<--------------- See this picture? That was the ticket from the resort where the Christmas party of my beloved group was held. Today was really an awesome day.Well, supposedly,I mustn't come due to financial problems. But they helped me get through out of it - an unexpected gift from them, from God.
I know them. In terms of finances, they are stingy. I mean, that's practicality at our times. Yesterday, when they all settled everything for today's agenda, it was decided that everyone must contribute this figures so that the food that were suggested and approved will be served. Now, I was flustering with the thought of it. I knew about this long ago, and I didn't mind it at all. Yes, I relied on my own. I never prayed for it. I never dared to ask God's will for it. And so this day came.
This day wasn't really good for the agenda, and I know its because I never told the Lord about it, I just told myself, everything is provided and spoke out words that was really compromising. My mom wasn't in good mood because of the misunderstanding she had with my father. I'm still her daughter and I am trying my best to obey her and father as I could so I could show Jesus to them. Now, as I asked permission to go, mother didn't react something good though she knew about it. For almost the entire day, I was really bothered about it.
We met at the place quarter to 5pm. We waited for the others to come. We met some old folks, talked some and reminisce some of the old days, old ways. It was quarter to 7, if I'm not mistaken, when everyone was already in the place. And just by that time, mother called and told me to go home because its already late in afternoon. I told her that we just came in the place and will still have fun, but she didn't like it and insisted. I was stubborn there. I didn't come home as she told me. I stayed a little longer and had fun for a while.
I opened everything in prayer. I prayed for the food and for the presence of everyone. We ate. We took some pictures. We laughed. We talked. We finished eating. We decided to take a dip in the pool. Quarter to 8, my mom called again and told me in an angry voice to go home because its already late. I told her that I'll be going home estimatedly 10pm. She declined my offer and insisted. I too, insisted, and so she told me "do what you want". Somewhere in my heart, I was hurt because I know, she is driven with emotions in relation with her argument with father and that, there's no money for Christmas. Well, I do not really mind if there is or none at all, because the greatest thing in Christmas is not the fiest in the table, but the birth of our Lord Jesus. Sigh. If she only know how to come before the Lord, everything wouldn't be like this.
Anyways, I really felt blessed today. I mean, it's God's glory. I can say that it is not just a coincident that I made it to the party; that even though I don't have money for the event, still He provided. I talked my confidant in the group and asked for a sorry for the mess I did. She told me honestly that she was sulking the time I told her I couldn't come because of financial matters, but what was prevailing during that time in her was the urge to help me. I received her GM telling: Guys, let's contribute for Rau's part. And I was like, hey, what? wait, nooooo. I was a bit ashamed of myself as I read the message, but she told me that it's alright since we're friends. Everyone agreed for it and I was like, it's a debt that will last forever. Even though, the other side of me tells that they made it because they don't want to increase the figure of contribution, what I can really see and hear in the whole of me is their care and love for me. Yes, that's it and no other.
In the midst of the completion of the meeting, others said to just cancel it because of the sign that appears, like the expenses and my presence. But this very confidant of mine messaged to everyone in an enthusiastic spirit: if there's a will, there's a way; the Christmas party will be held.
Before going to the pool, we made the exchanging of gifts. And because I was full of unworthy and unhealthy thoughts that day, I forgot about the gift that I must give. So guess what, God provided it! HAHA. It was really amazing. That time, in an instant, God provided! He poured out all the blessings I needed that time in a snap of a finger and in a blink of an eye. The extra gift was prepared because we were expecting someone to come, but because he wasn't able to, it was decided that I'll be taking the gift as my own and give it to my manita. And what's funny about this was that, the person that didn't come in the party was the one that I keep on texting and pursuing to come. See how everything twisted? HAHAHA. It was really a great pleasure that he wasn't able to come. God really surprised me.
My feelings, I don't know. But what I see tells me to rejoice and see the glory of God itself. Somehow, there's something inside me that wants to cry for joy because of what I witnessed. I want this event to last in my memory, be a testimony for God's glory, for God's love, for God's answering of prayer. In His time, waiting yields into something worth waiting. It's not going to be the same because there's a lot more waiting ahead of us. And by that time, in the same situation, it will generate deeper into my heart, my mind, my soul. That my spirit would recognize that it really is from God, that there's nothing in this world that we do that God doesn't approve, that God didn't work on; for He established our ways and thoughts.
Before I left the place to go home, I asked them to gather in prayer. I wanted to declare the blessings of the Lord upon them. I asked to receive every declaration I put into prayer, in faith, so that everything will be place on God's plan. Yes, I love them so much that it hurts me sometimes when I see a point in life that I can compare them to my Spiritual group. I BELIEVE AND DECLARE, that they'll be one of the Christians that loves to serve and love the Lord. I included my prayer that the group will grow and get strong in Christ Jesus.
I'll be praying for this group with all of my heart. Yes Lord, I am excited to see them worshiping you - that together we will sing you praises and worship you in spirit and in truth! ♥
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