative man na nangyari, dahil yun sa akin" 

"Fail early, fail often, but always fail forward." (John Maxwell)

Getting better.

Getting there.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. (Proverbs 13:12 NIV)

Holding back pains the heart.

"I pray that you quit overthinking, replaying failed scenarios, feeding self doubt & seeing the good in everyone but yourself. You deserve more." (Lexyne Grays)

When you seem to have nothing, pray. For it is said, "on the mount of the Lord it shall be provided."

Into the deep

Into the deep, I will go with You. 
Submerge my feet, to my head, in all of You. 

As Your Presence falls, I am drowned in Your love. 
Immerse me. Immerse me.

In the silence of the heart, You speak.

you are worthy

I am Your child, and that's what that matters.

There is no disappointment in Your eyes
There is no shame, there is only pride
I am loved. Father, I'm loved by You

There is no distance in Your embrace
Over and over again You say
I am loved. Father, I'm loved by You

You are changing everything
I believe it; I receive it
You are changing everything

to witness a miracle

he who kneels before God can stand before anyone, anything, anytime

Don't let anyone make you feel you're less than, you're a mistake that happened, or even take you for granted.

It's okay to step a little far away from those that makes you feel like it. 
You will be fine. You will not be alone. 
You are held. You are kept. You are safe.

You are someone else's sunshine.
You are someone else's song.
You are someone else's sweet candy.

You are a treasure worth knowing and celebrated.
You are so precious worth every care and attention.
You are lovely just like every beautiful thing that makes you smile.

Don't let the world and man's fall take away your love.
Don't let lies and circumstances take away your joy.
You've sown and has grown, you are a work in progress.

I hope you see it, dear.
I hope you do.

could I love you anymore

Pray. Continue to pray. Even if it seems or sounds foolish, never cease praying. For this is how we fight our battles, by waiting upon the Lord and surrender. Because we know that He answers. And His answers save. His answers overwhelm. For He, Himself brings life, power and change.

Prayer works!

How do you go from making one your home and then just letting it all go?

May I serve the purpose of this season.

He has a purpose and plan for you. It may not come as you want it now... It may not be as good as how others are experiencing... But keep in mind and take heart to wait upon the Lord. Doesn't mean we don't see anything working, He's not moving. He is God, and He is good.

Declaring the end and the result from the beginning, And from ancient times the things which have not [yet] been done, Saying, ‘My purpose will be established, And I will do all that pleases Me and fulfills My purpose,’ Isaiah 46:10 AMP

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait for the Lord ; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord .
Psalm 27:13‭-‬14 NIV

Laban lang. Tiwala lang. Padayon lang. 💪👊☝️

To honor the King doesn't come only by lip service, but by actions... not just by full devotion, but also with full surrender of wills... not just by obedience, but also by enjoying.

Something about healing

Last Saturday, I got another piercing. I had it in the helix area. Actually, I used to have one. But during that time, we were on a camp and no extra earrings were allowed. It was still fresh but I removed it, because I was more afraid of someone taking it away. I tried to put it back, but it closed immediately.

Going back, I got one again. I wanted to change the pin, so I observed the pain for days and thought maybe, last night, it was fine. So yeah, I took the pin away. It wasn't easy because the pin was locked tightly; the pain was tolerable, though (mmm, or is it just me since I have high pain tolerance). 

Taking the stack in the pierce felt giddy... the sense of tingling pain made me realize that it wasn't yet fully healed. But I insisted, so taking it off, I saw a mark. I thought there'll be no blood, actually, there wasn't but it was a bruised mark since it's in a cartilage area. And as I tried to change the pin with the new one, I didn't imagine to have a hard time doing it.

It wasn't just about the pain and the pin. But the healing that was still happening. I realized that for that one new thing to settle down, it has to go through a deep and thorough settling. Time is one factor and the other is the natural way of healing.

I took the new pin again. The pain was bearable but it has a different kind of sting that makes my hands and feet cold and my tummy lurching (ya know that feeling?). Now, I have to go through the same process again, and you know what? I kinda felt afraid. Afraid that if I wont get it back again, it will close on me. Again. And the pain, what if I won't be able to endure it? What if... 

And with all the storming of what ifs? I did it again. To bravethrough. I have to. I don't know if its wrong or something, but what I observed was that, the slower I was pinning myself, colder it makes my being, thus making me stop what I do. So to finish, once and for all, I tried to locate the hole on the other side of my ear and pierced it hard to get through. Because I was kinda forceful on it, I didn't realize that the tip if the pin was sharp, so I got my thumb bleeding a bit. 

Then it's done.

Marking it here, because I got lots of things in mind lately. Not only that I got pierced but also got a pixie. See how frustrated I am with my life? Hahaha. I was at a point where there's nothing I can do and there's no one to help me in my own misery, so I just cry my way 'till the next day. Hope was so fragile, yet it's not breaking. Everything was slowly taken away, but looking into another mirror, I saw the Lord moving. And there's no where I would like to be than where my Lord, my King will be. 

I'm holding on to the truth that one day... 

One day... 

All of these things that enemy 

is trying to break, 

is trying put to death, 

is trying to destroy... 

One day...

My King will 

restore

redeem

resurrect

rescue.

All for the honor of Jesus.

Anyway, new things for new things; 

No matter what comes in the way, 

New things for new things.

Life's hard, but God is able. 💪💪💪

2019: A theme of tears

Through tears and joy
All for Your glory

Eyes fixed on Jesus.

Every day it gets harder. 
Every day I die to myself. 
Every day I always think, 
Is this how it should be?

Every day I get to see
How foolish and selfish
I could be; hopeless, 
I am beyond redemption

But You called me out
Restored my beauty
Restored my worth
Pursued me relentlessly 

Then You are the only one
I found to stay
And Your Word so true
I found to remain

Though breaking
Though refined
Though disciplined
May my devotion kept full

Eyes ever be fixed on You

Heart ever be well rested

Hands ever be surrendered

Knees ever worshiping You

My Lord, My Lord
Give me grace to persevere
Grant me mercy to endure
To honor You forever

To honor You forever

Self-control.

I wish I didn't realize it.
So iwas iwas muna ako. 
I've already surrendered that part kay God.
So whether He gives it or not, 
He remains to be my Greatest Friend
Good Father, the One Pursuer I know 
who knows me well yet still loves me deeply

#focusundividedandundistracted
#forthehonoroftheKing

Glory. Honor. Praise. Worship. Holy. Worthy.

Never not love you.

it's hard to receive love when you yourself don't believe you deserve it

This test of security
this truth discipline
that even if things 
doesn't go your way
because it is His way
you will believe
you will still be in faith
that you are loved
Greatly loved by the King
Because He said so
and that's all that matters

Alam mo yung feeling na, narealize mo ikaw talaga yung may problema kaya ikaw yung kailangan lumayo.

Pero iba si Lord...

Kilalang kilala ka nya. Alam nyang gagawin mo yan. At alam mo ba? Kahit pa di mo maramdaman, mahal na mahal na mahal ka Nya. Di Sha lalayo dahil sa nakaraan mo. Di Sha bibitiw kahit ganyan ka ngayon. At lalong lalo na, hindi Sha natatakot sa magiging bukas mo. Kahit pa ayaw mo sa sarili mo, galit ka sa sarili mo... Di Sha nagkamali sa pagpili sayo.

Hawak Nya ang mundo, kontrolado Nya ang lahat. Lagi Shang mag-aantay sa pagbabalik mo. At muli't muling Nyang asambitin ang mga katagang: Mahal Kita. Kahit ano pangsabihin ng mundo sayo, kahit ano pang sabihin mo sa sarili mo, at kahit lumayo ka...

MAHAL KITA.

Tiwala. Laban. Kaya.

OPM is 😭😭😭

Sa kabila ng kasalanan ko
Tinanggap mo ako
Nakaraa'y kinalimutan mo
Ngayon ako'y sa'yo, sa'yo, sa'yo, sa'yo 

Niyakap mong mahigpit palapit sa'yo
Wala na ngang hihigit sa pag-ibig mo
Binawi mong lahat ng luha't kalungkutan sa aking puso 

Inakala kong ika'y napagod, lahat ay tinapos na
Kahit ginawa kang pansamantala iniwang mag-isa
Hayaan mong lahat ay maituwid ko 

Dahil sa pag-ibig mo hindi magbabago
Pinatawad ang lahat ng kasalanan ko
Dahil sa pag-ibig mo hindi mapapagod   

Ex - Callalily ft. Yeng 

 LOOOOOOORRRDDDDDD 😭😍😭😍😭😍😭🌼🔥

When Agsunta sang, "Unti-unting bubuoin ang pag-ibig na nawalay sa'kin. Iingatan na ang puso ko sa sakit na dala ng mundo. Babangon na ako sa pagkahimlay at daldalhin ang pag-asang Ikaw ang nagbigay. " I felt that bruh.

Comeback is real. 

We might find a place in this world someday, but at least for now, I gotta go my own way.

Let go of the life you wanted.

Don't be a perfectionist.
Let go of control.
Get over it.

Grace for every race.

You give and worship because God is worthy of it, not because you can give and worship. He is

You are my goodness; I am your punishment. You assumed everything I deserved and was, so I can receive everything you deserve and are. I'm rich. I'm adopted into the family of God. I have an imperishable inheritance. I'm going to shine like the stars in the kingdom of my Father. Even now. his holy power and joy has come into my life through the Holy Spirit, and it has begun to grow, and it will eventually swallow up all of my foolishness and all of my sadness and all of my weakness. I am rich..."

That is why the measurement of our devotion, lordship, love for the Lord, is not based on the things that we can actually do, but with what we can let go. Because He lived a perfect life, died a perfect death and resurrected, not to live or do all that He did because it is impossible, but for His righteousness to be upon us... So that we can be loved, accepted, and taken care of by God just like He was with Jesus.

So if Jesus is truly your treasure, He shall be incomparable and irreplaceable.

He doesn't take anything away, but we give it back to Him. 

Because He is worthy of it all.

If you want to be free and love, forgive and be healed.

She traded her heart's desire for God's will.

Because she knows God loves her.  
Because she trusts that God is good to her. 
Because she stands to be His beloved daughter.

There's nothing to prove or compare. 
Nothing broken, nothing missing. 
All for His glory. Holy, holy, holy!

And as she surrenders, 
she is strengthened, 
satisfied, safe and secured. 

These tears that I'm crying now are for you to be with me.

Or not. 

But God says, "Get alone with me and wrestle, get alone with me and wrestle there and you will find out who you really are. He went from operating and strategy, to walking his identity. You know, in some of my wresting seasons with God, He's spoken and given me clues and hints as to what He has or where He is going. But He never tells me the whole story because He is a good story teller. So he leaves the best bits for me to discover. - Brooke Fraser

Loooorrrdddd 😭😭😭

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
My words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.

Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light;
You're safe, no one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.

Jesus, the greatest name I know!

Be patient. The most beautiful and best things take time. Eyes fixed on Jesus. Remain in the vine. And wait upon the Lord.

Mercy in fullest form Loving kindness forevermore Prince of Heaven Jesus, Hope of the world

Remember who you are...

Pinaglalaban ka.
Pinapanalangin ka.
Hinihintay ka.
Pinaghahandaan ka. 

Worth it ka! 👑
(via Twitter: Wildfire) 

Because if it is Christ-centered there is joy, peace, passion and love that never runs out. That's when loving translates to giving and serving, never sucking and demanding. Also marriage becomes what truly it is - beautiful. - Jeff Ibanez

Wonder why weddings are beautiful? 

Because it never fail to show the unconditional love and undying commitment of Christ towards us. 

Jesus as the groom and the we, the church, as His bride.

"I love to pursue her." #itanongmokayAyuban

Wow Lord! Just wow. You can't do this if you haven't experience God's relentless pursuit of man. All the while, our seeking of Him reveals His pursuit for us. 😍😍😍

If it can't wait, it's not love.

Have faith in love.

"Ganun din si God, parang... Saktan mo Sha ng saktan... Talikuran mo Sha... Di mo Sha ichochoose... Tingnan mo lang si God, sayang saya na Sha. Gusto Nyang alam mo na mahal ka pa rin Nya... Na walang nag-iba... Parang hindi mo Sha iniwan, parang di mo Sha sinaktan... Ganun si God... Yung faith na kaya parin pala akong mahalin kahit ganun na... Kahit ganun pako nagfail, nagkamali, ganun ko Sha sinaktan... Kayang kaya, pwedeng pwede parin akong mahalin pala... And I know that he learned it from God kasi, ganun si God sa kanya."

"Thank you for doing it right. Thank you for showing me how it feels right to be pursued in a way that honors God. To be celebrated and fought for, for no question. And to be loved unconditionally. Today this is my confidence, you were the man I asked God for. I'm finally home."

Someday, I know God will give me a bestfriend, just like how He gave Jesus to me. Until then, I will always be thankful to Jesus for keeping, holding and loving me, and for being the Greatest Bestfriend I'll always have.

Since my obedience matters to Him, then it's all that matters to me.

"I will quiet you by My love."

And my heart stopped beating...

By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises was in the act of offering up his only son, (Hebrews. 11:17)

Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son. (Genesis 22:10)

All will be alright in time. 🎶

And when finally I reached the end, I'll say, You are worth it all. 🌼

Laban, laban lang, laban pa. 

Tiwala, tiwala lang, tiwala pa. 

I'll be holding back the darkest night.

How to be "normal'? 🤔

When u bored, u curiouscat or ask.fm. Quite fun.