To Rau,

I know how hard your mind battle is, dear. I know how hard it is to fight to never lose your focus, heart and purpose. And I know how you always breakdown because of certain mistakes and never forgive yourself.

But I want you to understand that you are amazing. That you never have to be hard on yourself. I wish for you to be more confident in what you do. I wish for you to never doubt everything that you wanted to do. I wish that you would always go all out to all the things that you love. 

You never have to pretend that everything is alright when the truth is everything is breaking, falling apart. You never have to pretend to be strong. You never have to keep all goody shoes all the time. 

When Jesus saw you at the cross, he didn't see who you are of a moment. He saw it all - everything about you. He saw your struggles and pain. He saw what you can become. He saw your doubt and mishaps. He saw the completion of God's purposes in your life. He envisioned you living a life abundant - full of love, peace and joy. A woman clothed in strength and dignity. Favored. Blessed.

Some of us don't consider ourselves valuable, because we have still yet to realize the potential that is inside of us. Still, and for that goal to be extracted, to actually come out, it has to go through a crucible. It has to go to fire. That's why the word crucible does not only mean in the english language: the metal that is used for melting other metals. It also means this, according to John Maxwell, "a crucible in an opportunity, a test, or sometimes even an emergency that summons the very best from a person and reveals its finest qualities. Once a potential person experiences a crucible, they are transformed forever. - Pastor Carlo Panlilio

You have to engage in the great plans of the Lord. You have to accept that you are meant for greatness, therefore you have to stop being mediocre. You have to do things properly and part of it is discipline. You are born for such a time like this because you have to rise up for your calling. You are representing the Father. 

Even if you make mistakes, stupid mistakes. Remember that the game starts there. It is your response that matter. You may not be able to redeem yourself in the eyes of those who have already given the judgement, but remember that we serve only one audience, and it is God. Do not forsake changes, Rau. You have to change. If you don't... You will still have to, because the world does not revolve around you.

If you begin to think otherwise of all the things that you can do, hold on to who God tells you who you are. God always calls us to come just who we are. It is His Word that only matters. The world may applaud strong women but the world needs those who are kind. The world might always tell you to be perfect, but the world needs someone who understands. The world would always want you to be everything, just be who you are.

God is pleased with you, because of Jesus. If ever you can't accept whoever God is telling you who you are, take Jesus. Hold on to him who overcame, conquered it all for you. He loves you beyond how you love yourself. Accept that He wants to accomplish great things with you, outside your comfort zone. Stop listening to yourself and start building your identity to who he tells you that you are.

He will never leave you nor forsake you. He is for you and not against you. He never gave up on you. He cares for you. He's looking after you. All things work together for good to those who love God. Continue to delight yourself in the Lord, He will give you the desires of your heart. You are like a tree planted beside a river that flows forever; in and out of season you shall bear fruit. You are not abandoned. He is your portion, your secured lot. You are filled, full and overflowing. You are not who they say you are, or what you do. Choose your battle. And be human.

Spend your time wisely. Learn to say no. Love your family. Always be thankful of the people around you. Always work with purpose; where you are right now is where God called you to represent Him. Your resolve, never lose it. Live, laugh, love. Share life. Always, be confident in the Lord in whatever you love to do. Your life is all about Him, let it unfold.

Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say to you, rejoice! Celebrate!


Con todo mi cariño,
Rau, 24