It's sad to feel sad.

Really, why do I feel this way? This feeling has been bugging me since yesterday. I can't say if I'm just tired from all of the activities yesterday or I'm just sad from the pressure of the world.

You see, I have this friend who asked me why do I feel so indifferent when it comes to topic about romantic relationships. He speculated that I am still hooked up with my past relationship and that kind'a offended me. I mean, just because I am not entertaining even a drop of romantic relationship in the scene, I am still hooked up with my past relationship? Gimme a break! Can't it be just because I have decided it myself to never do the same mistake all over again - waking up love when it's not yet time? You see, if I must tell you, I have been chasing love back then and because it's not yet ripen when I started to consume it, and it tasted bitter-sweet. I am not bitter nor I am not anymore hooked up with my past. I have just decided myself that there's still things available for me to achieve, to see, to enjoy which I won't be able to when I get tangled already - and of course, that's already a different story. Well what I am saying is that, my priorities are already set. I can't let it distract me when I know it's not yet time. Beside, if it's really time, it can wait - romance under the moonlit can will always come with chances always bigger and brighter. I am not enforcing this principle that I am currently standing nor imposing that this is what's better. I am fully aware that we always have a different calling, different visions, missions and priorities. Thus, this is what I have decided. If it comes to you early, then probably it's your time and not mine. We might not understand each other when it comes to this kind of matter but what's great about it is that, you who have decided to meet destiny makes me aware of the things about it and I who is still waiting will be someone who could be counted to have a role of guarding destiny's intimacy. That's the irony of life. It might be painful, but it's always beautiful in it's own way.

Anyway, God is my portion. He is all that I need. Nothing more, nothing less. There's nothing to prove to the world. God is enough. He's got purpose to each one. And that's greater than we could want to feel.