day fifty four

Hi Lord,

Today's another tear-full day. There are things that I still don't understand, things that I don't know, things that I just wanna quit on. But still, thank you for being faithful... for still meeting me even if I turn a blind eye or close my ears from the things that You are showing and telling me.

"Sometimes, you just have to choose yourself and God. Before others. God understands. God will lead you to them, eventually in His time."

Thank you for the comfort. Thank you for hearing me out. Thank you for unearthing all the fears, frustrations and failures that I feel. All at the same time, it numbs and shuts me out. But Lord, you are holding me. Thank you for quieting everything. Thank you for keeping me still. Thank you that all, even my consequences, are leading me closer to you.

I don't bring much this season to you. You see, I'm all broken and shut down. I can't open my mouth. I can't think well. But God, here's my life. Rather than choosing it away, I offer it to you. I know that for how many times, you have heard this from me, and you still take me anyway. And I let go. Let your will be done. Everyday is still kind'a painful for this new normal, but "Whatever happens will be wonderful."

Lord, I'm holding on to Your promises to me, that I will see Your goodness in the land of the living. Help me get through this. I will take this path as you lead and take me by the hand. I will not be afraid. It might be painful for a season but your glory will be revealed through it all. "The Lord gives, the Lord takes away. Blessed be Your name, forever!"

God, help me continue this battle. Help me trust in Your Word. Help me love Your people deeper. Create in me a pure heart and renew a right spirit in me. Help me trust in You and lean not in my own understanding. Help me hold on to you more and more. Lord, give me wisdom that I may know that path you are leading me and how to make decisions. Help me process things, God. Help me think safely in the mind.

Lord, I pray for Tin, Alison, James, Mixon, Edel and Janced.

May their desires be granted. May you give them peace as they patiently wait for You.

Bless the works of their hands and protect them in Your loving kindness.

May Your Spirit empower them to be influencers amongst their crowd, their generation.

Let your steadfast love and goodness and faithfulness steady their confidence in You.

Thank you for their lives, O God.

Continually set them free in Your love.

In Jesus' name.

Lord, I pray for Clarisse.

Meet her in her desperation to keep Your commands God.

Speak and encourage her with Your promises.

Give her a good rest tonight God and satisfy her with Your love.

May she find peace in the midst of the pressing desires and rush from the world.

God, have mercy on us. We cried for help and you healed us.

Inside and out, take over.

We surrender it all to you.

We thank you God, for you are good and faithful.

We continue to hold on to You.

We will wait.

We will wait on You.

And as we do, you shall raise us and make us soar like wings like eagles.

We shall walk and not grow tired.

We shall run and not faint.

And I pray for Earl.

Strengthen him. Hold him. Embrace Him. 

Refresh him everyday.

Make him taste and see your faithfulness and goodness!

The Lord God is in his midst, The Mighty One who saves

You rejoice over him with gladness

You quiet him by His love

And You rejoice over Him with loud singing

Surround him with Your favor

Let Your Spirit make him a warrior

and a king You have chosen for Your own.

Thank you, Lord.

Remain unchallenged in our hearts.

You are still enthroned in our hearts.

In Jesus' mighty name.

Amen.

Amazing grace abounds.

I'll wave goodbye, watching you shine bright. 🎶

The best is yet to come 🎶

In every season

You're grace has been enough

And I'm believing

The best is yet to come

The cross before me

My hope on things above

And in You, Jesus

The best is yet to come

I know breakthrough is coming

By faith I see a miracle

My God made me a promise

And it won't stop now

day fifty three

I'm falling

Falling at my knees

At Your feet

I surrender 🎶 

Lord Jesus, thank you for today.

Thank you for waking me up. 

Thank you for feeding me. 

Thank you for my family. 

Thank you for protecting them.

Thank you for keeping us safe by night. 

May you bless the works of our hands

and the words of our mouth

May you bless our hearts

that we may overflow with kindness

Lord, bless Ging's marriage

Help her and Aldrin keep it with You

Help them in raising Cara

Guide them in their plans for life. 

Bless May's studies. 

I pray that You keep her 

and her future

from all harm

I pray that you bless her

May You make her dreams come true

Lead her into the best of everything in this life. 

Lord, help me be a sister to them. 

And Lord, help me be a daughter to Nanay and Tatay.

Bless them with good health. 

Bless them with for raising us

and keeping us alive

Thank you for outsourcing them to be our parents. 

May you make them the happiest, God.

Believing and declaring for that day, 

when we will praise and worship You

in Spirit and in Truth. 

Lord, I listened to my prophecy last February

and there are still things that I do not understand

I don't know if it's that the reason why I don't wanna listen to it

Or I just can't seem to fathom how it will happen

You see, I only pray for everything to be okay

bet it's the simplest out there, eh? 

But why does it still seem to be so far?

Lord, you know that I'm risking all my faith, my hope, all that I am

for that very one day

And some days, days like these, it just hurts like hell

To continue

To trust

To surrender

To believe

And as slowly as everything is being taken away

I found myself to be alone with You

with You

alone

but not lonely

it discards my pretend strength

it discredits my longing about everything

it desires nothing but You

Then it makes me realize how small my faith could be

for a simple prayer

for that one single day

was it fear that is keeps me wanting for more?

So now, I wait for that

"I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living" 

not just for a day,

but while I'm living

and even if not, 

eternity awaits. 

Where there will be

no more

pain, 

sickness, 

brokenness.

His glory in the heavens

blesses the earth. 

And we share in His glory

by virtue of Christ Jesus,

by as we live

we get the pursuing beauty

of the Lord's

leading, protection and provision. 

From sunrise to sunset,

From midnight to breaking of dawn, 

He lights everyone He calls His own

It covers even the deepest of the seas

and reaches the very corners of the earth

For darkness is still light to Him

His eyes are set for His chosen

No more hiding

No more shame

No more guilt

His voice is the mightiest

His voice gives rest

His voice is the gentlest

His voice is found in stillness

Your Presence is an open door

We want You, Lord, like never before

Your Presence is an open door

So come now, Lord, like never before 🎶 

Lord, you command the angels to stand watch over me.

The irony of fear

Fear will make you think a lot, 
but it will also make you have strong guts. 

Fear will make you paralyze,
but it will not keep the heart from beating to fight. 

Fear will make you feel less, 

but it will also lead you into the stillness. 

Fear will make you surrender, 

but it will not keep you to go further. 

"Fear doesn't shut you down; it wakes you up."
Fear bends. 
Fear also trembles. 
Fear can't control you. 
Fear knows where it belongs, and not in you. 

"Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God." - Psalm. 42:5(b)

day fifty two

Thank you, Jesus for today

Thank you for being

so, so good and kind

to me

to my family

to my loved ones

Your goodness, Lord

it never ceases

Your steadfastlove

has become

Our Cornerstone

Our Rock

Our Fortress

Your goodness

leads us to Your pasture

where streams of water

the river of life is found

where trees bear fruit

in and out of season

where even in the wilderness

in our rest, in the unlikely

You make us grow

You make us flourish

You never stop blessing

You never stop providing

You never stop leading

You never stop protecting

Not for a minute

we are forsaken

You are a Generous Giver

Your mercy overflows

Your grace fills our lives

New and fresh every morning

Jesus, be glorified!

May You open our eyes to see You, God

May Your strong love hold our weakened hearts

Our hands lifted up in surrender

Our knees are found at the foot of the cross

Lord, you will never let us run dry

You renew us as we wait on You

You rise up our dry souls to live

You remain and called us forgiven

You restore the joy of our salvation

You redeem and call us worthy

God, let us sing of Your goodness

let us sing of Your faithfulness

Even in the valley of shadow of death

We will fear no evil, for You are with us

Surely goodness and mercy

shall satisfy us all the days of our lives

And we will dwell in You forever

Your Spirit in dwells with us henceforth

Lord, I pray for Earl. 

Mmm. I know he's not that okay, 

I don't know what pains him right now. 

But I know you know. 

Fight for him, God. 

Give him courage and hope.

Hold his hand. 

Sing over him your joy and love

You're not letting him go. 

As he faces today's reality, 

strengthen his core being. 
May you give him the opportunity
to work or study (whatever it is, wherever it may be, lead him, God) 
to provide for his family
to pay his debts
to work on his dreams
to enjoy himself the fruit of a hardwork

He is a conqueror

He is a mighty worshipper

His beats come from You

May this season serve him

Your very best purpose 

and wonderful pursuit

Make his light shine before others

Lord, I pray for BJ

Overtake her with your love

Overwhelm her with your

wonderful grace

Let her sing within her 

your goodness

your faithfulness

your strength 

that holds us

and keeps us

still and know that You are God

I pray that you heal

whatever is hurting her

I pray that you take her

in the middle of what's confusing her

I pray that you continually

give her wisdom and grace
as she pursues her studies
as she pursues her dreams
as she becomes the woman You want her to be

as she remains in you
as she rests in You

She doesn't need to fear anymore, 

for You have come and spoken, 

All things work together for good, 

to those who love God. 

Lord, I pray for Tinay

I pray that you continually

overflow your joy in her life

May your love continually speak

louder and confidently in her life

I pray that you grant her 

the desires of her heart

I pray that you protect her emotions

I pray that you nourish her wisdom

Radiate more and more

your delight for your children

in her life

Her stillness before You 

will make her trust You better

will make her and her soul be fully satisfied

For in Your Presence, there is fullness of joy

Lord, I pray for Rachel
May You protect her from
all forms of evil that torments
and keeps her faith away from You
Lord, have mercy on Your daughter
Send your angels to fight over her
every day and every night
from her dreams and even as she works
wherever she goes and whoever she's with
Please cover her with Your blood
She is forgiven
She is set free
She is favored
She is chosen
She is blesses he doesn't need to strive anymore
May her life continually bring people to You
Provide for her, O God
May you able her to provide for debts
May she become a blessing as she desires
May she be able to provide for her family
May she become a living testimony
of Your divine Providence
of Your goodness
of Your faithfulness
of Your pursuing love for us

Lord, I pray for Junjun
I pray that you bless the works of his hands
I pray that you continually lead him to Your will
I pray that you continually anoint him to Your calling
I pray that you help him and his company, God
Protect their livelihood and the workers
from the destruction the the enemy is working on
God make your people fruitful in the land where You have led them
God, I pray that you help Junjun in knowing You better
and in making himself better with confidence coming from You
Thank you for answering his prayers
Thank you for taking him deeper
Thank you because his humility will take him further and deeper to You

Lord, I pray for Eugene
May you guide him in his decisions, God
May you send people to lead him to Your will
May you continually Burn his desire to serve You
May He never lost His love and passion for You
I pray that You provide for him and his family 
I pray that You help him with the issues that keep Him
from getting better in working for Your glory
May his life continually be a testimony of
obedience
favor
blessing
and
surrender. 
Keep him always to your good will, God. 

Lord, You are making us grow
You are making us flourish even in this midst of crisis
You are with us
You are for us
You are within us

One day, we will be celebrating your faithfulness and goodness. 
One day, we will be in Your house, fullhouse praising and worshipping You. 
One day, there will be no more tears, pain and brokenness. 
One day our joy will be full. 

Thank you, Jesus. 
Amen and amen. 

day fifty one

Jesus, thank You for today.
Thank you for the gift of friendship.
Thank you for the gift of relationship.
Thank you for the wisdom to start business.

Lord, I thank you for proving our needs in the family. 
I thank you for enabling us to work on the dream you had in our hearts. 
Slowly but surely, you have made it possible.
I pray for favor for every transaction that we will be dealing in the legalities. 
I pray for blessing with every account we will be having.
Lord, from beginning to end, the glory belongs to you. 
I pray for protection for our family; that pride nor riches won't break our faith in You
But this will be an altar, a remembrance how You have provided for us the midst of crisis
And you will continue to be faithful and good until the end of time.
It may be small, but we still thank You because You gave us a beginning. 

And Lord, I pray that this crisis will make the best of Your people.
I pray that you birth awakening in faith, hope, dreams and breakthroughs.
I pray that You come through in every area of our life that our joy may be full. 
I pray that You heal our anxieties; that You help and provide for us in times of need. 
Your works makes us joyful; Your wonders and glory makes us feel pursued.
We are not be worthy of Your unconditional love, but God you continously give it.
Siksik, liglig, umaapaw. There's nothing good you withhold from us.

As you continue to prepare for us for Heaven,
for what is eternal, what will last forever, 
no more pain, sickness or brokenness, 
but where Your steadfast love, goodness and faithfulness
where Your glory will remain.
I pray that You lead us, protect and provide us in this lifetime.
Be our Father 
Be our Shepherd
Be our King
Our joy is found in You. 
May we continually and uncondotionally
serve and love one another as Jesus taught us.
Help us trust You 
Help us wait in You
Help us be expectant in You
Help us be reminded that You are our Source 
and there's nothing else, no one else
Help us be pure in thoughts and actions
Let Your Spirit ignite in us, Lord, that we may delight in Your commands
Help us remain in You, 
Give us a heart with full and deep remembrance 
of Your love, faithfulness and goodness to us

You are great and good
You are God
You can do all things, but fail
You are gracious and merciful
You hear our prayers
You are all knowing
You are our final authority
You are sovereign
You are powerful
You see everything
You are the Lord of all seasons
The God of break throughs

Grant us fear of the Lord 
that we may have wisdom 
that we may follow Your lead
And that we may be able to
preserve a generation who will
love, serve and remain in You
with all their heart, mind and soul

May you send your angels to win fight the battles of Your children, God. 
We claim what You have prepared for us to be accomplished in our lives. 
Dreams, hopes, visions, missions - may You will be done. 

All this I pray, 
in Jesus' name,
Amen and amen. 

"So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you. In that day you will ask nothing of me. Truly, truly, I say to you, whatever you ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you. Until now you have asked nothing in my name. Ask, and you will receive, that you joy may be full." - John 16:22-24

day fifty

Thank you, Jesus for today. 
Thank you for waking me up. 
Thank you for a time well spent with you. 

Lord, I thank you for reminding me
that it's all about You.
It's because of You
that I am, 
I am can.
Thank you for your grace
that demands nothing. 
Thank you for your Spirit
that enlightens us of Your good will
that stimulates our emotions a desire to do Your will
and that enables to have the power to do Your will.

God, a lot of times I'm not secured of my relationship with you. 
I realized that I was competing myself with everybody else, 
I was thinking of being replaced if I'm not doing my job well. 
I am afraid that one day, You will get tired and leave me alone.
You see, You're the only One that I have 
and I don't know what to do without You.

They say that this quarantine season exposes our inner being,
and I could not just agree any less.
My anxieties, 
My rebellion, 
My stubbornness, 
My fearful heart. 
My performance tried to matter again more than Your Presence.

God, thank you for reminding me through Your Word in Psalm 92
that though palm trees are in the desert, they still flourish
that cedars, together with other cedars grow, even in the desert
that even in Sabbath, desert, or wilderness, 
You are with us, You lead and You make us flourish and not perish

Thank you for Your command in Psalm 46 that brings comfort
Thank you for You are our refuge where we can run for safety and provision
Thank you for You are our rescue, our very present help in times ouf trouble
Thank you for You are our rest, Your Sovereignty that takes responsibility
All the good and the bad, I know You have it all under Your control
For You are God
You are good
And You are good at being God

I pray, O Lord that You open my eyes of faith
that I may see Your angels, chariots and horses of fire
battle for us, Your people even we're in the midst of a crisis
That I may continually live secured and with peace
God I pray that You still our hearts knowing who You are
May we continually know You deeper in this season
that we may depend and trust you more and more.

Thank you Jesus for Your steadfast love and faithfulness. 
All the glory and honor belongs to You
And all this I pray, in Jesus' mighty name. 
Amen and amen. 

day forty nine

The most important thing at the end of the day is our connection with God.

The other night, Ate Ciara checked on me and told her I'm tired. I wanna have a break in between of the new normal but I seem to be caught up in it. I was thinking "sayang ang oras" ... I was thinking "baka pagod din sila like me, so I have to endure a little more"... I was thinking "Lord, pwede one day na wala ko ginaserve?" I was thinking "Baka I have to go back exercising kasi anxiety attacks again or baka kasi I haven't drinking my med"... I was enduring kasi I'm just confident God is on my side. Little did I know, I got a little far off from where He is na. Then Ate Ciara told me, "My time with God is still the most important than anything else."

Then I realized, it seems I don't know to receive anymore... but I want too... because I need to. I have to live well for the next generation... I want to drop off everything. I hope for someone to be with me in my highs and lows... Someone I can run to, I can pour our with anything and everything with our hesitations... Someone strong I can lean on... 

You see, there's a fault here.

When God calls you, He calls you for Himself alone.

You and Him, before others.

No future to consider. 

No past to resent. 

Just today, this moment, you and Me.

This is what it means to be a child.

You have been watching Cara, right? 

You cherish her. 

You delight at the memory of her. 

You want nothing but the best for her. 

You feed her. 

You love her. 

You keep her safe. 

You talk to her even late at night. 

You make sure she sleeps properly. 

You love checking on her. 

And you just love being with her.

That's what I want to do to you.

No pressure. 

I just want you to listen over me.

My love is not too hard to understand. 

Yes, it is strong, steadfast and relentless. 

Yet is still, gentle and true. 

I don't want you to rush.

I don't want you to receive for others, to get better. 

I want to lavish it to you because I love you. 

With nothing else to gain, with nothing else to give, 

With nothing else in exchange, with nothing else to expect. 

And this is why I pledge my allegiance fully to You. 

This is why there's nothing, no one compares to You.

Your Presence there is fullness, forgiveness, faithfulness. 

Forgive me Lord thinking I can ebb and flow alone. 

Forgive me Lord for thinking I'll be satisfied with someone else. 

Forgive me Lord for thinking your love is found in what I do. 

To my King

To my Lord

Jesus

Thank you. 

Thank you. 

Thank you 3000. 😭

Your grace leads home. Always. 

"What Satan put into the heads of our remote ancestors was the idea that they could 'be like gods' could set up on their own as if they had created themselves - be their own masters, invent some sort of happiness for themselves outside God, apart from God. And out of that hopeless attempt has come nearly all that we call human history money, poverty, ambition, war, prostitution, classes, empires, slavery the long terrible story of man trying to find something other than God which will make him happy." C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

"The journey of faith, the path to spiritual wholeness, lies in our increasingly faithful response to the One whose purpose shapes our path, whose grace redeems our detours, whose power liberates us from the crippling bondages of our previous journey, and whose transforming presence meets us at each turn in our road." - M. Robert Mulholland, Jr., Invitation to a Journey

"If God answered the prayers you've been praying, would it change anyone else's world but your own? How much of God's miraculous power are we unable to experience because we never pray prayers that are bigger than us?"

God never lost a battle; He never waste any battle.

"Those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." - Isaiah 40:31

Because we serve a God who turns impossible into living, breathing, walking miracles. 🎶

Why do I cry with anything, with everything?!

What am I doing?

I thought you could just have a bad day, not a bad night.

The failure of the next generation to understand of the gospel is because of our partiality in sharing in purity, integrity and compassion.

Japan: A dream that remained through the years. And the one I won't let go, I think. Hahaha. See you soonest, love.

day forty eight

GOOD MEMORIES HEREINFORTH

"You are the the colors in one, at full brightness." - All the bright places

"He taught me to wander."

"I used to be worried about everything. 
Things that seemed meaningful were actually meaningless. 
I worried about life. 
I worried about what would happen if I let myself feel again. 
I thought I didn't deserve to. 

Then without really knowing, I changed.

I wasn't worried about what would happen if I lived. 
I was worried about what would happen if I didn't. 
What I would miss.
I worried about not remembering. 
Not remembering all of the moments... 
all of the places...
and that's because of Finch. 

Because He taught me to wander. 
He taught me that you don't have to climb a mountain to stand on the top of the world. 
That even the ugliest places can be beautiful, as long as you take the time to look. 
That it's okay to be lost, as long as you find your way back.

But in learning all of that, I missed something more important...

seeing Finch. 

I missed that he was in pain. 
I missed that he was teaching me all along how to move on. 
Finch was the dreamer. 
He dreamt while he was awake. 
He dreamt of all the beauty in the world, 
and he made it come to life. 

Finch taught me that there's beauty in the most unexpected places. 
And there are bright places, even in dark times. 
And if there isn't, 
you can be that bright place...
with infinite capacities. 

- Violet Markey, All the bright places

"I feel a thousand capacities spring up in me." - Virginia Wolf

day forty seven

Lord, thank you for the gift of mothers!!

Thank you because they were your first vessels of unconditional love to us. 

Thank you for the beautiful lives of Nanay, Ging, Lola and Titas.

I pray that you continually give them good health.

I pray that you grant them good health. 

I pray that you bless that you bless the works of their hands.

I pray that you bless their hearts to serve, to give, to care. 

I pray that you give them rest and peace ever single day. 

May you speak to them everyday of Your love for them.

I pray for their hearts to receive you, Jesus. 

Thank you for your unending grace to them, for us. 

I also pray for my spiritual mothers and future mothers. 

I pray that you guide them in your gracious goodness. 

I pray that in every season, they spend great time with you. 

I pray that they will never lose friendships to talk with 

and help them through difficult or hard days.

I pray that you continually preserve you beloved, God.

We may be wired differently, but we have our fullness, 

indentity and security in You alone, Jesus.

Thank you because you will fill, satisfy and overflow. 

Thank you because you are our protector and comforter.

Lord, I pray that you grant the desires of these ladies. 

It is my deepest prayer to see them the beautifully glorifying you.

I pray for Sir Ravi, 

Lord let your will be done. 

I pray that you comfort him and his family. 

You have brought a wonderful life in this world, 

and we thank you God for His life. 

I pray that you continue His legacy God

of helping other people be free through your truth

May your goodness be upon him

May you be glorified with his life

Lord, keep him safe in your loving arms

Continually believig for a miracle, God 😭🙏🍂

Thank you, Jesus!!

Amen and Amen. 

Sometimes, I get this pressure to always act wisely and maturely... to be a pure breed of sunshine yet still holy. So it's always a mystery to me how I always end up breaking my own pressure and just... be free. That kind of freedom that you see in growing toddlers. The freedom to trust and enjoy and run wildly, without knowing what's pain, anxiety and depression... But life is really full of ironies... That one place you're afraid of, is the same place that will set you free. Relationship, that is. A safe place to stay, to hide, to heal. I'm not saying I'm good with my relationships, rather I am trying my best because I want it better for others to camp in. I'm sharing this because it's still a struggle for me to trust others, that it wasn't easy to receive from other just to get better. But atleast I tried, and that I know that one day, I'll be be able to help others thru this too. So yes, if we wanna get better and better for the future and for those we love, we have to God in the relationships He placed in our lives. We have to trust those relationships, too. Both points are different, but very essential. So let's Honor and bless them no matter what, because God will always keep us and will be forever good to us. 😊

The importance of making peace with the past... #HulingElBimbo

The only proof that I need is you 🎶

And I believe, I'll see you do it again.

Let the mountains bear prosperity for the people, and hills, in righteousness! - Psalm 72:3

sow sparingly, reap sparingly

Kasalanan bang humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala? 🎶

Humility comes before honor.

day forty six

Thank you for today, Jesus!

Thank you for the gift of sisters at the office.

I pray that you continue to protect Cheeza and the baby.

I pray thay you continually bless Langlang and Mira Jean. 

I pray thay you continually guide Maam Agness, Sir Drew and Sir Gesem. 

Thank you for GSCWD. 

Thank you for my work. 

I pray that you continually protect and bless our office.

I pray that you enlighten everyone of your goodness and faithfulness through this office.

Thank you for using the office as your helping means to your people. 

Thank you for Shemaiah. 

Thank you because her delight is in you. 

Thank you because she's learning to speak up for you. 

Continue to use her mightily in your kingdom. 

Thank you for Lingling. 

Thank you because you are speaking and guiding her. 

Thank you because her obedient her will lead her closer to you. 

Make her radiate even more and let your joy be invincible in her life. 

Thank you for Gee Ann

Thank you for making her grow.

Thank you for making her breakthrough.

Thank you because she will influence greatly in this season you have called out for her.

Thank you for Clarisse

Thank you for protecting her. 

Thank you for taking good care of her heart and soul. 

Thank you because she will become a refined amd genuine diamond for you. 

Thank you for Gina

Thank you for satisfying her, God. And I bless you for blessing her greatly.

Thank you for comforting her and leading her always. 

I pray that you quench her loneliness in her belongingness to You. 

Thank you for Shaira

Thank you for because your glory is shown upon her life. 

God I pray thay you would always meet her in her mind. 

I pray that you continually bless the works of her hands. 

Lord, thank you for the life of the ladies. 

Thank you for making them grow. 

Thank yiu for pursuing them. 

Thank you for making them choose you. 

Thank you because there's nothing I can boast. 

Thank you because it's not all up to me. 

Thank you because you allowed me to journey with them.

Continue to bring favor and protection in their lives, God. 

Continue to heal them. 

Continue to make their dreams come true. 

Continue to make them home. 

Continue to reign in their hearts. 

To our King 👑 

You are glorious

You are good

You are faithful

You are holy

We surrender everything to you, Jesus. 

You deserve it all. You deserve our all. 

In Christ name, Amen. 

Please don't be afraid to hurt me if it's making things right at your end. Don't pity me. I know. I understand. And I appreciate it very much. 😊

And the salt in my wounds isn't burning anymore than it used to
It's not that I don't feel the pain it's just that I'm not afraid of hurting anymore 🎶 

day forty five

Thank you Jesus for today!
It wasn't how I presumed it to be, and so thank God! It's is good!

Lord, thank you for the life of Arej.
I know that your love is mighty for her.
Continue to anoint her with your love and conviction.

Lord, thank you for BJ.
Indeed she's one of your excellent creation manifested.
I pray that you continue to uphold her in your grace.
Be with her always as she continuously pour her heart to you.

Lord, thank you for the life of Tinay.
Thank you for the joy that just overflows within her.
Continue to satisfy and take her hand in your garden.

Lord, thank you for the life of Alison.
Thank you because the your anointing for her is deep and not cheap.
May she continually discover your beauty and grace just for her.
I pray that she will be healed from her trust issues.
I pray that she will not fear anymore.
I pray that she will not hide anymore.
I pray that she will hears and finds you calling and waiting for her.
I pray that you speak to her every day day, every night of your delight for her.

Lord, thank you for the life of Jeff.
I pray that you continue to shepherd him
I pray that you continuously father him.

Lord, thank you for the life of Ate Ciara.
I pray that you continually bless her sphere of influence.
I pray that you will use her mightily upon gathering and speaking to your sheepfold.
I pray that you grant the desires of her heart, O God.
I pray that you strengthen her heart always as she walks with your Spirit.

Lord, I pray for for the life of Rachel.
I pray for her faith to rise as she continuously submits her desires to you.
I pray that you protect her from lies and the schemes of the enemy to destroy her confidence in you.
I pray that you destroy and breakthrough from all that goes against your will for her.

Lord, I thank you for the life of Earl.
Wipe his tears away.
Fight for him.

Lord, I pray for Aya.
I don't know what she's going through, but I hope she comes home to You.
I don't know what to do too, so help me God reach out to her.

And all honor and glory and praises, belongs to you, Jesus.
Amen.

"You're okay, Rau."

Rau, it's ok to make mistakes. It's ok if sometimes we hurt the people around us if its an honest mistake or from a rebuke... anything that can better a person. I think, as long as we know the necessary reconciliation, then it's gonna be fine. Trust your relationships. It's not shallow. Sometimes, we just have to dicern if we have to reach out or leave things to be. Talking to people directly involved in the issue can give you wisdom how to act accordingly. Or you can talk to some people you trust, and just ask them to just hear you out. Don't keep your thoughts alone. Else, you'll really die early. And you don't want that. Loneliness reduces human life by 14%, remember? You wanna live longer to serve, right? You still wanna live to love? So please, Rau, take care of yourself. Take care of your mind. As good as God is, His people are too. They can be trusted. They are safe. They are for you. They are not against you. They can handle themselves even if you can't handle yours anymore... That's why they are there, sent for you. They come from God. It's not only Jesus you can rely on. You have your family. You have your friends. They are all sent by God for you, to help you. Let them laugh with you. Let them cry with you, for you. 

Mistakes? Failures? Fear? Pain? One day, everything will just be redeemed. And no more tears to shed. And even as you wait for this day, know that in Christ Jesus forgiveness and healing is available as possible and necessary. No matter how many times. No matter how deep. No matter what it is. He will never run out. His loving kindness is unending. And His throne of grace is available to you, child. Anytime.

You are a child, Rau, before anything else. 
His beloved child. 

"It might be natural to feel demoralized and defeated after your failure, BUT YOU CANNOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BECOME CONVICED THAT YOU WILL CAN'T SUCCEED."

everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine. everything is fine.

"you're a child, Rau, not a servant." Arej & Jeff, y u do dis 😭😭😭

if ever you get sad or weak, get some sunlight. but if it's gloomy out there, learn to dance in the rain.

emotions may help us process things, but should not lead us in making decisions. emotions are friends tho, and not a mortal sin. still we have to be careful, becuase although it is natural in us, it still doesn't nullify the fact that once you let it control you, it is hasty and a very nasty master.

Our righteousness in the Lord, is Jesus fulfilling the law. And this is how it works... God sees us holy because He sees Christ holiness in us. We are forgiven because Jesus died for us. And all His promises are a Yes, in Christ Jesus. This is all complete, so our works has no place in earning God's love and grace. Isn't it just amazing? And that's why faith matters, because this is where our anchor (confident assurance) must be, in the finished work of Jesus. Else, we will be living the rest of our lives trying to figure out everything and striving, instead of thriving and enjoying. One thing to help our faith in the midst if shaking is to process it in the atmosphere of hope. The hope that in God all things work together for good, for those who love Him. And we can trust Him in the waiting, as we endure and persevere, because He is good no matter what. 😁✨🌼

yea, it's like that. people don't wanna talk about it, not because they're bitter or sad but because some memories still hurts. Healing is still having its way.