Thought experiment?

You said there's something
You see in the soul
That seems magical
It attracts you to come close

And you dove in the risk
I wonder if I was worth it
A risk you took as an experiment
The risk you took advantage

You're the smart kind'a of a jerk
But too selfish to celebrate
A fool to love himself
You never really cared

How well were those words
Constructed to sound like birds
The world revolved in music
Or so I think

But recently you were consuming
Ignoring the fact you will fall
I took the between to be cool
Believed boundary's still my tool

So I decided to make it right
Afraid of my resolve to fight
It begun with frienship
All hopes it's worth keeping

To protect you means
To protect me
I stepped out from
Where we're in

I'm sorry if I have to do it
I'm sorry if I have to let go
I'm sorry if I won't believe
I'm sorry if I have to choose this

You might be cool about it
But I'm not
You might be cool about it
But I hope you're not

I want you to know
That you are amazing
You are a genuine talent
A brilliant reflection of Him

And now
Everything is said and done
The decision is handed down
May you enjoy the crown

I'm broken to tell goodbye
You don't care, You won't protect
So I'll be the one to take steps aback
This is fine, I will be fine

I hate goodbyes
But I also hate what you do
I hate goodbyes
But I think this is the best for you

PS. You made yourself your paradox to me.